I am not exactly missing one person here, so I just there is no point in asking who.
But, that person may be you. =)
Of these people that I miss, there are some who walked out of my life and some I let them walk out of my life.
It's probably too late to regret watching them just walk out like that without taking any actions.
Of course, I have wished that one day fate will bring us together again and maybe I could make up for lost time.
I could then say the things that I never said and do the things I that I never did.
But, all that is probably just dreaming because these things probably will forever stay as fantasies.
Unless one day, I see this fantasy coming true, its hard to believe.
Those that are still here might eventually leave one day, like the others did.
There is no dinner that lasts for ever.
But, yet I don't seem to be about to do anything about it.
It is always not the right time or feelings not right.
Most of all, I don't seem to be about express myself properly.
In the past, I over express myself.
But, now I can't seem to be able to even if I tried.
As I begin to uncover secrets to life, I discover keys to the unspoken closets in my heart.
I opened it to conclude that, its probably easier left shut.
Love is suppose to be irrational.
I couldn't explain my love for you.
Yet, when it is time to express my love.
I tried to rationalized something that never makes sense.
I really don't know how to express myself.
Looks like won't have a car to drive anytime soon...
We all have the Superego, Ego & Id which in layman term would mean stupid like "the angel and devil in your head".
The Superego is the angel and Id is devil.
The angel advocates morality and goodness and the devil advocates personal gains.
In a way, you end up as Ego balancing and keeping the 2 in check.
However, if it gets out of hand you probably become like this... 
Looked everywhere but just not there.
That little dark space just enough that I seem to care.
This is too big, that is too small.
Just can't seem to find the fit afterall.
I think of left, I take a right.
I just realised there is just no light.
I feel incomplete and need to know.
Where did the missing piece ever go?
I have no idea what is wrong with me, but I know the problem isn't you.
The things I do, the mistakes I make.
They just seem so wrong.
I need to get a grip and wake myself up.
Because it shouldn't bother me to this extent.
The more I learn, the more I discover.
There are things that I should know eariler.
I guess somewhere alone the line we do this.
As for why we do it?
Two reasons that I can think of now:
1)You are thinking about something else.
2)You believe this is what is called studying.
Well, for me at the moment its neither...
...its worse than this.
Have been bumping around lately(literally as well as figuratively), which totally just gets my mood down. It's not like I have been doing evil deeds or anything. I guess maybe it's just as Zhenyu says, "This shows that Karma is bullshit." Or maybe it just means that I have more Karma than I know.
But, it has all got me thinking whether what I am doing and seeking is wrong?I mean most of the time I end up crashing into things and it just sucks.
Honestly, I am tired of chasing after answers which I have no idea for what questions. It's as good as chasing after little red globes which half the time probably end you up somewhere else. Worse of all, it ends you up in deep shit.
Maybe it's time I turned off my GPS and let others do the bumping.
But...easier said than done...I probably need to find the off button first.
PS: I decided to adopt Michelle's style to accompany the text with a picture. I guess the picture would help especially when the entry gets lengthy and can also set the tone of the entry.
PSPS: No pun intending in the picture and text. But, I guess that imagination is yours...
I have done nothing wrong!But, why me?
I am in enough pain as it is, why did you have to add salt to it?
Seriously, enough is enough!
Do you need me to paint the whole picture for you?
Do you?
Or have your pictures always been painted upon mine?
Who am I kidding?
Obviously, it was my fault.
All that?Excuses!
Wake up you fat ass!
Seriously, serious give me a break.
