the battle wit time

it seems that i m always in a war wit time...n it seems tt i lose all the battles tt we hav fought even since...n once again i lost...

but sumtimes doubt whether its time tt i had fallen to...i mean i cld hav fallen due to other reasons...its hard to tell when u r in the battle...bullets showering in a 2 way traffic....u nv no when u will b forced to surrender...or defeated by the 2 way bullets...

in a war...no sympathy shld b carried into the field...otherwise the one to die is u...but at our lvl of humanity...does tt tinkin still hold...does winnin always mean to defeat or to force the enemy into submission...

we r hu we r...the definition of winnin isnt always the same dictionary meanin tt is of easy reach to the so called champions...for dose hu hav or tink dey hav deir own set of criteria to meet b4 dey consider demselves to b victrous...even with ur own definition we normally arent able to meet it...m i not rite?well for most ppl...its coz we normally set sth tt is either achievable or higher den wat we r capable of...tts wat goals shld b abt...but more imptly...while goals make us aim high n far...we shld keep in mind tt the definition of accomplishin our goal is wat we set upon ourselves...but at the same time we shld let ourselves c tt we hav not lost everything...at least not the war...

yeah all dis shit may require ourselves to b quite a degree of a optimist to b able to accept such a philosophy ba...haha...but mayb dis story may help abit in understandin where i m comin from...anyway dis story is being written from memory...so mayb a bit off from wat i read...but i hope it is gd enuff...

one day a man brought his son to a farm to spend the weekend...the man wanted to take the oppurtunity to let his son c how rich n fortunate dey r as compared to the veri poor farmers...

"So...Son, how did u find the farm?Hu do u tink is richer?"said the man.

"Now, I finally know how poor we are."sighed the boy, "The farmers kids are so lucky."

"Omg?!?!?Why do u tink so?"the man questioned in shock.

"We have electricity and lights but they have the whole sky of stars. We own the land that our house is on but they own everything beyond the horizon. We can buy food to eat but they grow their own food. We have a nice garden behind our house but they have a big field behind their house."the boy complained.

So, hu do you tink is richer?

haha...so wat u guys tink...wat i type for the boy's reasonin is onli part of wat i read...but i juz cant remember dem...but i m sure u guys get my pt...so the key to the whole thing is perspective...

so wit dis i m goin to leave sth for u all to tink abt...i lost my battle wit time...but time didnt win the battle...c wat u all make out of dis...tag ur view...n we shall c hu gets the closest to my version...haha...

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May I love you
Singer:张智成

*Extract*
Love you, Love you
May I love you?
Tell me what to do
才能让你不孤单
我不孤独 一起找幸福
当这个世界一步一步华丽到荒芜
请放心 我还是你的信徒

Love you, Love you
May I love you?
Tell me you love me too
我可以继续付出
付出就够我满足
不相信爱情对我永远(的)残酷
我奢望 时间会为我祝福

i hav pasted the lyrics of a song here...i dun tink i hav to explain wat it means...haha...

msg of the day:I dun lik changes...since i hav grown so used...

the wait

waitin has taken up a giangantic chunk of my life...most of the time its coz i m too early... come to tink of it i m early for almost anything...i m early for sch, work, meeting, gatherin, trainin...even love...

so its lik i hav to wait for so mani things...for most ppl waiting takes up to 1/5 of deir lives(if i remember correctly)...seriously i dun mind waitin...as long as i hav mp3 to listen to or a bk of my interest...i can wait for hours...haha...but sumtimes i do snap at the late comer la...but if i do...most of the time is jokin onli...unless i m realli dam pissed...but i dun tink the late comin is the main reason ba...haha...

i hav been waitin for a week now...in fact i m anticipatin for it to come...for dose hu r updated...shld no wat i m waitin for...n fyi...i haven receive it yet...i seriously hope i can get it by tml...y sum may ask...its definitely not bcoz i cant wait...i hav my reasons...

sumtimes i feel tt my reasons may sound so ridiculous to sum ppl tt i feel veri reluctant to explain...makin mi lose my patience towards the more persistant ones...sumtimes it gets irritatin...

ok enuff side track...now back to the main topic...i wonder how muc longer the wait is goin to b...as far as my patience is concerned...it has no probs...but den since emotions r involved...the longer it drags...the more i tink...tink of the diff perspective...tink of how things cld hav or cld not hav been...its always my perspective...o well...my patience can onli entertain one person...since its entertainin the wait...i guess i hav to use sth else to keep my emotions in place n my perspective straight...at least until the wait is over...
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not suppose to b bloggin now...oredi tired from the days work n duty oso...still down here bloggin...but i juz cant help it la...juz feelin terrible...i shldnt hav toked abt tt thing...how stupid of mi...

i no the ans still go n ask...den makin hope seemed lik the oppo...i dun even no whether stupid is a strong enuff word...ha...

now all thanks to my genius tinkin...i m makin myself feel terrible n painful inside...now i hav to bear wit my fatigue n finish up an entry juz to exhaust myself physically mentally n emotionally...if not i no i will hav to face wit another slpless nite again...

although i dun say...but sumtimes i realli hoped hope noes how i feel n wat i tink...yes yes...its all abt mi...but on my end i wld love to no how hope feels n tinks...but its lik my hands r tied...or rather my mouth...since i m still obligated to certain rules of the game...tts y now i m onli down to my blog...not noin whether hope still reads a not...since the last time i no abt hope readin my blog was lik almost 2 mths ago...sumtimes i wished i had a way to track down all my visitors w/o dem findin out...den i wld at least b satisfied for the time being...

but since i m not satisfied in any of the ways i wished i was...i guess i juz hav to live wit it...

msg of the day:i dun lik triangles...esp if i was a isosceles triangle...

review of things...

haha...haven been updatin on things...well 3 major event passed since my last update r namely my grandfather passin away, hope's bday n yan's bday...haha...

well durin dis period of mayb 1 mth or more...i hav lot of tot abt life...n new resoultions formed...i blive i hav strenghten my philosophy...haha...durin den actually dere were a couple of times tt i feel tt i needed to blog...but sumhow i didnt in the end...either i found sth else to drown my emotions or i m juz too down to even blog...

haha...but o well...i survived...n summore after witnessin so muc saddenin stuff first person or second person exp...i figured tt i shldnt b so depressed wit my life...since dere r worsed...not tryin to put others down...but juz tt i shldnt b so low juz bcoz of small stuff...shld fight on...n make things better for myself...

but at the same time i no tt i hav been sayin dis kind of stuff for mani times...n veri long liao...but haha...i will keep tryin until i ultimately can do it...haha...yong yuan de xin tu...haha...

today actually not in the mood to blog one...but tot tt i shld keep record briefly of my tots...if not my blog will die...n my brain will overload oso...haha...summore suddenly got so mani ppl tok to mi...my train of tots oso luan...haha...but i will update soon la...coz i anticipate tt sth big is goin to happen...n i tink i will blog abt it one...
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i duno y...but i startin to lose my artistic touch for composin...haha...its as if the companionship of certain ppl gives mi certain "ability"haha...but aiya...no composin touch nvm...haha...at least my HR tinkin still ard...tts gd enuff for mi...haha...

tt time fate said tt i look happier...i wasnt sure if she was rite...but well i tink i can safely say tt i m happier now...haha...but i hope tt it stays the way it is no matter wat happens...haha...

msg of the day:happiness is by choice not by chance...

personality test:horoscope

Dominant Keyword: I AM.
Lucky Day: Tuesday
Lucky Numbers: 1 and 9
Birthstone: Diamond
Color(s): Red
Metal: Iron


Your most likeable trait: COURAGE
Aries is the first sign of the zodiac, the sign that symbolizes a new beginning. There is a dynamic restlessness to the Aries character. With the Sun in this sign you are an activist and doer. If you have a new plan or idea—if an enterprise strikes your fancy—you can't wait to plunge right in. The amusing little prayer, "Grant me patience NOW!" is typical of the Arien attitude.

When others first meet you their instant impression is of someone exciting, vibrant, talkative. Others will be lucky if they can get a word in edgewise. If someone brings up a topic, you will be delighted to tell in great detail exactly what you think about it.

As an Aries person you gravitate toward the center of action. You are a natural leader who exudes self confidence. From an early age you feel you are headed for success, and you treat opposition as an annoyance to be brushed out of the way.

There is nothing faint-hearted about an Arien. You are willing to take a gamble, follow a dream, set your mind on a goal, and pursue it with irresistible enthusiasm. Your supreme quality of optimism attracts others. Underneath there may lurk insecurity, but no one will ever know about it.

This is not to say you don't get depressed or moody. But the winter of despair doesn't last a week with Aries. You have an uncrackable optimism. It is true, however, that Aries people are notorious for taking offense at fancied slights and injuries. Hot tempers and childish tantrums abound, and your threshold of boredom is extremely low. If success is not immediate, you may lose interest and go in search of other excitement. As a result, patient, plodding types often get to the head of the class before you do.

Arien's have a well-deserved reputation for not finishing what they have begun. You sometimes spend your energy in too many different ways, like the Ring Lardner hero who mounted a horse and rode off in all directions at once.

Independence is a keyword. You can turn sulky and peevish if you have to take orders. You would much rather be the world's largest lizard than the world's smallest dragon. You want to run the whole show. If you can't, you pull up stakes and look for a situation in which you can show off your style and brilliance.

Should you come up against a superior force, you will bend but never break. Your aggressive and combative spirit cannot be broken by anyone—except yourself.

Though generally sincere and honest, you will tell a white lie if it seems advantageous. You are not a very adept liar, however; others see right through you. Sometimes you lack tact and diplomacy—but no malice is intended. Sagittarians also lack this quality of tact because they don't know how to be oblique or roundabout. With you, tactlessness is an impulsive act—a careless expression of your innate force. Too often you speak without thinking and say whatever pops into your mouth, and usually regret your impulsiveness later.

Aries is lucky with money, but can't hold on to it. You tend to run up big bills, live extravagantly, soar over budget. However, you usually find a way to pay off what you owe. You have too much pride to remain in anyone's debt.

In friendship you give magnanimously if someone is in need—but you want to get credit for your good deeds. In the garden of Aries, there are no shrinking violets.

You are creative, open-hearted, high-spirited, pioneering, also vain, feisty, and impatient. Those who deal with you on an intimate basis will have on chief problem: How are they going to keep up the pace?

Aries: The Amorous Nature
YOU AND ARIES MAN

It would be superfluous to say he has fiery emotions because he has practically no other kind. He's always in search of something that will satisfy his pioneering, ever-aggressive lust for adventure. He moves within a self-created aura of excitement and somehow things happen wherever he is.

He won't be easy to resist. Think it over before you say even a tentative no. Where else will you find a lover as adventurous, original, virile, and vital? A woman who is attracted to an Aries male should be willing to settle for a brilliant, exciting and generally short affair. Romantically, he dotes on challenge and novelty. To him the world is a garden of feminine flowers and he can't afford to miss the scent of a single lovely bloom. There are so many delights to sample—before winter comes. He is always eager for a new experience. At first, that's all a woman represents to him.

However, there is a vulnerable side to this man. he believes in the Eternal Woman, a romanticized version of the beautiful goddess whom he will sweep off her feet. He doesn't understand deviousness in a relationship, and if a woman appears innocent and yielding he won't look further. If he discovers that he has been duped and taken advantage of, his bewilderment and hurt quickly turn to anger.

Aries is an acter-out of sexual fantasies. The minute he finds himself daydreaming about a sexual situation, he sets to work trying to make it a reality. And something about his blunt, direct approach, "the battering ram," gets results where more subtle means might fail. He leaves no doubt of his intention from the first, but comes at you directly. His manner is forceful, aggressive, and winning. He is used to winning. On your first date you'll learn that you cannot take the lead. He will tell you where you're going and when; you can simply relax and leave it all in his capable hands.

He is impulsive to the point of rashness. When he wants you, he wants you. He has no control over his passions and must go anywhere his desires impel him. He doesn't worry about consequences.

This man has energy, imagination, and sheer physical exuberance. Any woman who has had an Aries man around the house will tell you she had an exciting time—while it lasted.

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will i agree dis test is quite true for yan...but for mi i dun agree as muc...generally... i tink i m not tt impatient...of course unless it involves emotions den i wld hav no control over it...haha...n oso i dun tink i m as adventous as the test says i m...haha...so ya...wat do u guys tink...haha...

msg of the day:u r hu u r, wat the general states is onli a guide