21 September 2005

Guilty Gear X personality test

Which Guilty Gear X character are you?

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24hrRu!
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msg of the day: I know well what I am fleeing from but not what I am in search of

19 September 2005

明年今日

although i change song to there with you liao...but i still lik dis one better...dis one is a song called 明年今日 by eason...nice song...but in canto...but heres the lyrics translated to chinese...
PS its diff from the chinese version...onli the tune same...so enjoy...=)

若这一束吊灯倾泻下来 或者我 已不会存在
即使你不爱 亦不需要分开

若这一刻我竟严重痴呆 跟本不需要被爱
永远在床上发梦 余生都不会再悲哀

#人总需要勇敢生存 我还是重新许愿
例如学会 承受失恋
明年今日 别要再失眠 床褥都改变 如果有幸会面
或在同伴新婚的盛宴 惶惑地等待你出现
明年今日 未见你一年 谁舍得改变 离开你六十年
但愿能认得出你的子女 临别亦听得到你讲再见

Repeat #

在有生的瞬间能遇到你 竟花光所有运气
到这日才发现 曾呼吸过空气
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24hrRu!
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msg of the day:默默等待你的出现

13 September 2005

There with you

here's a song by sly featured in shooting stars...i lik the song although i m not a sly fan...it juz catches mi the first time i hear it...the lyrics may wrong...coz is sumone hear liao write one...so tell mi if u no the actually lyrics...or u figured out any wrong words...

all this time while you're with me
i've been in the dark
didn't think for life of me
you won't do me wrong

we had it all
but you chose not to know
you'll always knew my heart was wrong
now we know i'm not who you want
i should let you go

i love you with your disguise
you've proven that love is blind
there are no answers i find
to stop the tears from my eyes

now everything looks black and white
you've taken away clear blue skies
thought it is time to go
i know my heart has always been
and it'll be there with you
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24hrRu!
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msg of the day:i love you with your disguise, you've proven my love is blind...

04 September 2005

gd things nv last,bad things come n come again...

ppl always say gd things nv last, sum say bad things come n come again...well i kinda hav to agree wit it...in the previous entries i had been given veri bright inspiration n stuff lik tt...but i guess all dis motivation tt i giv others isnt recieved by myself...even if it was...i guess it didnt stay...

left 7 days to prelim le...n yet today i had done nth...i duno wat has gotten into mi...m i juz plain lazy or is dere more to it...life is so difficult...i longer hav tt sense of direction i use to follow...my sixth sense abt things r diluted...the possiblity of dem comin true is gettin lesser n lesser...sumtimes i realli feel lik givin up on lookin for the answer n juz rot myself away...

but is dis it...m i suppose to juz giv up on myself now...or izzit my time is almost over...life force slowin drainin away...first my energy...den my memory...den slowin vanish into thin air...it might happen...hu noes...feelin helpless...feelin tt i need a rest...realli rest...but wat is the shity thing is tt i cant even sit for one sec not tinkin abt the bloody a lvl comin up...

life is so hard in sg...its so stressful...i dun lik it...but i dont hav a say in it...do i...argh...spare the crap la...its no use...i m juz tryin to avoid things...

haiz...sumtimes i hope miracles realli happened...but most of all its now...as most of u all shld no by now...it takes more den persuadin to convince mi to do sth...especially if its sth tt i resist...onli logic n inspiration can do the trick...all along i had been dependin on friends teachers n family to giv mi tt...but it seems tt i had gotten too used to it oredi...now i kinda not affected by "low lvl" persuadin...so rather a tough nut to crack...suan le ba...its no use sittin n waitin...though i realli hope sum angel get it into tt thick skull of mine...
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i realised i realli hav a prob expressin myself especially recently...i mean lik when i m dam sad...sumtimes i feel lik cryin...but den its lik juz blocked up...nth comin out...veri cham...tormentin sia...haiz...

the other time... i was bloody pissed wit the ginas...zhenyu shld no best abt the atmosphere back den...wao lao...oredi pissed enuff liao...den i recieved a bloody saddenin msg...wa...i tell u huh...its lik fallin into a btmless pit sia...wan to cry cant cry...wan to shout cant shout...veri helpless at tt pt of time...wa...sianz ar...

den now...got a lot of emotions welled up in mi...wan to express out oso cant...wanted to write a song out of it...but nth seems to come out...but dun write lik cant leh...veri sianz lor...btw in case u ppl r wonderin abt the song part...yes i do compose songs...but mostly not publish...coz dey r mostly veri private...haha...anyway cant write songs...so i wrote poems...but seriously i feel tt dey lack content n feel la...no value one...juz crap...argh...giv mi back my inspiration...later even gp oso cant write i die ar...

msg of the day:dun hide ur emotions, it will juz well up...one day it will b totally blocked...

01 September 2005

meanin of life

today went out wit zhenyu dey all...had a great chat...woo...was tt destressin or wat...haha...nice i muz say...

mao asked abt meanin of life in the conversation...den i triggered sum tots in mi...well...lik i explained to mao my perspective...meanin of life is sth tt onli can b discovered by urself...noone can define it for u...coz tt definition tt is given to u is probably tt persons meanin of life...n to mi i feel tt meanin of life of diff ppl r diff...in fact i feel tt dey might b unique...coz everyone hav a unique exp of in deir life wat...if u generally define ur meanin of life mayb u will find sumone wit a common meanin la...but i feel tt dere will still b sum diff...

for mi ponderin abt meanin of life is not the onli qn...i oso hav to ponder abt y was i given a second chance back den...anyway b4 u read on...dis para will b abit of the dark tinkin...so if u dun wan to b influence to tink dis way...skip dis para...anyway as i was sayin...if u ppl still remember...i almost died in an accident back in sec 1...well i had mi tinkin y was i given another chance to live...after muc tot...i felt tt mayb its coz i haven fufil my purpose/meanin of life...tts y i muz complete first b4 i m allowed to leave...well hu noes sum day i might die after the instance it is fufil...coz my second chance has expired at the moment its fufilled...or even sadder if i m takin too long den death is gettin impatient n takes away my privillege of my second chance...hu noes...life is so unpredictable...

but wat ever is ur meanin of life...at dis pt of time...i hav a theory tt i tot of myself...mayb it might help u tink abt ur meanin of life...or help u find or fufil ur meanin of life...tt is fate is decided by destiny...n destiny is decided by u...so u hav the ability to decide n change wat will happen to u...so bottomline is...fate is in ur hands...
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a lot of ppl r turnin deir blogs into a story writin tool...well i might wan to giv it a shot sum day...but for now i dun tink so...coz its rather drainin...i guess zhongyi will agree wit mi...

anyway juz sth to encourage ppl out dere still fightin the battle wit watever tt is u r facin...

when u r weary from the fight,
n a step back will bring blight.
take a look left n right,
ur friends will take u thru the plight.
wit ur target in ur sight,
together we will c the light.

not veri gd...but at least tink it might at least giv u sum drive ba...i hope...anyway i tempted to play ard wit the words...so tt all the words at the back rhyme yet still make sense...haha...

msg of the day:fate is in ur hands