SHIN-13

i realise tt i can use my hp gprs to enter my blog n leave a tag...haha...tt is lik so cool la...now i can "monitor" my blog almost 24hr liao...lol...:P

anyway to "o.0"... since u hav "confirm" tt i m a total poseur...den i shall tell u the shin-13 story...anyway from the looks of it i tink u shld b still a nhds dancer ba...dun ask mi y i say tt...lets juz say its gut feelin...haha...

to +^.^+: wa...its now veri hard to cum across early birds liao lor...i used to b one too...but gettin more n more lazy...haha...:p anyway 10z for u constant tags...but plz do tell mi ur name la... :P
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hmm...where shld i start...i guess since today i m so in mood...i shall start from beginning...but b4 i beginnin i wan to stress tt all tt i m goin to say is purely of my opinion n perspective...if dere is anything tt u dun agree wit juz voice it out...as to blive or not...i leave it up to u to decide...haha...

well at first i was rather a loner in dance...as in dun realli hav a grp of ppl to mix wit...although dere were 5 guys from my class 1/7...but still i didnt mixed well...wat can i say... i was a weird guy back den...everytime after dance go home...sumtimes wit kai wei & daryl...but we onli lame around...mayb juz regular friends lor...

from young i hav been tease for mani things...one obvious thing was my size...tts y i was rather sensitive to ppl teasin mi...i was emotionally unstable...

den tt accident occured...it was durin dance prac...we had a game...sec 1s were suppose to form a human wall to protect sumone...den mao rong was the one chosen...den since the aim of the other seniors was to capture him...so i suggested a decoy...since i was the one hu suggested it...i decided tt i shld b the decoy...usually the person chosen wld take the centre place...coz its the hardest to reach...so i changed places wit mao rong...so he took the side of the inner wall...den the game started...everything started well...coz our wall was rather strong...but suddenly the outer wall was push inwards n collapsed on the inner wall n onto mi...at tt pt i was being pin-down...my lungs were compressed n i had difficult breathin...soon i was runnin out of air...n was screamin for help...shin-13(back den we were still not shin-13 yet)... hu were the ppl startin in the inner wall tried wit all deir might to push the ppl stackin on us away...at the same time dey were shoutin for help too...in the end i was saved by the skin coz i tink mr low n mdm see sense sth wrong so immediately call off the game... in a way mr low mdm see n shin-13 was my life savers...tts y from tt day on i told myself i muz contribute all i can to dance society to repay dese ppl...n try to make deir time here worth it...but for dis time i will juz concentrate on shin-13

n bcoz of tt i bcame more sensitive to wat shin-13 ppl say n do...so sumtimes deir words n action hurt mi a lot...den came the SYF '01 we were all takin part in both happi volunteer n qiu yu...except for daryl n jian tao...we spend lots of time together practisin...i remember tt we were constantly practisin together for the liu xing...i still remember kai wei was showin us his "amazin" stun for liu xing-guo tou tt nv touch head one...den tt day at the cultural finals... we were all so overjoyed...we won :')...den at the international finals...dey did sth tt realli stab mi in the heart...but well it was rather embarassin abt how it developed...so shldnt elaborate...haha...

den in sec 3...the real shin released deir first album...den kai wei zhenyu yan chuan kien yien yong sheng n kenrick got a hook onto deir songs...i tink haha...den decided to call demselves shin...n giv demselves weird names wich i shldnt elaborate on...durin tt time dey lik to sing songs durin breaks of prac... n b4 n at the end of pracs too...dey not onli sang shin songs but oso mani others... dey might not hav a veri gd vocal...but to mi at least...it was definitely entertainin...:) durin abt the same time it was SYF '04 preparation too...so dey wld "entertain" the crowd durin breaks...dey wld finish deir lunchs quickly n get to deir "stations"...i tink mr low lik dis idea...so he wld sumtimes extent lunch breaks...:p

durin tt same time...i was appointed chairman...n bcoz of tt dere was a lot of friction btween mi n the guys...durin tt time u cld say i was alone...coz dey didnt realli lik my workin style...i didnt quite lik deirs too...durin tt time i was livin in darkness...in a world wit my shin-13 to brighten up my life...

on the nite tt we return from botantical gardens... we held a mini concert...but dis time it was diff... other guy dancers from my batch were invited to join the original 6...we sang till our hearts content...we even invited the gals too...mani weep tears of sadness for we r graduatin soon...we promised dem tt we will cum back often to visit...tt time i felt tt i hav stepped out from the darkness...

den our o lvls came...we kept givin each other encouragements...we grp into our individual small grps n went to fight for a better tml...true enuff most of us did well...but even for dose hu didnt...succeeded in deir own unique way...soon we graduated...

den came dance camp...we were asked to put up a performance...at first we tot tt we will juz sing...but in the end we in-promt-to a dancin segment...haha...den came the singin part... we even reheasled for it...distributin one part to each one of us...its was a pity though coz not all was present...but still it turn out great...at tt pt in time we were oredi shin-13...although the name was onli tot of early last year...

we were veri unique inviduals tt got to gather here from out of the 6 billion ppl in the world's population... we all trained hard n sweated together...rested n slacked together...at our favourite spots...at the back of the hall n bhind the stage...we joked together n lame around... we quarral but stregthen our bonds...we forge friendship tt i tink every single one of dem didnt experience b4...n memories tt were dear n precious to us...n so tts y we formed shin-13...

bcoz of shin-13 i was no longer the my lonely self...coz i hav a great batch of buddies wit mi... standin together...bu guan tian gao di hou...

after we grad...we still constantly gathered together...the last time tt all 13 were around was durin the chalet tt was juz b4 dance camp '03...den kien yien n jian tao went overseas to study...den sum of us went jc sum went poly...but still we took time to gather...n sum of us even joined Dance inspiration...n had more time together...we went for ktv n tok cok sessions...n soon zhongyi joined us...he bcame part of the grp...he might not b the one hu went thru thick n thin wit us...but he was worthy to b part of us...mayb we shld b called shin-14 instead...

the most memorable gatherin was at winstons chalet...where we celebrated zhenyu's bday... n oso had a brother swearin session...tt was one nite to remember...yeah...

as for myself i got so attached to shin-13 tt i made a poster of us...veri poseur? mayb...now i even own a dog tag n a key-chain tt has the word shin on it...it represents all the memories tt shin had together...

sori for the long entry...but i did say it was goin to b a grandmother story...but juz hav sum last things to say...Shin-13 remember the chain tt mr low gav us...tts our bondin present...sum of u might hav lost it or broken it...but nvm...its the tot tt counts...now i m workin on a t shirt... i hope to get it done b4 A lvl...but wat i realli wan to say is tt i had mani enjoyable times wit u ppl...memories not to b forgotten...SHIN-13 u r a grp of wonderful ppl...SHIN-13 u RAWK...

msg of the day: to shin-13 n nhds-U R wonderful ppl...


P.S: anyway regardin the navigation of dis blog...dere r "2 pg" in dis blog...basically "blog" n "navigation"..."blog" obviously will show u all the entries... n "navigation will show u all the "stuff" eg abt mi, name, age, chatterbox etc...dis 2 "links will b found at the bottom left hand corner of the entry box...whereby "blog" is on top n "navigation" is below...juz click on the one u wan to c...hav fun readin...

poseur?

hmm...today nth muc to do la...or rather didnt feel lik doin anything...so slack lor...as usual...dl sum midi...playin on my media player now...hmm...quite soothing ba...if anyone interested can ask mi for dem...especially dose ppl hu go ktv wit shin-13 ppl regularly one...or even better if u a shin-13 member...got all dose "brother" songs...lik hai kuo tian kong from beyond...wa...dam nice worz...

anyway to tt other anonymous person wit the name "o.0"...hmm...actually i rather agree tt i m a poseur...but den hor onli abit la...dun tink is till the extend tt i can replace dem or sth lik tt...but tts not wat is impt...wats impt is wat lead u to tt idea of mi being a poseur...

dere is a few possibility tt had made u conclude wit tt idea...
first is the skin of the blog + the music...
second is u browse thru the whole blog...
third u r sumone from nhds...
for the first 2...i dun blame u la...coz u dun understand wat made mi or rather us shin...i wun mind explainin la...but it will take ages...since its a long story...mayb next time ba...

if u fall into the 3rd category...den i guess u cld b tt person hu shoot mi online in one of the other dancer blog...well den i onli can say tt u r being childish...but dun blame u la...i mean u r wat...tts y i keep callin u ppl gina...no offense to other dancers tt r no longer classified as gina...anyway until u understand how thick shin-13's bond is...u will nv understand y we r such "poseurs"...i dare say we r one bunch of ppl tt u can hardly cum across...let alone being such buddies... i hope u understand if not at least a little wat i m tryin to say to u...if not u can cum n shoot mi again...den mayb i might juz take u a little more seriously n explain more clearly...or mayb even better ask my other shin-13 buddies to help out too...

wich ever category u fall in...i still welcome ur feedbacks...b it gd or bad...coz seriously i dun mind...the fact tt i decided to move to blog shows tt i m prepared to handle such stuff...since in my od onli pleasant noters leave deir well wishes...tink tts all for now...ciao...
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24hrRu!
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hey anonymous...u not from DI...but from nhds rite...anyway how cum u wake up so early in the mornin sia...ur post was timed at around 8+ sg time i tink...early bird sia...or u hav to go to church...compared to a pig lik mi hu woke up onli at 12...haha...:p anyway take care...

msg of the day: we shld grow up as we age, instead of being childish n refuse to grow up...


P.S: anyway regardin the navigation of dis blog...dere r "2 pg" in dis blog...basically "blog" n "navigation"..."blog" obviously will show u all the entries... n "navigation will show u all the "stuff" eg abt mi, name, age, chatterbox etc...dis 2 "links will b found at the bottom left hand corner of the entry box...whereby "blog" is on top n "navigation" is below...juz click on the one u wan to c...hav fun readin...

for ur info

juz for ur information...dis blog has been juz created today...so the reason y dere r so mani old entry is i paste dem from my od here...so sum things might not make sense here...both the content n the font...coz i duno y sum of the words kana converted to chi n all...but watever...anyway i m new to blogspot...so feel free to giv mi comments...10z...

P.S: anyway regardin the navigation of dis blog...dere r "2 pg" in dis blog...basically "blog" n "navigation"..."blog" obviously will show u all the entries... n "navigation will show u all the "stuff" eg abt mi, name, age, chatterbox etc...dis 2 "links will b found at the bottom left hand corner of the entry box...whereby "blog" is on top n "navigation" is below...juz click on the one u wan to c...hav fun readin...

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24hrRu!
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msg of the day:CLOSED

ambulance attachment

today went for ambulance attachment...quite ok la...had one case...one woman fall down...den fake faintin...coz her eyes were flickerin...n her hands when held up dun fall naturally...obvious she is consious to control her hand movements...haha...lol...his father say she from woodbrigde hospital...his father lik dun lik her presence or sth...at first didnt wan to pei her go hospital...den his friends urge him den he go one...one weird uncle...haha...
sianz sia...kana scolded by the driver 2 times...ok la not scold la...juz lik "oi" la...coz i duno wat to do wat...den nv react...den when he ask mi do sth den i dun understand...i tink he muz b tinkin tt i m retarded or sth...wat a day...
anyway today i wan to dedicate to claudine all dis smileys...haha...coz she say all my entry sad sad de...so she say she wan to c sth happi in it...:) ;) ^_^ ^-^ 8-) X) :P lol...i onli can tink of all dis...
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24hrRu!
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hey anonymous...so u from DI izzit...or wat...

btw...i movin to blogspot liao...so b sure to visit mi dere hor...the add is burnedestiny.blogspot.com ...
msg of e day:a little everyday...

zhongyi explode sia

sianz sia...actually afternoon zhongyi tell mi greenlight liao...everything settle liao...den suddenly things sianz liao...coz the gina performin not up to standard...den in the end make until zhongyi hav to go down to perform lor...sianz...den its not a 4 min thing lor...its a 10 min lor...den now zhongyi sianz diao liao lor...
dis is the first time i c zhongyi so sianz...den tok veri harsh...sianz sia...cham liao la...den mr low say wan to close DI... sianz...i realli duno wat to say lor...aiya...sianz la i duno wat to say lor...now things veri tense lor...
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24hrRu!
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hey anonymous... wa... where did u cum out wit tt lame joke one...haha...wat u bz wit...
msg of e day:izzit so hard to self sacrifice for ppl tt had done so muc for u...

dance inspiration=> e end?

wa...chingay juz over onli leh...so fast all the ppl run away liao ar...sianz man...sat got wu shu performance...but lik nobody can go...sianz man...the cruel of reality...haiz...now onli zhongyi goin...n he is "forced" to go lor...he got 4 proj to b handed in after the weekend lor...den next week got exam liao...wa...i feel so pai seh for not goin man...although its true tt i oso cant make it...i c him lik tt i oso duno wat to say...
i no now everyone got deir own commitments n all...but try...pls try to help out...DI cant survive wit no members...seriously i dun wish to c the end of it...it is suppose to live on...
but dose hu got no reason one hor...really i got nth to say to u ppl sia...i feel sad to b ur senior...ya its true we cant force u all to cum down n wat so ever...but den dun u tink its veri selfish of u to cum to DI when dere is sth fun...let mr low teach u things n all...den after tt got thing need u all help den all run disappear...n u all still kou kou shen shen shou we r BROTHERs...hello friend! wake up ur bloody idea la... brothers dun abandon each other in the time of need one lor...even if we dun say DI la...lets say nan hua need help...ok dun say nan hua...lets juz say nan hua dance...lets say nan hua dance need help wit a big proj...den ask u all to help...seriously do u tink u will help if the proj is a lame stupid dry borin nth to do juz need a lot of man power proj...i dun tink so...coz u r not brother enuff...here i m not sayin dyin for ur brothers leh...juz lendin ur helpin hand onli...go tink abt urself...
haiz...y do i even bother to try man...its lik useless...sori to dose tt R BROTHER enuff...dis isnt meant for u ppl...but i realli hope tt thru dis i might b able to wake sum of the ppl up...
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24hrRu!
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hey anonymous...10z for ur note again...i haven being recievin encouragements for a while...wat hav u been up to...bz wit sch? or r u oso from DI...tell mi hu r u leh...:p anyway... i duno wats the answer to tt riddle...tell mi the answer la...haha...till next time...cya...take care...
msg of e day:let DI regain its lifeliness again...

anger

wat is happenin to mi...i cant control myself anymore...now i go around throwin my temper at everyone...i feel so angry n disappointed wit myself...y hav i bcum lik tt...haiz...i even shouted at my mother...for the first time...haiz...y m i lik tt...now i my so filled wit emotions...i feel lik cryin out...nobody understands how i feel...nobody undertstands mi...haiz...i feel so lonely...i m sufferin alone...haiz...dis is even scarier den A lvl...
i hav been watchin naruto...dere r certain parts of the show tt strikes my mind wit tots...a person left alone in a crowd...n purpose of existence...hu wld no tt ...a simple anime lik tt will make mi tink so muc...haiz...i m hopeless...
i feel so xing ku...veri...xing ku...
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24hrRu!
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y m i always writin all dis sad stuff...when half the time i m the one readin it...doesnt it juz make myself sadder...i oso duno y ...wei xuan asked mi..." hav u found ur method of lettin of steam"...i said no...but hu noes dis is it...but den again...i guess its not...haiz...
msg of e day:sumone relief mi :'(

y is life lik tt

xiang tong le gui xiang tong le...but den i still need sum time to sort things out...i muz get stronger...i muz hav will power over myself...things tt i hav to do i shld do...but now i lik still cant focus lik tt... but i muz realli promise myself tt i will b more focused after i put down DI...A lvls wont b ez...nobody said it wld b...but wat can i say...jia you ba...
hmm...recently i m gettin more n more hot tempered...y lik tt...haiz...sth is wrong lor...y...haiz...izzit coz i m under too muc stressed...muz realli calm myself down...muz learn to control my emtions better...den look at things calmly n tink thru it properly b4 i decide to react to it in watever way...i muz learn to b a better mi...kambatei...
things at home r gettin from bad to worse...duno wat to say...duno wat to do haiz...y uz things b lik tt...y muz life b lik tt...veri stressful one leh...haiz...dis is redundant one lor...y muz lik tt...sianz...acutally wanted to write a proper entry...now dun hav the mood liao la...sianz dun write liao la...take care ppl...
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24hrRu!
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i seriously hav to stop tryin to force my workin style on ppl...if not sooner or later i will hurt the relationship of mi n my friends...go go go...
msg of e day:a moment of peace in exchange peace in exhange for a period of harmony

ji mo/jie tuo

yesterday go out...alone...coz cant find anyone to pei mi...realli veri sad...dis juz shows wat kind of person i my to everyone...i felt so despo lor...i hav to go around "beggin" ppl to pei mi...but...haiz...wth...suan le...
den went to hospital to c rebecca...but she was discharged le...sianz...suan le...den go jp do a bit of shoppin...didnt buy muc la...but i tot abt a lot of things...it shows tt i m not hu i tink i m...i hav so mani friends wit mi tt i forgot tt i m a crowd magnet...at least i was taught a lesson...it realli hurt mi...but i muz say sum of dem realli wanted to pei mi...but cant...so i hope dis ppl dun feel bad...
today...finally i feel jie tuo from dis love trap tt i hav been stuck in for lik 2years liao...or at least almost...reason is bcoz i xiang tong sum things le...but confirm a not duno la...mayb need time to reassure myself of certain things...actually wat do i mean by jie tuo...i guess it means tt i m not as bothered by it liao...but truth reminds tt i will nv forget her nor the wonderful memories...i remember last time i created a quote...not veri sure is dis the exact one...but its sth lik "u may hav forgotten mi,but u will always b engraved in my mind" so lik wat dis quote says...u will always b remembered...although dis is an one-sided love...but at least i got to enjoyed the short but sweet period of time... after so long...i hope leavin is not a wrong decision...but lik i always hav wished...i hope tt we can at least b friends...
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24hrRu!
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haiz...recently sum qns hav pop-up in my mind...coz zhenyu was askin dem too...things lik passion , purpose of life,luv....i realise i dun understand dis 3 things...guess tts y my life is in a mess...BurneDestiny i guess...haiz...i realli hope to sort things out...n tink properly...i need to stand up lik the person i m in the day...super positive...not lik now...onli tempo onli...at nite den lik tt liao...haiz...
anyway with regards to anonymous...dere is nth i can do to u...since i duno hu r u...but is dere a need for dis suspence...i m ur friend rite...den y wan to hide...i realli duno...but watever it is... i hope to hav a better way of contact to u other den thru my od...coz its juz not the way for friends...i dun mind if u keep ur identity...but i realli wish i cld hav a nice chat wit sumone as nice as urself...watever it is...10z in advance...
msg of e day: °最美丽的时光已成回忆°希望我这次真的解脱°