The people you meet

Exams are finally over, but now I am busy with work. I am not complaining, I wouldn't have much other things to do anyway. So, better than letting my time go to waste. Now that my 3 years with uniSIM is done, I shall wait for the results and see if I will do my fourth year. But, done to objective and development setting at work, I reviewed my decision I set out 2 years ago when I joined Elsevier.

I must admit along the way things have change(If they didn't, something must be wrong.) and it's not like I didn't expect it. So, basically the situation now is open-ended. But, I still want to do what I set out to do, question is where and when. But, I guess I want to take a break and wait for my results first.

U.N.I 2011 is just next week and I made it a point that I take part in at least one item(excluding guest starring in Zhongyi's item). I guess my reason was that I wish to perform once more. Furthermore, I don't think I will be performing again after this.

In any case, if life was to stay status quo now, I would have no complains. Although, not the best, good enough.

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Today, I was thinking about the idea of fate, about the people you meet in life. Everyone that you meet in your life has a role to play in your life or at least that is the ideology that I subscribe to. Yes, even those that pisses you off. They are in your life to piss you off, but I am sure it happened for a reason. Maybe they are there to piss you off now, so that you don't get pissed off in another similar occasion which might have a detrimental impact if you do. Or maybe it's so that you don't piss others off the same way. I wish to see it as a learning experience.

But, of course, we don't see things that way every single time and we miss out the role of some people that we crossed path with. At times, I try to remind myself of this and somehow it provides a new perspective to how I see someone. At the same time, I found that when I actively do that, I avoid pitfalls in thinking that I learn in psychology.

So, from time to time, it is good to think about people whom you have crossed path with. At least, those that have contributed to growth of you, contributed to the you in the mirror today.

Happy Birthday to me!

One more year has gone by and now I am 24. I think this is becoming a tradition for me to blog my thoughts on my birthday(although sometimes I don't do it on the day itself). Year 23 was rather smooth and was able to finally get my promotion just before my birthday. To some it may be a small promotion, but a promotion is a promotion and I am glad my efforts are being recognized. Work has really been fun and enjoyable and like some of guys say, "This is how some gets sucks in." I do admit that there is a possibility of that happening, but I shall make it a point to venture out.

Yesterday, one of colleagues from another department asked her boss(whom I am on rather good terms with), "Is Sam leaving? He seems rather unhappy recently." Do I? I don't think I have said anything to that colleague that might have suggested that. But, it did get me wondering was it written on my face? I do admit that these two weeks haven't been very good in fact was rather lousy and I am still recovering from it. But, I didn't think it was to the extent that it was observable. The only reason I can think of is that patience wears out faster these two weeks.

Somehow, it seems that every year I will experience a downhill just before my birthday. But, like one of my trainers said, "Lower your expectations and you will feel better." True enough, I seem to lower my expectation for some stuff, though it wasn't enough for me to avoid being quick tempered.

At age 24, I have not quite achieve some of the things that I hope to achieve, but I guess there is still time. Ok, the entry is getting rather heavy, I shall try to end with something lighter.

Now the time is 6.12am and I am sitting outside of the gate to the plane due for KL. My wish for this year is to be able to meet her again and maybe be able to forge something meaningful out of our fate.

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In this world with population of 6.9 billion, the probability of meeting someone is very low, let alone to having a meaningful relationship.

Take time to slow down your pace and think about if there is anyone in your life that you are neglecting.

Don't let chance pass you by because you hesitated or procrastinated.

You may only have that one chance.

Or if you are given multiple chances, the more you should take action.

It's been a long long time/Splitza: Alternate storyline Revealed.

Yes, I know. It has been a freaking long time since my last post.

Let's see, what was I up to... I stopped blogging to prepare for my exams which ended in late May. Results were mediocre, but I can't expect too much considering the amount of effort I put in.

Then, had a break in June till recently when class started. Didn't really do anything significant, I think.

Now...Quite a bit of changes in office. Recently, reassigned to help out in a project and will need to travel in September. As a result of the project, I was pulled out from daily work and also RE Club (can't remember whether I mentioned about it on blog before).

The thing about RE Club is that I have been working in the club for more than half a year and planning of events such as D&D are in progress. So, I kind of feel bad about having to left halfway, though it wasn't my choice. RE Care(which is something I volunteered for which is about community services) is something that I was looking forward to, but didn't get to follow through for the same reason.

But, all that being said, I am not complaining or unhappy about the arrangement. In fact, it is quite exciting. I mean I get to go overseas as a junior. And all this recognition of my efforts at work with new responsibilities and training opportunities. It is all very nice.


Recently, I have been thinking. (yeah right, since when do I not think about something) Because I am doing Positive Psychology this semester and constantly coming across positive thinking during various training programs at work, I tend to think in a more positive light now. Consciously, at least.

It's a good thing. I am now revisiting certain bad memories from the past and doing a proper closing to that chapter of my life. It's not exactly the easiest thing to do, since emotions are involved. After doing that, I feel a whole lot better. Maybe that is why I haven't been blogging, because I didn't need to anymore. No emotion dumping was required.

Maybe now, I can start to blog about the stuff I intended to in the very very first place. Things about how I see and think about this complicated world of ours. Not that my views are special or THE WAY or anything of that sort, but I always believe that everyone's perspective would probably be unique in their own way. And maybe through this way we can learn from each other.

Years back, I started working towards my ideal world with the ideology from a simple movie. Now, I still am and I hope that I can make a difference in even just one persons life. And maybe it will be paid forward like how the theory should work.

Ok...I am starting to ramble, I shall stop here for now. =)

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Author Notes: As long as the entries has stopped, Splitza has also been on hold. I had no luck for the UNI item I intended to do. I guess I am still no good with offline creativity. Not trying to say that I have much creativity online. But, just this bit. That I have.

In any case, I won't start the chapters yet as I haven't figure out how to continue the story. If you know me well enough, it is probably unusual of me. Since, I am the kind of person who plans ahead quite a bit. Well, I did plan ahead and had a plot for quite a few chapters.

Remember I was saying that there was suppose to be an unfolding of a mentioned plot on 26 Mar 10. Well, Shiori was supposed to die on that chapter and also there was suppose to be a new character. But, after my little positive review (mentioned above) , I decided not to do it.

The truth is, Shiori was model after someone. Someone I wanted to forget and someone whom I had buried in my mind for quite a while. But, after my review, I had a different take of the situation and decided that she can continue to live in my heart as the perfect girl she was. (Hmm...Why did I put a picture of YUI there?)

It is right that people should calm down before they revisit the problem. It would probably look a whole lot less problematic.

In any case, Shiori won't die and the new character just have to find others ways of surfacing. And in doing this reveal regarding the original plot, some of you may start to think that in other words the characters and events are based on my life. My answer would be its up to your imagination and logical deduction as to whether it is based on my life. ;)

New Year/Splitza #2

It's a new year again. I should say 2009 was a lucky year. I didn't do so bad for my exams, especially for this semester despite the lack of revision. As for work, I think all is well. Colleagues are nice and caring, work is not too stressful. Just right for a part-time student like me. Finally, got back to DI. I managed to helped out in Anyhow Art '09 and I must say it was tiring. But, I enjoyed myself. Fitness was not as it was yesterday. although I wish to make it yesterday once more, but I just can't seem to see it through.

I hope all is well in 2010, maybe a pleasant surprise would be nice.

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Ah Long: Oi Sam, why you emo huh? It's X'mas leh! Time to PARTY!

Sam: Aiya...I also don't like party one.

Emo-Bu: Yeah lor, party so noisy right. Don't go good...

Ah Long: Oi Emo-Bu! You better tiam tiam hor I tell you. If not next time I make sure you wake up at Changi village ar!

Sam: The two of you keep quiet la! I want to be alone...

Ah Long: Hello friend...simi be alone? We are all in your head leh...How alone you want to be? Only sometimes heng heng can come out play only.

Emo-Bu: Ah Long he means he don't want us to disturb him. Not literally be alone la...

Ah Long: Ha-nah! You kiang la... Give you 2 clap! Happy?

Sam: Oh come on...!

Ah Long: Aye brother...simi dai ji...share la...Maybe we can help you ma...

Emo-Bu: Ha! Ah Long help? You don't get Sam into trouble already very good liao. Remember that time.....

To be continued on next entry...

Long over-dued post

It's a long time since I posted an entry. Well, this semester hasn't been the best one and I don't really look forward to receiving my results in Dec. But, it's too late to whine about it and I guess the best is not to let it happen again.

The last time I left off was in Aug, but I don't think there was much happening since there, nothing major. Exams are over and here comes the year end frenzy at Elsevier. But, I am not complaining, because I really like it there.

Recently, I made a promise to lose weigh and I even bought a weighing machine to make myself commit. I hope my willpower last enough for anything to take effect and maybe I could transfer the determination to my studies.

These few days was so enjoyable. I got to meet up with people, watch movies and just sit around without feeling guilty. In a few hours time(not exactly), I will be heading back to DI(finally). I really miss those days when I was in army when almost everything was about dance.

For now, I should just sit back relax and enjoy the breeze before I face the music.

I don't know when did it go away, but it did. I am at peace and I feel glad. In front of my computer, I wonder if you feel the same way. But, I guess you might never realize it, you never did. But, it's alright. I am fine now. Life is better. I have gotten stronger. I hope you are happy with how things are. Although, I won't say I will still be the same if you ever needed me again, I will still be here.

Everything is reversed in your world. I seem to be walking backwards around you. I feel silly, but I am happy. It's a happy place to be. Maybe the day will come when I turn around facing you, maybe it won't come. But, let's just stop at this beautiful moment for now.

My arms are wide open, I am ready to embrace the world.
I am just waiting for something for me to hold tight.
I call out to you and watch time pass me by.
If you can hear my call, I am here.