scary movie 3/new job

yesterday n today went for a new job...giv flyer for my tuition centre...onli 2 days onli...haha...den today last day liao lor...den the other job at my auntie factory oso end le...coz muz prepare for my jc first day wat...haha...actually is juz rest lor...
today oso watched scary movie 3...it is god dam lame sia...haha...haha...wan to roll on the floor sia...haha...veri stress relieving lor...not bad for a comedy la...i recommended it la...but NC-16...not everyone will get to watch...haha...
the pay i got from 2 jobs...i bought sum christmas gift n oso lotr 3in1 bk...a personal organiser bk...n 2 movies...one is scary movie 3 n the other one is treat my bro...haha...
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Kh!! !:haha...mao crap sia...say wat u no...wrong answer la...haha...ppl keep guessin n mayb one of u will get the answer...haha...not so easy de la...haha...anyway still not feelin better...as in emotionally...or shld i say i m in a lost...i tot i found my path liao...but it seems tt sumone destroyed the path n stopped mi from getting to the other side...duno la...will stay strong n face life lor...haha...but dere will still b times when i will b down lor...so dun b surprise when u c mi feelin down...i guess mayb life jiu shi zhe yang de la...
i guess i had oredi been thru a lot in dis short 4 years...i tink i hav been realli tortured a lot along the way...i had been thru sorrow, loniness, pain n mani other torturous experience...dere was a time when i was emotionally cheated...i was lied to times n times again...n the person until now still haven tell mi the truth...haiz... i duno wat to do wit tt person la...lik u all shld no...i hate ppl hu lie to mi especially if it involves my emotions...i can get veri emotional at times...so pls dun lie to mi... i rather u being blunt but frank...i feel better tt way...i realli dun lik it lor...
sum times i realli get emotional...but i juz cant cry...sumtimes is not tt i dun wan to...but i juz cant...mayb coz i told myself b4 tt i shldnt cry anymore...but sumtimes the occasion juz make mi wan to cry but cant... lik dance camp tt time.. i was veri sad tt everyone is leaving n all...n sth esle oso...but i juz cant cry lor...mayb my mind had been set tt way...but not long ago i was goin to sleep suddenly i felt tears from my eye...i was upset...i was sad...i was feelin sorrow...pain...left to weep in the dark...
m?#291;  ŧħέ d?#947;:left to weep in the dark

::her:: friend

i actually online not to write any entry one...but ur note had made mi done so...
i agree totally wit ur note...yes i realli do...no faking...but i hav to admit tt i was realli traumatized by the note...but i realli agree...i guess i juz cant accept the fact but...actually i could tell tt i m still hurting her...but i juz duno y i did all dose things...tts y everytime after i do dem i get veri upset n keep apologizing to her...but she will juz say nvm...sumtimes we even "fight"...i hate when tt happens...even if it happens between mi n a friend...i guess i m juz a insensitive jerk hu doesnt tink b4 doin anything...onli after...but after it dere will b no pt tinking coz it had oredi happened...i always do dis kind of things...wich get myself into trouble...u might tink tt i m a veri nice guy my friends...
but let tell u sth i m not...the ugly truth is so...nth can change it...i always tot myslef...i m so selfcentred tt i dun tink abt others...yes i m a jerk...ppl...after u read dis mayb u will agree tt i realli m a jerk...n u can decide to stop bfriendin mi anymore...i wun blame u...dun show mi sympathy...i dun deserve it...dun try to console mi...coz it wun work...i m juz so sturbborn...yes i m...now den u no ba...
anyway to ::her:: friend...i juz wan to say i no wat to do...juz giv mi time to finish wat i shld do...everything will b fine by den...mayb u wun even c mi anymore...ppl if u no wat dis means...dun try to tok to mi abt it coz i might get things worse...life is destinied...if i hav to die i will...btw ::her:: friend dun tink by leaving ur name lik tt i duno hu r u...coz i no...its juz a guess...but i got 80% feeling tt its hu i tink u r...n u oso say find sumone new...ya lik real...pls lor...i m sure u oso fall in love b4...how can anyone do tt in suc a short time...plus i m SO attached...u can blive if u wan to or not...i dun care...
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24hra}€:to her...this is the last time u will c dis coloumn ever again...coz dere will b no more after dis entry...if u r reading dis dun feel tt its ur fault tt i had bcum lik dis or anything lik tt...its not ur fault...stop blaming urself...dun let mi b ur burden...n will not b ur burden anymore after i finish wat i hav to do...mayb things will b better n happier for u dis way...i really duno wat to say anymore...i m now realli veri hostile at dis veri moment...hope tt i dun feel dis way tml...coz its dangerous...actually i was tinking of writing u a letter together wit the christmas gift lik i do for everyone hu has a share...now i look at things...mayb i will not b writing it anymore...i duno...it depends on how i feel after dis...i m sori tt i hav even coz any "injury" to u...tts all i can say...pls pls...dun let mi b ur burden...coz i m not...
to other ppl reading dis...lik i said above...dun try to tok sense into mi...coz i wun go in...get it...i might b veri hostile in the days to cum...so bcareful...i dun wan to hurt anyone...realli pls...i had done it b4...n i regretted it until dis day...i REALLI REALLI DUN WAN TO HURT ANYONE...
I REALLI FEEL LIK JUZ CRYING OUT RITE NOW...BUT I CANT...I JUZ CANT...I CANT EVEN FIND MY COURAGE TO DO WAT IS RITE...I M DEEPLY HURT DIS TIME...NOT BY HER...BY MYSELF...BY BLOODY STINKIN SELF...
msg of the day:BWARE OF MI

dedication

haha...lik i said lor...i will b working on dis entry...haha...
::her::[If w銬雟?/FONT> ?s鋓d wa??dr脘m , pra?/FONT> th鋞 will neVer w鋕?up fr簃 it.. ]
::mao::[time to find urself ur soul mate liao lor]
::zhu::[dun burden urself,even holding a cup can tire u out]
::yan::[time has not cum yet,keep lookin n u will find ur "her"]
::wenqin::[hope tt u n stella hui tian chang di jiu]
::xiu::[if u r fated to get sth,u will get it eventually]
::mw::[ru guo shi qing bu ru yi, bu yao hui xin, yao yong gan mian dui]
::daryl::<10z>[yo yo, or-jiao]
::wenbing::[hope tt u will b happi always]
::shi xiong di::[SHIN forever]
::dance members::[u r all wonderful ppl]
::present exco::[a gd leader brings his/her followers to we dey wan to b,but a great leader bring dem where didnt no but ought to b]
::next exco::[b responsible n do ur job well]
::4/7::[bai ren chen jin]
::evan::[or-ci]
::zhanyu::[stop drooling liao la]
::huiqi::::kelvin n wee long::[oi rubdium stop dreaming a jolene cai liao la]
::magic gang::[dere is no ultimate deck]
::J & J(Sam fan club)::[Sam rawks, WOO!]
::rest of my meis::[wat r kors for]
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24hra}€:hope i didnt miss out anyone...even if i did...i juz wan u all to no tt...u had contributed into my life one way or another...i will b moving on from here...so catch u ppl around...i no dis dedications all veri short...but juz cant find wat to say...den even if got a lot to say oso cannot...coz got limit wat...haha...take care ppl...anyone can contact mi if got prob...thru msn, email, hp, od...watever la...24hra}€ always here...haha...
msg of the day:we might b miles away,but memories will always stay...

dedication

haha...lik i said lor...i will b working on dis entry...haha...
::her::[If w銬雟?/FONT> ?s鋓d wa??dr脘m , pra?/FONT> th鋞 will neVer w鋕?up fr簃 it.. ]
::mao::[time to find urself ur soul mate liao lor]
::zhu::[dun burden urself,even holding a cup can tire u out]
::yan::[time has not cum yet,keep lookin n u will find ur "her"]
::wenqin::[hope tt u n stella hui tian chang di jiu]
::xiu::[if u r fated to get sth,u will get it eventually]
::mw::[ru guo shi qing bu ru yi, bu yao hui xin, yao yong gan mian dui]
::daryl::<10z>[yo yo, or-jiao]
::wenbing::[hope tt u will b happi always]
::shi xiong di::[SHIN forever]
::dance members::[u r all wonderful ppl]
::present exco::[a gd leader brings his/her followers to we dey wan to b,but a great leader bring dem where didnt no but ought to b]
::next exco::[b responsible n do ur job well]
::4/7::[bai ren chen jin]
::evan::[or-ci]
::zhanyu::[stop drooling liao la]
::huiqi::::kelvin n wee long::[oi rubdium stop dreaming a jolene cai liao la]
::magic gang::[dere is no ultimate deck]
::J & J(Sam fan club)::[Sam rawks, WOO!]
::rest of my meis::[wat r kors for]
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24hra}€:hope i didnt miss out anyone...even if i did...i juz wan u all to no tt...u had contributed into my life one way or another...i will b moving on from here...so catch u ppl around...i no dis dedications all veri short...but juz cant find wat to say...den even if got a lot to say oso cannot...coz got limit wat...haha...take care ppl...anyone can contact mi if got prob...thru msn, email, hp, od...watever la...24hra}€ always here...haha...
msg of the day:we might b miles away,but memories will always stay...

dedication

haha...lik i said lor...i will b working on dis entry...haha...
::her::[If w銬雟?/FONT> ?s鋓d wa??dr脘m , pra?/FONT> th鋞 will neVer w鋕?up fr簃 it.. ]
::mao::[time to find urself ur soul mate liao lor]
::zhu::[dun burden urself,even holding a cup can tire u out]
::yan::[time has not cum yet,keep lookin n u will find ur "her"]
::wenqin::[hope tt u n stella hui tian chang di jiu]
::xiu::[if u r fated to get sth,u will get it eventually]
::mw::[ru guo shi qing bu ru yi, bu yao hui xin, yao yong gan mian dui]
::daryl::<10z>[yo yo, or-jiao]
::wenbing::[hope tt u will b happi always]
::shi xiong di::[SHIN forever]
::dance members::[u r all wonderful ppl]
::present exco::[a gd leader brings his/her followers to we dey wan to b,but a great leader bring dem where didnt no but ought to b]
::next exco::[b responsible n do ur job well]
::4/7::[bai ren chen jin]
::evan::[or-ci]
::zhanyu::[stop drooling liao la]
::huiqi::::kelvin n wee long::[oi rubdium stop dreaming a jolene cai liao la]
::magic gang::[dere is no ultimate deck]
::J & J(Sam fan club)::[Sam rawks, WOO!]
::rest of my meis::[wat r kors for]
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24hra}€:hope i didnt miss out anyone...even if i did...i juz wan u all to no tt...u had contributed into my life one way or another...i will b moving on from here...so catch u ppl around...i no dis dedications all veri short...but juz cant find wat to say...den even if got a lot to say oso cannot...coz got limit wat...haha...take care ppl...anyone can contact mi if got prob...thru msn, email, hp, od...watever la...24hra}€ always here...haha...
msg of the day:we might b miles away,but memories will always stay...

class gathering

today take leave to go class outing...haha...i go raffles place n tot it was marina bay...so i alighted...den i waited from 2.40-3.00...stupid rite...den i realiese i was at the wrong place...sianz...den go meet dem lor...luckily onli late abit...coz meet at 3 wat...den go fly kite la...veri funz...haha...the funi moment was when everyone go eat steamboat liao...mi yok wenqin n andy decided to giv the kite one last try...i toss the kite into the air...den wenqin control wit the string in front...den i flew up...yeah!...den wenqin pass to yok...den yok say dis time i will not let go of the string holder...den i say let out more string...den the sec i turn to look at yok...the string run out n flew wit the kite!!...haha...dam funi sia tt moment...u shld c for urself...
den go eat steamboat le...i keep cookin the soup...den i tell andy cook sum food for mi...den i keep scolding him coz my plate always empty...haha...den go play bowling wit wenqin n bernard...haha...lousy score...den go back to eat...haha...tok a lot wit the class...veri fun...goin to miss dem...den 10 of us go arcade...den i play the punching game...record is 110wt...haha...den got 3rd...but andy beat my score wit 112wt...den he 3rd lor...ppl got body MASS leh...haha...the 1st is 125wt...dam high sia...haha...anyone no wat unit huh...
den go home le...den we decided to walk to the mrt station...den we pass by a veri dark part of the park...no light at all...den everyone on hp...haha...veri scary sia...sum freaked out when junyi accidentally click his camera...haha...den after tt walk home from redhill mrt wit wenqin...haha...den tok a lot...we had been friends since pri 1...10 years liao...haha...den same class for 8 years...power sia...our friendship still staying strong n kicking...haha...i dun tink got any of the pri sch ppl hav suc gd relationship as the 2 of us lor...;)...
anyway i decided to change the song back to qing tian...since a lot of ppl say tt song not nice...actually tt song is the middle den nice...i oso agree tt the front sux...haha..:P...anyway ppl look out for my dedication for u ppl...lik copi cat hor...:P...sori la xiu...
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sianz sia...-_-"

today wake up around 11!!...so late sia...gao siao...haha...later slack around lor...den tok on the phone wit mt abit lor...den daryl call say got job giv mi...den i go meet him for job lor...juz cum back not long ago...mt leave le...gonna miss her...haha...mao too rite? haha...haiz...didnt even wish her a early birthday yet...sianz...i dun wan to write liao la...now dam pissed bcoz of sum idoit...
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my disc man!!

yesterday i go orchard den slipped n fell...coz i jump 3 steps wat...was runnin so cannot brake...den had to jump lor...den i fell on my butt...n sat on my pouch!!...n my disc man is in it...no!!...sianz...win liao lor...haiz...now wat...sway...suan le la...
today dem early finish work sia...2.30 finished le...den reach home 3.30...haha...but wan to go out nobody peh...sianz...den cum back lor...
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found it

was saved by my skin yesterday...phew...i found it!!...but i had to resort to finding it in the temporary internet files...haiz...but better den losing it for gd...ok...its late...dun say too much le...tml still got work...anyway if u dun understand wat i tokin abt...u can check out the previous entry...u will understand...cya...
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xin bu zai yan/ the email

today morning goin to work tt time...i leave early coz goin for breakfast at jp wat...but den rain...sianz...den slowly walk...den miss the 6.20 bus...win liao lor...so i tot i could take 197 to catch n take tt 198...but sad to say when reach the same route...the 198 happen to b in front...sianz...den was hoping tt the 197 can catch up so i can switch...but until je dere den catch up...den suan le...go take mrt to boon lay...
den mood not bad in the morning...joked wit the jie jies dere...haha...but den after lunch...i duno y suddenly whole person xin bu zai yan...sad sad de...duno leh...den keep doin wrong things...i thing the jie jie dere oso quite unhappy a bit it liao...i tink...den after tt i got worse...n to add to it dey shouted commands at mi...den i was lik ARGH!!...but muz ren...cannot throw my temper dere...its kind of cool tt dey didnt notice "my weather" changed liao...nvm la...working is lik tt one la...
den after tt coz work almoz finish liao...so dey started to joke again...den better le...but still not feeling gd...haiz...den later go take to my uncle in the office will dey wash up...had a long tok abt technology n abt my auntie's product n stuff...den everyone go home le...
now i still not feeling gd...but not as bad as it was juz after lunch...i was tinking lik...mayb i shldnt b here...mayb i shld juz rot at home...den tot abt if i go poly the 3months after the results cum out...mi rotting at home doin nth...den later on tot abt how gd if mao or zhu was working wit mi dere...den can tok tok...den not as sianz...den if mao was dere today he surely say...oi sam dun lik tt la...working leh...cheer up...later boss sack u den u no ar...haha...sth lik tt la...crack a joke or sth to get my attention from wat eva i was tinking abt..but i dun even no wat excatly i was tinking abt...
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24hr{S}a{E}:emergency...haha...no la...sth had made mi decided to add on...u spent time to write tt email to mi...i m so touched...10z...its such a morale booster...i was so down when u send mi dis email...but after reading it i was realli lifen up...10z realli...i will treasure wat u brought into my life...10z...wish tt u will always b happi... n i guess from now on i no where to go...
Extra 24hr{S}a{E}:S...A...M...u had realli done it dis time...u had coz the most important email in ur life to disappeared...u better hope tt a mircale occur n let the email appear in front of u again...if not u will regret for life i tell u...haiz...hopeless chap...
msg of the day:If w銬雟?/FONT> ?s鋓d wa??dr脘m , pra?/FONT> th鋞 will neVer w鋕?up fr簃 it..

where m i headin,i duno...

hm...life still lik tt lor...wake up in the morning...eat breakfast den wash up...den go work liao...den after work go home...play game or online lor...rather boring lor..veri plain i shld say...den its lik i lead a rather "numb" life lor...i tot i had recovered from everything but no...today i took 198 home...the journey was lik 1h+ lor...although in the morning i oso take 198 la but i always sleep...so nth will happen...so while i was taking the bus...it was raining outside...created a veri sad atmosphere...haiz...den isuddenly i tot of her...so i msged her...haha...
luckily she helped mi spend moz of the bus ride...but den after tt i realiesed how muc i was missing her...haiz...shi bai...suppose to b letting go yet still tinking...i was lik even recalling her looks n actions...lik psycho lik tt sia...haiz...i cant help it ok...but luckily i online n saw her...n her display was her photo...cool man...veri nice...haha...
but sad to say after today...i will back to "normal"...ya...the zombie one!...haiz...u all wun c it la...coz i dun tink u will hav the chance...but after i finish the job at the end of the month...i will still hav to handle dis issue lor...unless i get over it by den la...but its lik impossible?...i duno...life is so unpredictable...life is juz so different after i leave sec sch...now i dun get a chance to c her everyday...but it helps mi let go rite...mayb its fate ba...i duno...aiya...i always duno one la...
i still remember how i use to no a lot of things...i was full of life...i was helping ppl wit probs...giving inspirational things in my od...but now...either it depleted or i juz can no longer find tt energy liao...haiz...now i oso dun wan to tink to muc liao la...if not later cannot sleep den die sia...tml still hav to work leh...haha...cya...i will update soon la...tml?...duno(again)
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my mei

today did nth la...juz slack around...sleep a lot...rot a lot...haiz...everything is falling apart...i hav to pull myself together...i cannot continue lik tt...
after telling her tt i giv up i feel lik i hav no goal...i even feel useless...haiz...i duno how u feel...but i guess it doesnt bother u a lot...the moz is u replied my msgs...i dun tink u take more time to sit down n seriously tink abt the issue...but mayb i m wrong...n the truth is...i m always wrong...i used to b rtie all the time...in a bossy way...sumone pted it out...so i changed...but is dis better ...i duno... i duno when can i start to blive in my 6 sense again...i hope soon...
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24hr{S}a{E}:i decided to write a emergency coloumn today afterreading mt's od...dis coloumn is dedicated to mt...my mei...remember when i said u were my favouriter mei...i meant it...i still remember when i first saw u i knew tt u were the perfect mei...so i didnt waste anitime...n asked u to b my gan mei...n i told myself i will try to treat u lik my real mei...n try not to let u get hurt in any form...i didnt tell u dis ocz i tot tt it is rather embrassing...but now tt i hav failed to do so...i guess i hav to play a part in the blame...
i was veri shocked by ur entry...i tot tt u r better after things had settled...but i realises tt dere r mani under lying things tt i duno...dere will b nth i can do if u dun open urself up to mi...all i can do is to make u happi in any other way possible...i guess i couldnt even do tt now since i m tied down by my job...i m so useless...i juz cant do anithing rite...haiz...mayb i my fated dis way...but i still wan to try...so i hav put u first priority...
i duno did i tell u dis but my abit lik u...i dun tell ppl anithing...not even u or mao...i keep everything to myself...so if i get angry...the fire can b easily flared up by anithing...coz i guess i cant handle the pressure...i tink mayb u hav a similar case wit mi...i can tell a bit from daryl's issue...but fortunately it is resolved...the peacful way...
now i m sitting in front of my com typing dis entry...feeling lousy...i realli dun feel gd rite now...juz now when mother tok to mi...i didnt even reply a word...i guess she oso roughly no i m not in a gd mood...actually now if sumone get on my toes...i will explode immediately...i hadt been a gd kor...not to u...not to the rest of my meis...not to anione...i m such a failure in life...so wat if i got into a jc...does dis mean i can get cocky...NO!...firstly dere r ppl better off den mi...secondly my best friends arent dere wit mi...i had a tough time deciding...i duno wat to do wit life...i m afriad to trust my instinct...i m afraid tt i will make a wrong move in life again...
now i hav no aim wad so eva...my ambition...ha...i wun get dere if i lose my senses n instinct...my love...i cant even get her to go out wit US...haiz...wat a useless chap...if she sees dis she will start tinking "wat a realli useless chap...after all i hav told u...u r still so pessimistic...haiz..."...but the truth is i m juz lik tt...its hard to change...i m realli trying veri hard to bcum optimistic...but when sad things "trigger" of my memory i juz bcum the moz pessimistic person on earth...i realli duno wat to do wit life...now i c u lik tt i oso duno m i fit to b ur friend...b ur gor...haiz...
msg of the day:when u get stuck in pessimism, u r on a one way track n u tink onli one way...(excuse?)

job

dis few day i nv update coz i got a job...den too tired to update...anyway oso nth muc happen...i onli juz close bottle caps n stamp date of expiry...den send dem to the cold room...the pay resaonable la...$4/hr...coz working for my aunt wat...so wat u expect...rather fun la...coz the ppl dere oso joke around wit mi...not bored lor...
03-12-03
on wed i was sick...actually the week i sick la...but on tt day i take mc n go c doc lor...den slack lor...haha...den mao n mt cum my house c mi...haha...den dey go meet xiu dey all for dinner...
for the time being...i will close the coloumns below since i wun hav time to tend to dem...dey will b back soon...so stay updated...
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injured

today i woke up at 1 lik tt...coz my whole body veri tired...+ i m injured wat...cannot help it la...oso muz pay back the hrs of lost sleep...haha...
other den been physically injured i oso need to heal from my emotional injury...haiz...
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24hr{S}a{E}:to all the dancers...yesterday i didnt had muc time to say all tt i wanted to say...but i m realli happi to b here wit all of u...i always look forward to the next dance prac...tts y when dere is a break for tests or exam...life seems veri sianz...i m realli glad i hav the honor of being ur chairman...10z for giving mi suc a wonderful 4 years nan hua dance...take care ppl...i will miss all of u...
msg of the day:all of u r wonderful ppl...

chalet day3/dance camp(10z to one-off n rohan)

today 6.30 wake up...den mi n mao go clear the rubbish at the back...clear finish liao...dey tell us no need to clear one...-_-""...nvm...den go home change...den go help da esther n mt buy sum sth...den go dance lor...haha...helped to cari out sum games...
den during dance i developed a fever...one-off n rohan showed care n concern to my fever...10z a lot...n o ya... the dancers hu bothered to ask mi how m i feeling...i realli appreciate it lor...i especially wan to 10z mt n mao...mao u stood by mi all the time...n help mi got water...change water... n so muc so muc...10z brother...i realli appreciate it...n mt...u were so worried...i m so donged... wan to cry liao...haha...u n the rest of one-off even wanted to cum into the guys toliet to c wat happen to mi...tt shows how muc u care...u even lend mi ur towel...:'(...donged...n u later oso ask wen bing for hers too...n to the rest of one-off...i can tell u ppl realli care...for example...xiu was lik telling mi tt fruit juice can relief heat...haha...
den after tt we prac for the dedication item for mr low...den oso prac on the tian gao di hou...haha...had fun..i ask mr low help mi take a look at my injuried hand...den he say will take quite a long time to heal...since it is muscle la dao...sianz...
den at nite the dedication lor....veri fun...haha...shin best...haha...take care ppl...i will miss all of u...n especially jt...he goin off tml...i wish him all the best...he had been lik a brother to mi lik tt...i can always count on u for advice on things...from life to dance...10z a lot...its sad to c u go...but i guess dis is the way of life...take care...
den after everything we goin for supper...den i decided to throw away sth tt i wanted to giv her...since she doesnt wan it...but i dam stupid lor...the drain so big i miss it...n hit jiu rong's nose...sori hor jiu rong...haiz...stupid fool...i sux man...sianz...den i got worked up n started to hit everything wit my fist n leg...in the end i injuried myself...
den go clementi mac for supper...but onli bought a large cup of sprite...den i decided to take a cab n go home...coz my leg veri pain...veri hard to walk...
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24hr{S}a{E}:i had finally made my decision to giv up on her liao...haiz...jiu rong told mi tt i hav to b able to let go emotionally...n torturing myself wun help...i oso no...but i juz cant help it...sianz...during dis 254 days i hadnt been veri happi...according to mao...abt 60% of the time i m sad over dis thing...i no...i juz wan to say sori to ppl hu is affected my actions...n wan her to no tt although things didnt work out i m veri grateful to her oredi...coz she helped thru sum of the darkest time in life...10z...i hope tt she will b happi n find the guy of her dreams soon...
msg of the day:forgetting is impossible,letting go is the onli way...

chalet day 2

today wake up at 6...onli sleep max 2h...coz sleep at 4...but keep on disturbed by the ppl watching soccer downstairs...haha...GOAL!!...den mi mao n daryl go to the main island...den daryl go sch first...den i go mao house coz he wan to take contact lens...coz his specs kana hit by the volleyball yesterday...
den go dance lor...played a obstacle course wit the dancers...but i injuried my hand...sianz...haha...but it was fun...den go buy bbq stuff...altogether we all over budget abt $40-$50...haha...den at nite bbq lor...den sum go k-box...haha...den i sleep at 1+...
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24hr{S}a{E}:
msg of the day:sleep well if not lik mi...

chalet day1

today morning go wenqin house to register for the first 3 months...but server down...so play a little bit of lf2...den he go bath coz he wan to go ice skate liao...haha...den i go home lor...prepare for the chalet...
den chao gao siao lor...i told kien yien to call mi when he reach the bus stop so i can go fetch him...but i he didnt hear it...so he nv call...den he lik bai chi lik tt wait lor...den i tot...dis so late still haven cum...den i find him lor...heng he still dere...
den go habour front meet the rest of dem lor...haha...den go for lunch lor...haha...den we swim...n play beach volleyball...so dam fun sia...haha...but dinner had to eat frozen food...so sad...
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24hr{S}a{E}:the next 3 entry oso written on 29-9-03...so i not goin to write in dis column for all of dem...
msg of the day:being wit friends is fun

change liao

hm...i finished writing all the letters to sum ppl liao...ofcourse tt includes her...i guess i was rather ma xing le by her friend lor...made my decision liao...i change everything related to her liao...from my signature, od, msn,irc...quite a lot la...firstly is to help mi forget lor...secondly is so tt she wun b sad coz she wun b cing dem...
now i hav to say sori to dose hu i wrote letter to...coz of dis changes dose letters tt i write b4 i decided to change everything will c mi cancelling tt signature...haha...sori hor...a bit messy...but i put effort n heart into writing it one leh...haha...hu r the lucky ones huh?...haha...:P
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Kh!! !:anyway i wun b mentionin abt her anymore from now on in od unless it has to do wit wat happen tt day la...but definitely not emotional stuff la...n i will try to bring u guys more inspirational stuff lor...anyway hu can figure out Kh!! ! means wat...if tt person can giv mi the answer i got prize one...haha...but muz mi the meanin tt i my using it as...giv u all one clue...the cule is my life...haha...lousy clue...:P...u tink so easy get prize meh...muz get exact meaning one leh...haha...
m?#291;  ŧħέ d?#947;:love the heart tt hurts u, but dun hurt the heart tt loves u...

ice skate

today early in the morning go je wait for dem...for breakfast...den in the end onli xiu cum...den we go for ice skate...den xiu go meet her cousin n childhood friend...den after tt kelvin from 3/10 n his friend...den after tt saw sum nan hua ppl...haha...den wen bing cum meet us...we went for a snack...den go play arcade...haha...den go shop for birthday presents...haha...den go home liao...
today mi mao n zhu finally came out wit our proper group name...call illusion...haha...veri nice rite...:P...jk jk...
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24hr{S}a{E}:tml is the chalet liao...i will try to forgot her during tt time...i hav decided tt i shld stop counting n start forgeting...but till den...haiz...
msg of the day:ai hen jian dan,bu ai hen bu jian dan

shoppin

today go orchard buy sum stuff lor...haha...buy 2 t shirt n a jeans...for new year one la...sianz...haha...walk so long...den after tt go home liao lor...
tml goin to ice skate...hm...still bz settling the ppl...sianz...until now still haven confirm yet...haiz...nvm la...
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24hr{S}a{E}:hm...today nth muc to write here la...haha...quite tired actually...haha...tml still hav to wake up at 9... sleep early??...mayb lor...c first...
msg of the day:dun do last min work

magic stock check/touching story

today did sum stock check on my magic collection...onli looked thru veri little of dem...still got a lot to go...mayb later go look thru more of dem ba...haha...den juz now played ft wit mao...haha...lose again...summore skills all drop...sianz...nvm...train lor...haha...
today one-off making cookie...haha...duno edible a not...haha...jk jk...sure can one la...haha...remember to bake mao n my share hor...haha...
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24hr{S}a{E}:nth muc to write here...sianz...still sitting on the fence...i guess it will take time lor...duno...haiz...
msg of the day:bu zai hu tian chang di jiu,zhi zai hu chen jing yong you {
[Extra] 24hr{S}a{E}:dis is an addition to todays entry...juz now i was watching chobits...for dose hu no dis anime...its abt robots name persocons...dis robots act lik human...but arent human...but the main pt i wan to bring out here is not abt the story...for ppl hu wans reference...its from chap21...its abt a guy fallin in love wit his persocon...he even married her...dey were very happy together...until one day when the persocon begin to lose her memory...the repairman said tt her hard disk was spoilt...n had to b replaced...but her memories will b lost...it was sad for the guy...but he accepted it...one day the persocon sacrificed her life to save the guy when a truck almost bang into him...the persocon was damaged byond repair...although the persocon will nv remember him again...but the guy remembered her for the rest of his life...
i was so touched by the story tt i came online immediately to add on to dis entry...i juz wanted her to no tt i wld do the same no matter wat the outcome is i will always remember her lik tt guy in the story...coz u r the one hu changed mi...in the past i used to b more solemn n serious...n so the more pessimistic...but i change mi...i bcum more n more optimistic...n its not onli my opinion...sum ppl oso say so...but i was unable to change enuff to meet ur expectation of being optimistic...i m sori...but i will continue to work on it...not onli had mi turning optimistic help mi out in life...but if i m goin to pursue my dreams...
i no i m not significant to u...so even if u forget mi n delete mi off ur memory bank...i wun b surprised...i no dis is getting mi nowhere...n i guess u dun lik it...but pls giv mi time...to get over it...but i wan her to no tt...she will always b engraved in my mind...
S'ayapo
msg 2 of the day:even if i was deleted off ur memory bank,u will still always b engraved in my mind

bishan

today went to bishan to buy sum cards for my deck...my deck completed liao...gd sia...haha...den played a few rounds wit ppl dere...the ppl we play wit all lose us...haha...
den go expo find my parents...my auntie down dere sellin herbal tea at the food fair...go support hor...haha...the name is yi ping liang cha...haha...den i help down dere lor...let ppl try samples...but i didnt get the job...my auntie employed other ppl liao...oso relatives...den got one auntie dem power shout the slogan so long her throat still not pain...pro...haha...summore not pai seh one...i look up to her...haha...
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24hr{S}a{E}:nth muc to say la...u muz no tt the previous entry oso write today liao...u tink one day got how mani tots...haha...gao siao...:P...anyway...saw her when goin to meet my friends...haha...is dis fate...i duno...confused...
msg of the day:if u r fated to get sth,u will get it eventually...

grad nite

i went to sch i the morning to tak testimonial...haha...still duno if i shld go to jc for the first 3 months a not...wat u guys tink...any advice...
den go home prepare for tonite grad nite...i used 1h to finish dressing myself...haha...den go downstairs for lunch...den realise nv put deodourant...haha...den go back put lor...den go sch...haha...den realise my shoe got hole...so sway...den go ginza c can fix a not...den he say...need at least until 6...tt is lik the time the grad nite start lor...den it will cost 45...so ex...siao...might as well get new pair...den bo bian go home wear another pair lor...
den go grad nite...so mani interesting dressing sia...cool...i lik the part where ppl share how dey feel...moz touching?...cld b better wit sum music...den after tt go je tok tok wit yan n mao...den later yan go home...i sit around wit mao jeff wenqin bernard n guang yao(i tink dis is his name)...
i m realli goin to miss everyone...ppl from 4/7 n dance...n sum other ppl not included in dis 2 groups...u all hav help mi cum a long way...i realli realli appreciate it...10z a lot...sum of u help mi walk thru the obstacle of life...n dere is one of u tt i realli realli hav to 10...but i dun wan to state ur name...i scare later u will pai seh...or in dis case mi too...u help mi not onli once but a lot times...i remember tt dere was a time when i tot of suicide...but u scold mi to my senses...10z again...
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24hr{S}a{E}:yesterday went a bit crazy...i was still tinking abt her lor...den i shouted out of a sudden...den gave sum of dem a fright...sori guys...haiz...i cant carri on lik dis any longer...
msg of the day:u cant hold on to it forever...

the hunt 2

today i wan to 11 one leh...but 8+ wake up le...cannot sleep...den go sch meet mt dey all lor...den after tt go queensway meet mao buy his clothes...power sia...first shop found liao...haha...den go jp play arcade...haha...
den my aunt got job for mi!!...yes...10am-10pm $100...not bad la...but not confirm yet...haha...if confirm liao i will b at expo...den got subordinate one leh...haha...
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24hr{S}a{E}:haiz...still lik no change leh...still tinking?...anyway... the few of dem keep saying i changed...realli meh?...i duno...mayb i turn more optimistic liao ba...coz she keep saying i pessimistic...duno...
msg of the day:the cup is onli half full...no no...shld b...the cup is oredi half full...haha...

the hunt

today go hunt for the clothes for grad nite...morning actually wan to wake up lik 11 one...but my mother call mi bring sth to her workplace...so wake up at 9+ instead...den i go je lor...suppose to meet at 12.30...but i reach at 11...so early...den go play arcade for 1h...spend $4...
den go to far east wit mt xiu ling wen bing n kai wei...haha...got a white t dere...haha...den after tt go wisma...got a black shirt...den go tiong bahru n got a black cargo pants...haha...veri tiring day...
10z to the 3 gals...i m sure i will look great...haha...10z guys...treat u all again sum other time...
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24hr{S}a{E}:juz now at tiong bahru the sales gal has the same name as her...den its lik so concincidental lor...coz b4 we enter the shop i was tokin to mao n xiu abt her lor...(coz the rest all go home liao)den i was lik choosing the pants...den she ask if she cld help...den i turn around n saw her name tag...same name sia...haha...the sales gal was veri nice n efficient...she altered the length of the pants in 1/2 h...fast nia...the other shops say wat 5 days...siao...how can...haha...anyway...i didnt realli giv the issue a serious tot today...so i guess i will b counting today too...hope i get my answer soon...
msg of the day:if u blive,ull hav faith...

is dis the end

today is the last paper liao lor...haha...yeah...suppose to go bishan one lor...but den in the end nv go...haha... coz everyone nv bring money n deir decks...haha...den i wanted to help mao on his chem...den nv go lor...mao say his chem shld b able to get A1...den our efforts will b paid off lor...
i dun tink i will b goin for the first 3 months...scared?...wat if i cannot fit in...haiz...i no i lik tt veri pessimistic...but wat to do...so mani things to consider...juz hope tt the results r delightin...haha...pray hard lor...
den after tt go dance lor...sianz lor...although paper end le but still haiz...duno y lor...from today morning got bad feeling abt wat is goin to b her answer...den nth interesting happened la...den mi mt n mao decided to call our group ming xing dong wu yuan...haha...actually is i decide one...haha...craps...called ming xing dong yuan coz dey 2 got animal nicks...as for mi...duno leh...haha...
n o ya...today mr low dam angry...haiz...i duno wat is goin to happen to u guys n dance in the days down the road...hope things will turn out fine...
den after dance suppose to go eat dinner...den mt cannot go...den xiu oso nv go liao lor...haha...nvm lor...mao mi n mi bro go lor...
den reach home onli for less den 1/2h my bro kao bei mi over a stupid game thingy...sux sia...
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24hr{S}a{E}:juz now i was tokin to her on the phone...tok for abt 3h?...lik veri long hor...but den muz of the time is quiet one...no topic ba...(i hope u dun mind mi writing all dis)anyway as i was saying...i called to ask her out lor...but juz as my sixth sense told mi lor...she rejected...haiz...bo bian lor...dun go out lor...haiz...actually now i duno wat to do liao...do i continue...or giv up lik she says...is dis the end...i duno...but until i get an definite answer i will still b counting...but hey...at least we r still friends...
this paragraph is dedicated for u...i m realli happi tt i meet u...n hav a chance to b ur friend...although our relationship did not work out(bcoz it did not even start)...but still i wan to 10q for all the happiness u hav brought mi...when i m sad u r able to make mi happi...u ask mi how u did it...i oso dun realli no...u juz do lor...today actually i was rather hit by ur answer although i sort of expected it...but den still u made it turned out tt my spirits r rather lightened up...i m realli grateful for dis...10z again...i hope tt we will continue to mi great friends...i tink i dun say too muc la...coz i tink mayb writing a letter to u...hm...c first lor...if got inspiration den write lor...
msg of the day:u will always b part of my memory

dis is how i feel now

The greatest pain in life is not to die, but to be ignored.
To lose the person you love so much to another who doesn't care at all.
To have someone you care so about so much throw a party... and not tell you about it.
When your favorite person on earth neglects to invite you to her graduation.
To have people think that you don't care.
The greatest pain in life, is not to die, but to be forgotten.
To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.
To never get a call from a friend, just saying "hi".
When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.
For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.
When it seems like the only person who cares about you, is you.
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24hr{S}a{E}:this poem was taken from a email...it was written by a little girl hu committed suicide...i guess she didnt no wat to do to due wit her prob...tts y she ended her own life...i guess i m at the same spot as her...but i tink tt suicide is juz goin to hurt the others even more...n i blive tt the person hu coz u to do it will regret forever n will not b able to forgive himself or herself...so i dun blive in making sumone suffer to conpensate for my sufferings...but sumtimes it is not sth tt is of my control...do u tink tt i m such a reckless person...at times i admit i m...but its onli when i m blinded...i juz hope tt i m not blinded when suicide cums to my mind...
its hard to due wit ppl...its hard to help others due wit deir probs...its even harder to due wit ur own prob... i m realli stressed up other everything rite now...n juz tinking abt it is torturous...u might say juz dun tink abt it...but hav u tot tt u cant juz stop tinking abt it...even if u did it will juz cum back n haunt u...i feel tt the onli practical thing to do is to solve it instead of let it lie dere...easier said den done...wat can i do...i lack will power...courage...i duno if i cld face dis alone...but if not alone den wat...
i m grateful tt i can spend time wit my friends...it keeps mi off things...but dey cant b wit mi all the time...juz lik the lyrics from the song dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui...actually i hate the fact tt time flies...wun it b gd tt if time cld stop at the moment when u feel tt u r the happiest man or woman on earth...but the ugly truth wun allow it...so wat deres nth much tt we can do...cum to tink of it...i onli hav one sentence to say abt everything...
l靎?顂 s郿
msg of the day:if onli time cld stop at tt moment...

wat is wrong

today had physic paper...paper 1 shld b can get a ba...hope so lor...haha...paper 2 harder but i tink still can make it la...den after tt go dance...ok lor...got to hang around wit the sec 4 guys again...so fun...haha...but during prac i did sum cartwheels...den my pants tear...sianz...den call kai wei help mi get pants on his way back from bowling wit kenrick n mao...the thing was she dere lor...duno got c a not...hope not...so embrassing...sianz...den dey all oso veri gao siao one leh....buy orange pants for mi...win liao lor...haiz...better den nth lor...
den after tt go eat wit mt xiu ling n one guy called jovial...b4 tt sth happened...it made mi veri sad...haiz...wat to do...den after tt tt horse cum lor...den we go home liao...haiz...
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24hr{S}a{E}:tml is 240 days liao...= to 8 months lor...sianz...i realli duno wat to do lor...i duno wat u wan...i duno wats wrong...u told mi to giv up...i didnt...but oso no need to treat mi lik tt wat...haiz...mayb i m too sensitive...it hurts to b in my position...i guess mayb u wun b cing dis...but i realli dun wan to keep to myself...i dun others to bare the consequences if i did...i m realli scare...i dun wan to go thru IT again...I DUN WAN!!
msg of the day:aufwartung

poem

开始是永恒的期望。

你的笑容，
是我的力量。
你的眼泪，
是我的悲伤。

你的或许，
是我的希望。
你的算了，
使我受伤。

等待是唯一的光芒。
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24hr{S}a{E}:this poem is written when i woke up from a nap...juz got a inspiration lor...not veri gd la...but oso not veri lan rite?...haha...bleahz...anithing la...wat do u guys tink...anyway to dose hu cannot read the words...encode to chi can le...haha...
msg of the day:waiting is the the onli light...

haiz...

today emaths paper 1...not bad la...shld b can get A1...hm...duno la...haha...tml is el n ss paper muz jia you...
den go to mac with mao n pand...helped dem revise physics...haha...benefit myself too...den after tt mt cum meet to study...
but den in the end go out with xiu ling mich wang and serena...go fajar study actually i m now still in fajar...got the urge to write dis entry coz not feeling gd...so i nv tell dem den cum out liao...sure dey veri puzzled...sori guys...
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24hr{S}a{E}:now is o lvl period not suppose to b writing dis...but had to letit out...if not oso no mood to continue studying...hm...after o lvl got a lot of plans...hope tt it ends quickly...jia you...
msg of the day:veri stressed argh...

evaluate mi ^.^V

haha...i suddenly feel tt i shld "redefine" myself...so i wish u ppl help mi to evaluate myself...so tt i change for the better... i tink u all wld wan to c a better mi rite...haha...10z in advance...
o ya b4 i forget...pls pls pls leave ur name behind...unless u dun wan mi to no hu u r...wich in dis case i dun understand y u ever wan to do tt...unless u hate mi lor...:P
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24hr{S}a{E}:recently i hav a veri close friend hav being down bcoz of relationship probs n sum external stress...i juz wan to tell tt person tt u will hav to live wit it lor...it is littered in our lives...its in evitable...i realli dun wish to c u continue lik tt lor...u sad i will oso sad...not onli mi la...the rest of ur friends will too...so stop breaking our hearts...pull urself together n solve the prob n start fresh...n u will b ready to face things again...i no its hard but u will hav to try lor...
msg of the day:its littered in our lives...

for her

actually i had oredi gone offline...but suddenly i felt tt my eyes r abit moist...the atmosphere in the room is so...quiet?den the song so...sad?den i cant help it but to tink her again...the whole house is quiet now...how i wish tt i could break the silence wit a loud holler...but no i cant do tt...so i got the rush to write dis entry to at least allow my heart to go at more ease...
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24hr{S}a{E}:dis coloumn is for u...i no tt i shld no longer b tinkin of u...but i juz cant help it...sori...u had told mi times n times again to giv up..but i didnt...bcoz i cant find...the strenght?...courage?...i duno...i realli duno wats wrong wit mi lor...i realli duno wat to do lor...i always help ppl solve probs...i oso solve my own probs...but dis is one ultimate exam tt i hav to take b4 moving on wit my life...hu noes wat will the result b...but no matter i fail or pass...i will always still remember u...to b honest wit u...i had nv being in love in the same person for so long after being rejected...i duno wat happened dis time...i oso wan to no the answer...i no tt for mi to pass dis exam is lik for a pig to fly...i no u hate mi n find mi irritating...but deres nth i can do to change tt...but i still try...i had stop calling u...n had TRIED to stop smsing u...but i cant...but i will continue to try...i realli duno wat holds in the future between u n mi...u might find tt all dis another piece of shit wich irritates u...but its the least i can do for myself...i guess i dun wan to end up goin crazy...or even having serious depression...wich in dis case i tink mayb i hav a sight one or a moderate one...haiz...actually deres nth muc tt i can say to change ur view...
i juz wan u to tt S'ayapo(if u still remember wat it means)...u might tick tt mayb i m goin overboard...but i feel tt its the onli way to explain my patience of weaiting for 223 days...
now at least my heart is ligthen off...but onli by a bit...but it is the least i can do...i hope tt if u c dis pls at least left a private note for mi...dun wori tt u will hurt mi or wadeva...ur desicions will b respected...the prob is onli how long more i need to erase dis wonderful memories...
msg of the day:Aufwartung

nh suc(dangerous entry: enter at ur own risk)

i hav had it liao lor...nh realli suc lor...i dun care wat u say lor...although i hav to admit tt dere r sum gd pts lik dance...but other den tt it still suc lor...teachers r realli realli veri insensitive lor...if i didnt giv dem the little respect dey deserve for being other ELDERS...i wld hav shouted IN THEIR FACE...if i could i would lik to kick a big fuss in sch sumday...so tt the teachers n tt DUMB camel will no tt such prob exist...haiz...but all tok no action...actually...to tell u ppl the truth...i dun giv a dam abt anithing...my o lvl...i mayb studying for it...but its juz for the sake of studying...i could flung it all together...i dun care...i can go commit sum stupid crime n land in boys home...
i dun even no wats the purpose of my life...studying lik hell n face wit dis kind of teachers...N PUT UP WIT DIS KIND OF SHIT!!i realli duno wat my i here for lor...mayb i my here to let everyone torture..toy around wit...laugh at...entertain ppl...den after tt when i my useless i will juz b chuck one side n let to rot n die...i my lik a puppet...
i realli duno how i can stand all this shit...i realli duno...
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24hr{S}a{E}:well the truth i my scare...ba? i realli duno...i HATE the unknown...i wan things to b known...in the light...reveal...i HATE liars...dey keep things from mi...keep mi in the unknown...but i HATE myself moz of all...y cant i tink lik wat other ppl tink lik...wat the hell is wrong wit mi...i dun used to b lik dis...i hav changed...i hav turned into a crazy demon...i m out of control...will sumone sedue mi...n isolate mi...
msg of the day:I STILL HAV TO PUT UP WIT DIS SHIT

i dun tink tt i hav being doin well for my prelims...tink i hav to work harder for my o lvls...hav everything goes well...haha...gogogo...

yeah...i veri happi...my L1R5 get 18...yeah...can go jc le...^.^V...den my primary sch friend in our sch oso roughly the same marks...so we most likely same sch again...we already same sch 10 years liao...haha...you qing wan shui...
den afternoon...sleep...den wake up got leg cramp.until now...sianz...tml how to go sch...duno la...
p.s:ppl w/o ods PLS leave ur name...i wld realli appreciate it...10z...
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24hr{S}a{E}:today is a but bad...i dun tink anione will no lor...except for tt person of course la...involved wat...haiz...m day from gd to bad to worse...now tt i m faced with dis thing...i realli realli duno how to continue from here...those words were veri harsh to mi...but dun blame the person...tt person says tt it is not my fault...share? tt person say one...hav to agree lor...i realli duno wat to do...can anyone help mi...argh...now i m lik juz drifting away from tt person...izzit bcoz of mi or tt person...i realli duno...i realli realli hope tt tt person will understand lor...but if tt person dun...den i oso cannot force tt person...mayb dis is faith?retribution?undoin?mayb i juz deserve it...hm...its seems lik the case doh...things hav not being working out since i enter sec sch...haiz...
l靎?顂 s郿
msg of the day:i dun even no wat to tell myself let alone u guys...sori...

7 months

i dun tink tt i hav being doin well for my prelims...tink i hav to work harder for my o lvls...hav everything goes well...haha...gogogo...
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24hr{S}a{E}:7months le...the longest yet...
msg of the day:wat m i tokin abt?not tellin u!!haha...

lousy guy

haiz.. got back sum of the prelim results liao...my chem prac fail sia...my strongest component for chem...haiz...dun tink i can get A for chem liao...luckily mcq got 31/40...lets hope tt the paper 2 get higher ba...dun wan to write too long...still got things haven do...
btw 10z u guys for dose notes for the previous entry...haha...i m realli happi...anyway for dose hu does not hav a od n wants to leave a note...pls write ur name...let mi no tt u care...10z...
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24hr{S}a{E}:dis morning when i got back the paper...i was realli shocked lor...actually mood rather gd one..bcum mood veri foul...i wan to say sori to dose i shouted at today...i was realli down...but the nap at maths lesson helped...so did evan's jokes...haha...10z...except for andy...he can go die ba...everyday bully my friends...u tink u gd in acad n cca veri pro la...too bad u hav a bloody attitude...if u r reading dis den gd for u...mayb u wan to beat mi up the next day...go ahead...let ur horse cum...i not scare...u tink i lik yok wei or yan wei meh...but if u wan to fight wit mi...i will fight back...i might lose physically...but not mentally...i hav sum tricks up my sleeves one...dun mess wit mi u fastass...
msg of the day: u dun wan to c my ugly side...

noone will understand my sufferings

if u r reading dis onli soon after dis had been written den either u got to no abt dis entry from sumwhere or u r juz plain concern abt my life...if u belong to the second category i would lik to say a big 10q...i appreciate tt u care...but i hav to say the truth...i doubt tt there would b notes for dis entry...
i dun wan to say too muc abt y i m feeling lik tt all of a sudden...but juz wan to say tt i m totally stressed out...ARH!!...haiz...too bad no one can help mi...haiz...
if all dis shit carries on i will collapse...but i realli dun wan tt to happen...not at dis time...haiz...realli feel lik crying out lik we all hav when we were babies...
if onli i could go back in time...i would change sumthings tt i hav done wrong...lik tt i wont b stuck at dis difficult situation now...
i help tt ppl around mi can understand tt dis is the time tt i realli need ur support...it would mean a lot to b...but too bad i dun tink any of u will b able to c dis in time b4 everything ends or anithing goes wrong...wich i hope not...haiz...
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its so ironic...usually u c mi helping others to handle suc situations...but now u c mi searching for help...but the ugly truth is tt i m worse den the rest of u...i guess i juz dun lik to face the truth ba...haiz...tts y she scolded too...she had scolded mi for dis for mani times oredi... now i hav realli done it...fallen into this bottomless pit...now stuck...its oredi 6 months...
msg of the day:hey i m human too, you no...

o lvls/memories

heard tt tml the chi o lvl result cuming out...duno true a not...c lor...pray hard i got an A...
anyway i would lik to tell u guys tt from dis entry onwards i wun b updating on everyday basis...coz of o lvl lor...but i will still cum online once in a while n mayb put write sum entries...
cya...haha...take care ppl...
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ppl has been passing around deir autograph bks...so i came up wit the idea tt i wan u all to write for mi too...if its not troublesome for u...u can write to mi thru my od or my email...but den od veri limited...haha...u decide lor...anyway in return i will write for u too...haha...best wishes to all...ho ho...haha...i not santa claus...
msg of the day:wish everyone the best

sux la

today how day sian sian one...haiz...den tt mrs lim go kao bei our marks again...sianz...tok liao angry...suan le...
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today mrs lim say sth abt coma one...say wat if we still dun wake up from the coma...we will suffer...she shld no tt sumtimes its not we dun wan to wake up...its tt we cant...when we r tryin hard to...u put oil on the floor...n how r we to progress...ppl from my class shld no wat form of oil i m tokin abt...
msg of the day:put urself in others shoe...

sianz sia

today woke up late...do hw lor...veri sianz sia...den go play sum bball...lik tt lor...
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nth muc to say...haiz...abt kien yiens note...its not targeted at all of u...its onli sum lor...u duno wat happened...tt day even evan oso rather pissed...to stellas note...hm...u watch wat time one...
msg of the day:say wat u feel...

happi birthday singapore

today i got up veri late...veri tired sia...den after tt eat breakfast...den play ft...den go tiong bahru lor...
go watch home run...veri touching movie...in case ppl hu hav watched it duno...the movie got a lot of hidden reflections on our society...one example is the parts where the 2 groupds of children quarrel...its lik malaysia n singapore...
now watching ndp...hope everyone hav a nice day...n happi birthday to singapore...
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sum ppl always lik to critise the government for doin this n doin tt...lik the one yesterday...if the government is doin the wrong things...den y dun u tak over the job n do a even better one...so dun tok big unless u hav the ability to do better...
msg of the day:b4 u say,tink...

enuff is enuff

today went to sch extra early to prepare for the performance...den later got my service award certificate...den perform le...wan to perform tt time den realise sth wrong wit mr low recorder...duno wat...bo bian lor use the sch pa system lor...
den after tt went to watch the soccer match...both matches was won by 4/6...congrats man...haha...4/6 rulez...haha...anyway nigel dey all lost...haha...lik shit sia...no team work one...anyway if tt 4/3 gal is lookin at dis entry...pls dun leave ur unresponsible notes...tink b4 u tok k...if not ur brain will b rusty...:)
den after tt go the buffet...wa...the sec 1 veri greedy sia...den later we yum-sae lor...haha...nhds rawks...den go ginza wan to play lan...sianz...the 4/6 ppl onli book for demselves...selfish sia...was praising dem a while ago...den bo bian lor...we went bowling instead...
haha...quite fun...zhenyu not bad for a first timmer...there we meet sum chi teachers oso playing...mr kam n ms lim so power sia...crouching tiger hidden dragon wor...
den after tt i go home...den go queensway buy waterbottle...coz mrs tan say tt those bottles use for mineral water n other manufactured drinks r meant for one time use onli...den after sum time the plastic particles will break down n enter the drink...den will cancer n duno wat disease...scary sia...
den we go tiong bahru to meet the rest of the ppl for the ballet under the stars...den kai sheng was late for 15min...he still owe us 15 apple pies...haha...:P...jk...
den go for the concert lor...not bad la...but i onli watch the first one...den the rest of the concert mi mao n yan was discussing abt sth...haiz...den sam cried...duno y...anyway its none of business...den we go ps foodcourt eat...the food nice...later the even jennie n shu run oso cry...y?...i still duno...but if dey wan to say...i oso wun force dem...to this 4 gals:watever is the thing tt coz u all to cry n bcum sad sad de...dun tink too muc la...ok...
den after goin home tt time took the north south line via woodlands...pei the gals wat...mao yan oso took tt train...den on the train we met a stupid idiot hu kept scolding pap...den after tt i veri bu song liao...den i purposely cough veri loudly...a lot of times...den i tink he noticed...den call us pap young running dogs n cats...sick bastard sia...den after tt got one gal veri brave sia...she shouted at the guy...wat a scene...den tt guy started to scold muslims...den got one malay cum out n scold him...den tt malay wanted to fight wit n all...den the mrt officer cum on board lor...the officer call the person get down of the train..but he dun wan...he stubbornly wans to get down at woodlands...the train was delay for abt 10-15min...sianz...spoil my day...
den when finally reach je den no tt there r no more train heading to red hill there...sianz...bo bian lor...den i take taxi...i reached home abt 12.20...
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i wonder if all singaporeans r lik tt guy tt created trouble on the train...wat would bcum of singapore...dun dare to even tink abt it...glad tt it is not tt way...
msg of the day:everyone has his/her bad day

oil on fire

today nth muc...den after sch got dance...got veri angry over sumthing...sianz... den go home...got ready i left to go meet my class for graduating photo taking...den met at city hall mrt...den after tt went around lookin for places to take the photo...so tired...we took photo until 9.30 leh...den go eat lor...den go home le... --------------------------------------------------------- 24hr{S}a{E} if u wan to do sth...try to do ur best n make sure everything goes well...dun hack care hack care...den later got prob den sianz...haiz... msg of the day:do ur best

hao le

today go sch with sprained leg...den now how le...can run sia...haha...but cannot rotate the ankles...
today we lost to 4/2+4/4+4/6+4/8 in soccer...sianz...but bo bian wat...mazlan bias...nvm...
den kenrick sam n jolene pei mi go queensway shoppin centre buy shirt...we spend abt 1.5h lookin for a shirt for mi n kenrick...
sianz...tml veri rush sia...duno can make it a not...
sick liao...sianz...
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sumtimes u r destined to get sth but sumtimes u r not...so mayb wat we can do is to let our fate lie in the hands of god...
msg of the day:let ur fate lie in the hands of god...

sprained

today during pe sprain my leg...at first not veri pain...but den later veri pain...so decided to go c doc...
den today veri sianz sianz one...i tink wen qin noticed...but den later after sch go out wit mao dey all...dey all super cold...haha....den better le lor...
den sam pei mi go c doc...den she go home le... i oso go home lor...
den veri sianz lor...walking veri ma fan...sit n lie down oso...haha...
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still haven recover back to my spirits...sianz...mayb mt is rite...i shld let mao take over first...haiz...cannot solve my own prob how to help ppl...haiz...time for a break...settle down n tink slowly...
msg of the day:huo lang tui cian lang...

confused

today, whole day sian sian one...still tinkin lor...haiz...now veri confused...duno wat to do...
juz now go meet bel...coz bel call bel pei her go home...??...weird...nvm...den took sum photos...still got abt 5-6 left...tinkin abt sum of the photos i took at the jetty...so chio sia...too bad i was a alone...cannot share tt moment...but i was on the phone...haha...10z for accompanying mi tt time...
now mao hav oso started his 24hr stuff...xiang si ar...still my rice bowl...haiz...mayb its time i tink of abt job??...or shld i juz stick to my goal...haha...mayb shld consider photography...since i lik scenery so muc...
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haiz...recently not in veri gd mood...so the stuff in this coloumn oso not as meaningful as it used to b...but i still wanted to put sth here...photos r sth tt triggers ur memory...but the the memory is still in ur...not mind but heart...
msg of the day:it is not the photo, it is ur heart...

still tinking

today kana waken up by my bro again...sianz...veri tired sia...den do hw lor...haiz...do finish in the afternoon...
wah my thighs veri pain from the biking yesterday...
wat shld i do for the rest of the day...
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10z those hu is concern abt mi...i no tt i recently had been low...but dun need to wori la...i will b ok in a few days...after i sort things out...
msg of the day:ur concern is my light of hope...

bbq

today english paper 1 n geog mock...the english funtional writing i write wrong format...hope tt the marker wun deduct too muc marks coz of it...geog quite hard...hope i dun fail this time...
den after tt go dance...eveyone slack...haha...nvm la..the performance on fri not important one...
den after tt go play ft wit mao yan n kelvin...4v4...we lose lor...coz star players mi n mao kana rush...den no back up...summore mi n mao rong so far away from each other...den yan our finicial support...so cannot blame him...den tt kelvin...tell him to build more ghoul...den he build crap...n he didnt even use necro among those crap...sianz...suan le...
den after tt go bbq lor...haha...ride bike...funz...but the 8 bikes i register kept goin missing...had a hard time to find all the 8...den when jian tao finally came...the sec 4 n 5 guys gather n den i distributed the chain tt mr low made himself in malaysia...10z mr low...haha...veri nice hor...den after tt i walked to the jetty to take sum photos...wow...u guys shld hav seen it...the view is magnificent...cool man...i got take sum photos...show u all next time...
den after tt cum back le...sit one corner watch ppl play badminton lor...den after tt bernice came to join mi...den we tok abt sch lor...nan hua sux lor...haiz...suan le...den after tt is the singing of birthday song to dance...haha...weird hor...duno hus idea...juz joined in...den mi paul n david kana the cake trick...haha...bcum hua lian mao...haha...nvm la funz wat...den after tt daryl got surprise act...haha...i got take down the photo of the fire works...
den after tt everyone started to go home...den mi daryl n sam oso go home lor...dey 2 drunk sia...haha...den reached home abt 12...den go sleep lor...haha...my stupid bro still chatting on phone...power sia...
i had fun...
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sumtimes u no tt sth exists but u juz dun c it...y...i oso duno...mayb bcoz ur brain does not register the need to c it since u r busy wit sth else...hm...shld giv it more tot...anyway i wonder if our brain is lik a com...got ram one...den if used up all the ram liao den cannot do any more things extra...haha...the brain will reject more work ma...haha...pondering...
msg of the day:sth might b there,but u might not c it...

feeling low

today was rather low lor...y?...dun wan to so la...sth veri personal...haiz...
nth muc to write abt lor...haiz...dun feel lik writing...
tml the bbq if i suddenly disappear...dun wori...i might juz b at one corner of the park...haiz...sianz...
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i wan to 10 to everyone for deir notes...i realli appreciate dem...it feels great juz noing tt u guys care...10z again...
msg of the day:wat would i b w/o u...

feeling low

today was rather low lor...y?...dun wan to so la...sth veri personal...haiz...
nth muc to write abt lor...haiz...dun feel lik writing...
tml the bbq if i suddenly disappear...dun wori...i might juz b at one corner of the park...haiz...sianz...
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i wan to 10 to everyone for deir notes...i realli appreciate dem...it feels great juz noing tt u guys care...10z again...
msg of the day:wat would i b w/o u...

bloody hell la

today, i dozed off again...yesterday slept late wat...sorting out stuff for the new chairman, paul...
haha...congrats paul...actually quite disappointed wit the election procedures...but nvm la...
den go je eat snow ice...quite fun la...quite tasty lor...haha...
den go home le lor...den sianz lor kana scolded again...coz i cum home recently veri late...den quarrel wit my bro sian...so god damn not understanding one sia...aiya...dun care la...i juz do my job...n tt is to study...i m getting fed up liao...haiz...even my mother now not supporting mi liao...i guess i m on my own...
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sianz...o lvl cuming liao...all the stress start to cum in...duno wat to do...sianz...haiz...den wan to study oso got time restriction one...wat the hell...haiz...
msg of the day:handle ur job wit care

preparation for the election

today,i got abit sort sort...haha... jen wei n jolene shld no wat happened...
sianz...i got home earlier today to do my hw...haha...den prepare the things i goin to giv to the future chairman...den the floppy cannot work shit...den i dun hav back up file...die...onli manage to save half of the files...die ar...lucky the more important ones still working...wish tt its onli my com cocked up...*pray*
now gettin ready the other gift...haha...the new chair is in for a surprise...
juz now den realised tt i lost my file...die...duno izzit under my table a not...hope so ba...
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hu will b the next chairman...so excited...but den the floppy how...now veri frantic...ar...cannot think la...duno wat to write today...coz juz now while writing a letter to the new chairman...i squeeze out all my juice liao...
msg of the day:dun do things in a rush...u will juz get into trouble...

prayin+god 10ing session

today,dozed off in class...again...haha...tt prawn lesson so sianz...of course la...:P...duno la...den zhanyu damn sway...he kana scolded for sleepin when i was oso sleepin...in front of him...haha...heng sia...
den after sch go temple pray pray...n 10 god for the blessing n stuff...wa so tiring sia...i kneel down almost 30 times ar...i tink...den did abt 9 kow-tow...haha...but its worth it la...all the blessing tt god gave us...not onli the gold...but oso the safety...we did well...i 10 the god on bhalf of all the dance members n did kow-tows to show my gratitude...haha...kneel until legs so pain n my pants black liao...:P...haha...but nvm la...den i donated $14 in all...
den go clementi pei kenrick c doc...den go home le lor...haha...kenrick song liao la...got 2 days mc...haha...rest well ba...get well soon...
den go home pia hw...still hav chores to do...stupid bro say wat i so late cum bad tts y call mi do...when its his turn...but i say i do hw first...den my mother go n do her herself liao...10z mum...*hugz*...
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today i want to dedicate this coloumn to deanic from my class...let mi say sth abt him abit...he basically is the spiritually leader of our class...coz he basically noes a lot abt religious practices...even more den most ppl do...even more den some or mayb even moz adults...haha...the even more power thing is tt he is os quite familar wit other religions practices...power sia...haha...basically i wan to 10 him for helpin out wit the prayin n the 10ing ceremony...after all he noes all this stuff best...if u dun rely on him den hu rite...haha...10 again deanic...
msg of the day:god will bless u,as long as u blive in dem...n its regards of wich god u blive...

triple gd news

today, is a veri happi day...so hip sia...dance got 2 gold...yeah!!...n 4/7 won the bball match...although the opponent is our fellow daryl n gang...but i still hav to support my class rite...daryl n terence...u all put up a gd fight...gd game...n to the 4/7 guys...gd job...u guys rawk...4/7 rulez...
haha...bcoz of all this exciting events...haha...got too happi n excited...den my headache cum back again...haha...but i guess its for a gd cost...haha...i had a great day...n i m sure tt the rest of u had too...haha...tml get ur throats ready for serious shouting n cheering...
n to all the sec 4...we r goin to perform on 8 of august...haha...NEWater...haha...at the parade square...
-_-""...but its the oppoturnity tt counts wat...treasure n cherish it ba...
tml i goin to the temple wit deanic yan i tink mao oso goin...to 10 god for the blessing...haha...anyone wan to chip in sum money to buy offering can cum n find mi tml morning...
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i lik always scold u all at dance hor...haha...but next time no more chance le...in case u guys duno...i get headaches everytime after scolding u all...veri xing ku one leh...haha...but if u all learn for it den my headache is worth it...haha...nan hua dance forever...goin to miss u guys...take care hor...*grp hugz* haha...^.^V
msg of the day:we r the champions...:P

cant bear to leave

today woke up at 9 +...haha...sleep so long...den do hw lor...den now writing the last od liao...this is the fifth i wrote today...haha...a bit tired...the elections is on fri...haha...lookin forward to it...haha...wonder hu shld i vote for...
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this one is for all dancers...not juz any dancer...but a nan hua dancer...i no sum of u cant bear to let us go...but we cant bear to leave either...but i promise tt i will cum back to dance if i m free ok...haha...i m sure all of the rest graduating dancers will too...dun u tink so...so theres is nth to b sad abt ok...u all will always b in my heart...lik i said yesterday...u all r wonderful ppl...we rawk man...
msg of the day:once a dancer...always a dancer...but we r not juz any dancer...we r nan hua dancers

wonderful ppl

today goin to botanic gardens lor卹ather unhappy in the afternoon lor?wit sth la卍en later rehearsal finish liao卹ain卍en we go visitors center wait lor卍en was rather affected by sth卍uno wat oso卙aiz?P>
den sit alone卍en I was looking at this fountain卼here is a pool in the middle卍en a bumpy slide b4 reaching the larger pool below卍en I feel tt the pool in the middle is lik when we r in primary sch卍en the bumpy one is lik wat we r all goin thru lor卍en after tt go into the larger pool wich represent the society lor?P>
den after tt go perform liao lor卥enrick fell down卨uckily he ok?0 god卍en esther was veri xing ku卨uckily she later oso fine le卼o all those injured n sick単et well soon?P>
den in the bus we sing sing lor卻o fun卍en back in sch after everyone settle down liao厀e had a 揷eremony攨I said sum things to dem卙aha卍en after tt we sing sing after卾eri gan dong de event lor卐veryone veri happi n gan dong?P>
den we all go mac eat卍en go west coast park party lor卍en mi daryl n sam take cab home lor?P> -----------
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this one is for all the sec 4卆fter being together for 4 years liao卹eally cant accept the fact tt we will b in different schs at the end of the year卍uno when will we get a chance to b together again匢 really cherish the times we had together匢 really hav a lot of things to say卋ut Its lik veri hard to say everything in words lor卨ik wat david says卆lthough I nv cry yesterday卋ut I was really veri happi n gan dong den lor卙ere I would lik tt wish u all all the best in whatever u do?P>
msg of the day:u all r wonderful ppl!

our big day

today is our competition liao...
den at 9 we cum out n repair the props n all卬 surprisingly we manage to finish everything by 9.30卋ut den mrs wong cum tt time a lot ppl still eating卍en she duno y so angry卍en scold scold卆iya duno la?P>
den go competition lor卝uz b4 us got one break?5 min卻o long卻ianz卬vm la卍en when our turn tt time匢 tink I wasn抰 concentrating enuff lor匢 hold the kun wit the wrong hand卍en on the stage den I realized卍en I change hands lor卍en jian tao stun卍en our kun clashed卻ianz単ot the tong sound卙aiz匢 shld not hav done tt卍en after tt I tink everyone affected by tt clash lor卙aiz卻ori guys卍en later kenrick duno y cannot jump over steph卋asically quite a lot of mistake lor卋ut den I blive tt we can get tt gold one lor卋ut hope tt I dun end up crying over it卲ray hard lor?P>
den go back sch卌heer lor卼ry to cheer the ppl up卍en kenrick dun wan to tok leh卙aiz卍un sad la卍en after tt all the sec 4 guys except for Alvin n kenrick go to jec happi lor厀e hang around卍en later xue zhen steph yi jun n Sophia came along lor?den I call kenrick ask him wan to cum a not卍en say ok卍en we party lor?P> ---------------------------------------------------------
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msg of the day:u all r the best

deir big day

wa...dis is it man...today is the day...
i wake up at 4...den call sam lor...spend abt 6 min to try to wake her up...so long hor...haha...:P
den go meet jolene lor...her father driving daryl raymond terence n mi over to sch...haha...surprisigly mrs wong nv late...haha...mayb dis kind of big day she wun late one...haha...
den at the place itself so tense up...den got sch same music as xiao wan pi...haha...but we better...
den at back stage mi daryl yan n mao try to set up the banner...keep on make checks making sure tt nth is wrong...den i suddenly realised the kun is in front of the banner...den wrong liao...so quickly change to behind...den YES we did it...
but the sad thing is tt i nv get to watch dem dance...but everyone was praising dem n all...gd job...well done...
den go back sch cheer lor...haha...so song...yeah...nhds rulez...
den after sch is our turn to lian lor...mrs wong super not happi lor...say we slack n all...haiz...duno wat to do la...den she oso say tt xiao wan pi likely to get first in singapore...gd news...but put a lot of pressure on us sia...den i was not in a gd mood today either...sianz...almost cried when dey say wan to polish the kun tml...as in do we hav the time a not...den later still say wan to sew clothes tml...
actually there r more to today...but i dun wan to spoil my mood...haha...den dun say le lor...
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msg of the day:team work is our key

b4 the big day

today is actually 27-7-03 la...but i wanted to account for the days tt i missed...so the next 4 entries r all written on 27-7-03...but i wun b writing 24hr{S}a{E} for all the entry...haha...one day where got so muc to say one...
tml is the big day for xiao wan pi liao...excited sia...so tired from the practice...den mrs wong scold today lor...again...xiao wan pi so cham...haiz...nvm...jia you...
den tml supposed to wake up at 4...muz giv sam morning call :P...haha...but cannot sleep leh...duno is too excited or worried...
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msg of the day:confidence is one of the teeth on the key of success

today,damn bu song...i today duno y veri irritated...den after tt the prawn kao bei mi...sianz...she say i dun care abt my work tts y my file so mani

today,lucky tt prawn nv kao bei mi...if not i realli go principle office lor...sianz...tml got oral...scared sia...haha...
den after tt dance...haiz...xiao wan pi veri worrying leh...haiz...duno wat to do...got a lot of things to tell dem...including the da bian ppl... but i scared i say liao will hav a reverse effect...i m oso sure sum off u all might not b able to take it lor...
during dance...sam not feeling well wat...den pei her...haha...so mani ppl pei sia...we oso sing to her...haha...she wan to laugh but cannot lik tt...veri torturous hor...
den after dance pei her go c doc...mao n yan came along too...den reach there le...her mother oredi there...haha...from back view realli look lik my mother...haha...mayb dey long lost sis...haha...jk...jk...den after tt finally got to taste tiong bahru bao...haha...not bad la...but i lik the siew mai n mai kai better...haha...den her mother giv us each extra to bring home...haha...yeah!!got breakfast liao...:P...
anyway...dis whole i will b veri grouchy...so dun cum n irritate mi if i angry liao...anyway if u tok to mi i nv reply...dun press if not u will get it...u dun wan to make mi angry in a dance practice one hor...today is not counted as angry hor...so mind u...wait i until i angry dun mi surprise if i do sth stupid or foolish when i get angry...it will b an ugly sight...even i oso so seldom c tt i forgot how liao...too ugly to remember ba...haiz...wat shld i do...anyway...i wan to say sori in advance n to those ppl i throw my temper at today...sori hor...i wasnt being myself...
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i m realli veri worried abt the syf n all...everynight i hav a hard time trying to get to fall asleep...i had to hypnoyise myself...chanting sleep sleep sleep in my head...den keep tinking for solutions to those arising prob...sth i hav answer liao but den the next morning forgot liao...its lik this ideas onli cum out when i wan to go n sleep or wat...haha...mayb next time i got idea liao i quickly tell sumone first...lik tt wun forget liao...haha...duno can work a not...
msg of the day:sths r better to remind unknown,as knowing it would turn the tables...

go hell la

today,damn bu song...i today duno y veri irritated...den after tt the prawn kao bei mi...sianz...she say i dun care abt my work tts y my file so mani things missing...den i say if i dun care i would hav lost everything...den she tell mi to say again...i no if i say again...i will realli start to lose my temper...so i tiam tiam...dun look at her...
den chao bu song...den after tt i wan to go find daryl take calculator...den mao call mi...sori i nv answer...i scare i throw my temper at u...tts y i didnt reply...den i walk so fast tt i almost sprain my ankle at the stairs...lucky nv...
den afternoon go eat wit mao yan diwei n zhenyu...den chao gao siao...haha...we crap a lot...den go home play ft wit mao...
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stupid prawn...she duno wat is respect izzit...she has no respect for anyone...she tink she teacher veri power izzit...tok to us lik we her slave or sth...we r humans ok...hav feelings one ok...cant she b more sensitive wit her words...i cant stand her sia...go hell la...no wonder her husband wan to divioce her...serve her rite...if i was given a chance i would let her hav a taste of her own medicine...first of all...i m goin to work hard n throw my results at her...although i might hav told sum of u tt mrs lim(binco) is oso a terrible teacher...but tt prawn is muc more rotten...
msg of the day:treat us wit RESPECT

cold

today, i overslept by 15 min...haha...miss digimon...coz i nv on alarm...haha...den i realiese tt i caught a cold...sianz...sick liao...haiz...
den do hw lor...nth muc on the tv...den play ft wit mao lor...haha...sianz...
today didnt do muc...feeling sick...haiz...sianz...duno tml will b better a not...
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the syf results will onli cum out 2 weeks after the competition...sianz sia...so long...i will die of anxiety one leh...den coz of SARS senoirs cannot go c n help out...even mr low might not get to go in n watch us...how...aiya...duno la...
life is full of waiting...i hate to wait...so i dun lik tt let ppl wait for mi...tts y i m seldom late...but sumtimes waiting is inevitable...lik the syf results...haiz...
msg of the day:waiting takes patience,being on time takes effort...

rohan rulez

today go to sch early n reach at 6.30...lucky i came out early if not i will b caught in the rain...den later wan to take key liao...den ms bun say no permission cannot take...sianz...den i tell her mrs wong say can...den she say mrs wong nv tell dem...den i call mrs wong let her listen to the phone...den she dun wan to listen to the phone sia...stupid bitch...spoil my day...lucky ms soh came along n help us take the key if not mr low will fa fong again...
den after tt at dance damn bu song liao lor...den summore got ppl late...sianz...den pump lor...haiz...duno wat to do la...den dance...den after tt go down to c xiao wan pi ppl practice shouting...
den go ginza play lan wit mao, yan n di wei...haha...rohan is back...if u no wat i mean...haha...den play 4v4 we 4 vs com...haha...at first kana thrash...but den we made a cum back...haha...den destroyed the com...haha...mao top score today...mi second...lose him 20k onli leh...haha...but at least my hero score top as usual...haha...my hero score always top one...
later at nite playing wit mao again...haha...^.^V
btw choy boy...the rumor thing rite for ur case is different hor...haha...:P
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hm...today duno wat to write...sianz...guess this morning got too worked up...haiz...duno wat to do la...now i m standing on the crossroads trying to decide where to go...i realli wish tt we could get gold for both the dances...not tt i care abt the fame n or wat la...but den its lik wat i said the other time lor...for the the memory lor...rite?
msg of the day:gd or bad memories is up to u to create

its not wat u tink

today,pro sia...yesterday was woken up in the middle of the night by a call...den tok to tt person for lik 1h...haha...so tired...but den today nv dozed of leh...haha...^.^V...
b4 go dance we decided to wait for the speaker of the day to end...den andy say he nv prepare...sianz... den stand up dere for lik 10min say n do nth...waste time sia...sianz...
den after tt go dance lor...haha...today not bad la...juz tt coz the tai too small got a little bit prob her n dere...but xiao wan pi i duno le...haha...coz i was at the back stage helpin out...den nv c lor...
den one of the pole was left on the bus...den mrs wong scold lor..
den after tt go c mrs tan for lesson...den go for dinner lor...den saw jolene...den ask her she wan go a not...den say ok lor...haha...she say go dere c mi eat...den along the way to n fro a lot ppl saw us...den everyone xiang y y...-_-""...pls la...mi n her!impossible one lor...not my type...haha...juz treats her as a friend lor...summore she take the same bus wat...everyone likes to hav company one wat...i m no exception...anyway u all wan to say say lor...i dun care...coz m consious...
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rumors kills ok...haiz...dun need to say too muc u all also no one la...haha...nvm...i dun wan to say too muc la...juz keep tt in mind...
msg of the day:rumors kill

shi nian

today,dozed of again...sianz...den take test after sch...den go ginza buy battery...den cum home liao...
den go dl shi nian...haha...i goin to edit it later...sum parts got prob...:P...i ask a lot ppl liao...all say nice...haha...
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haha...10z bel for the note from yesterday...i read in jl diary call tell tt dere r still sum disputes among u all...haha...dun get too work up k...lac...haha...jia you for next year...b the next 4/7...long live 4/7...haha...
msg of the day:always look on the bright side of life...

i m sori

today, in is a bad day for mi...assembly ended at 2...den found out tt 2/6 got 3rd...haiz...i hav a part to pay for deir failure too...i feel so bad...so guilty...if i didnt act clever n giv dem idea mayb dey would hav won...but wat is done is done...i onli can say tt i m sori...
den after tt go remedial lor...actually abit affected by tt news liao...but den wen qin pair wit mi for oral practice...haha...he cheer mi up abit wit his jokes lor...den after tt go for special english remedial...den ms norrita tested us oral...den she say i not bad...except tt my picture descri no gd...no detail...but honestly how to b detail wit tt shit picture...everyone in the pic where so plain...nvm...zai jie zai li...
den go bball court found evan dey all...found out tt todays match was a walk over coz opponent nv cum...but the refree say if got rain no count...den evan say dey wish for rain...coz wan to practice against dem wat...but after the match started 5 min still no rain...so walk over lor...we win...den the deciding match one monday...jia you ba...den played bball lor...
den wan to go home tt time yok wei den realiese tt he got tuition...-_-""...7.30 at bedok...so far...summore need to go back to si mei first...den take cab lor...
haha...
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when u do sth u feel tt is wrong...apologise for it...dun care if u r realli in the wrong or wat...coz the important thing is wat u tink...even if the event has past long ago...it will nv b too late to say sori now...i m sure the person will forgive u...although saying sori is not hard...but it is being responsible enuff to say it...
msg of the day:take responsible for ur actions

frozen throne burner

today,recieve the frozen throne cd le...pass to wayne to burn for everyone...haha...super distributor...haha...den today quite sianz la...nth muc...during ss sleep lor...haha...tt prawn(mdm sia)nv c...haha...den wayne sway...keep on let her shoot...haha...tt prawn using yok wei's phrases again...haha...
den after sch go c terence dey all play bball...den join for less den 5 min i go le...go do hw...den after tt mad cum le...den teach her amaths...haha...5 qn i duno 2...:P
den meet daryl at bball court...den he playing wit yan,mao,bernard,di wei, n 2 sec 3 gals...den go home le lor...
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i blive tt a person will nv show his/her full potential until forced or stretch...or mayb under special circumstances...but stretching sumone too muc oso cannot...lik wat we say too muc of a gd thing is bad...sumtimes things juz hav to b employed wit balance lor...cannot rush one...
msg of the day:rubber is elastic,but it will still snap if over stretched...

so fast

today,doze off during the chemistry project presentation...haha...sianz...
den took the ss test...haha...first qn i write one side...duno can pass a not...
den after sch go camp 2 find my mother...cannot find...den go call her...she reach GH liao...-_-""...haha...so fast...coz my bro need go check up...haha...nurse say 145% nutrition value...:p...
den tried to transfer all the songs in sonique play list to media player...but cannot...sianz...later playing chi chess wit mao online...haha...
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haha...out of juice le...duno wat to write...aiya write abt wat i wrote in my chi compo today...the topic was abt yai zhai mei n nei zhai mei...i feel tt yai zhai mei is not important lor...wat matters is the inside...correct...i guess muz of u would agree...so dun judge a person by his/her looks...its a veri bad way to look at ppl...haha...so dun lik tt hor...haha...
msg of the day:dun judge a bk by its cover

10z again

today,did nth muc lor...do hw half the day lor...den play frozen throne half the day lor...den yesterday sumone tell mi 15 min online den in the end zzZzz...-_-""...duno hu hor...haha...
today nth to write la...tml goin to sch liao...sianz...
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today, i wan to write abt abit wat happen yesterday after most of u all offline...i was chatting wit one classmate...den suddenly she sign wat...den i ask her she ok a not...den after lik 5-10 min she reply le...say bro was using com...den after tt i say dun xia ren...den she say will meh...guys oso dun care one...get lik i gek tio lor...den i say where got...wao lao hurt my feelings leh...u all shld no wat kind of person i m lor...den my turn to sign lor...den sort of bcum xin qin bu hao liao...den she console mi n all tt(actually i feel tt she is scolding mi more den consoling mi)...haha...anyway...if u r reading this i would lik to say 10z again...
msg of the day:tink b4 u act

bu yao ku

today, i woke up 5...haha...den go cook noodles...share wit mi bro...coz i cooked 2 packet...haha...den cope sunny side up from my mother...haha...:p
den go back sleep...pigz hor...haha...den woke up at 6.30...den go sch le lor...
go hall sit for a while mao cum le...den we play chi chess...2 round...i lost both...haha...nvm...den dance start le...den lian lor...haha...after dance go find mrs wong claim money...haha...den saw si ping wit her discussing abt the new dance t...quite nice la...finally a new design after 10 years...shi nian zhi qian wo bu ren shi ni...:p...nice song...
den cum out j&j tell mi clarisa or watever her name lost her hp...-_-""...den went around find lor...cannot find...call the sec 2 gals...all nv c...den make report lor...den i go meet mao n yan liao...den go hawker eat...den go back to opaque...
actually wan to study one...but den c sam playin game tempted lor...in the end nv do at all...den help out a bit wit the 2/6 script...haha...if u all win muz treat mi hor...haha...if lose den find mi...:P
den later everyone go home lor...den sam hor veri gao siao one leh...she cry den say duno y she cry...haha...den laugh laugh...haha...crazy sia...gd acting sia...;)(if u realli no wat i mean)
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today i sent sumone home...haha...u wun no hu one...n i m not telling...today the person not feeling gd...i tink...can tell la...but y i still duno...i presume is sth abt friendship but i might b wrong...watever it is hor...i realli hav a strong feelin tt sth is wrong...i duno la...to tt person i sent home...dun tink too muc la...got any prob can cum find mi...i wun tell ppl...haha...24hrSaE leh...haha...
msg of the day:u cant bluff mi one, i can read minds...(dedicated to tt person :p)

the fat, the short n the stupid

today,nv doze off...haha...yeah...^.^V...coz i sleep during the chi test after i finish the paper...
den today go dance lor...nth muc la...mr low nv veri angry...onli a bit la...wa...damn tired sia...haha...tml so early...:p...
den go home tt time take bus wit linus dey all...den i sit wit linus dey all...den dey all call zeng liang the fat, the short n the stupid...haha...den i say...die...my brother in his class sia...den zl say my bro sit beside him sia...haha...no wonder i find him bcum more n more stupid...haha...jk...
den juz now cum home liao...my mother say got msg in her hp for mi...haha...it was jiu rong...say she sick cannot cum dance today...haha...summore she nv say name...if i was using tt hp i would not hav known is hu...haha...summore today i nv bring hp to sch...:P
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i had been wantin to find time to tok to u all abt the current situation in dance...but juz cannot find the time...mayb tml dere will b a chance ba...but i wan to say sum here first...u all no tt we hav a name to upkeep to...the straight golds n stuff...we still hav to giv our senoirs a jiao die...one more veri important thing is tt the sch is starting to not giv dance all those privlliages we used to enjoy...coz of the rise in ability of the other performing arts group...plus we didnt make it into esplanade...the more dey think more lightly of us...so we muz prove tt we still can do it...its for our future...not for the sch...so u all muz understand...our future position in the sch...it wun do us muc gd...but for sec 4s u all hav to tink tt if u all cum back u all will hav wonderful memories instead of sadness n grief...remember its for us not for dem...dey do not care abt us...juz abt the gold...so jia you!!
msg of the day:if u dun even wan to do it for urself den hu else can u do it for??

frozen throne

today,almost doze off again...but nv...coz today got a bit bu song...oso duno y...i tink mrs tan notice den ask mi i ok a not...duno la...mayb juz not happi wit life...or juz bcoz i tired den bcum grouchy...
den after sch mrs wong tell mi...sec 4 all no need to attend all those sat lessons until syf over...sianz...i no now syf veri important...but my studies oso important wat...a lot ppl kao bei...sianz...aiya bo bian lor...wat to do...study ourselves ba...
den i installed frozen throne...yeah so fun...haha...but den com now so hard to fight...harder den last time sia...or mayb coz i too long nv play + now all those new units...haha...man man lai lor...
tml hav dance sia...jia you...haha...go for the honor n glory...go go go...
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will power is a veri amazing thing...juz lik confidence...it can make u b able to do sth tt u might not b able to do in the past...but a lot ppl lack will power...including myself...u can tell from deir studies ba...ppl no offends hor...anyway...ppl hus grades r no gd can onli mean 2 things...1 dey lack will power n dun study...2 dey r realli stupid n cant b helped...but if u r in the first category...den u would hav sum reflecting to do...anyway...i hav done sum reflecting...tts y u find mi studying...surprising hor...haha...but den its still not the fullest i can do...i m still slacking...if i wasnt slacking i could hav completed the revision for at least geog by now...but i haven...so i still hav sum work to do...actually m main aim of writing od everyday got 2...1 is to express my tots n feelings...2 is to practice brainstorming...by writing in this coloumn everyday...honestly speaking if u lack brainstorming skills den u cannot possibly cum up wit dis sort of sensible crap everyday...n bcoz i write everyday...i realiese tt i m starting to run out of juice liao...haiz...everyone has limit...but mayb wit a bit of will power u can push urself far enuff to cross the finishing line...
msg of the day:wit a bit of will power u can go a long way...