It was never meant to be, but I took the brainless dive.
I knocked my head, killing all sense.
When consciousness finally found me, I was already in no-man's land.
Blinded by the flashes of bombardment, I fell onto my knees.
Lost in the world of darkness, all I could see was my bleeding heart.
I felt nothing, but my weary limbs.
My ears strained to listen, only to hear the fading enemy footsteps.
Is this the end?My end?
Clocks started to fill my mind, hands wiping back and forth.
My world starts spinning, like the hands on the face of the clocks.
Suddenly, episodes start to play on the walls of emptiness.
Playing and rewinding, as if synchronized with the winding clocks.
Doomed in chronosphere, stuck in time.
Tortured for eternity, until my savior comes to my aid.
When will my time come? When will light shine through?
Time and darkness, my ultimate weakness.
~ Life has to end. Love doesn’t. ~
18 September 2007
16 September 2007
monotonous
Since so many people are pestering me for an entry, I shall write one today since I don't feel like doing other things.
Nothing much has happened since my last update. The problems that I was facing faded off, maybe.
Then, zhenyu, zhiyan and me are going to phuket in October. I am really looking forward to the trip(although, water activity has never been on my to do list), because it is going to be a fresh experience. As zhenyu always say, I am very "shuan ku".
One last thing that happened and is worth mentioning is that my officers wrote me a recommendation letter to promote me to corporal first class(a newly implemented rank). To me, the rank and money($80 in total) is not very important. So, I didn't really bother about it and would not have much of a reaction to know that I will be getting it. But, what is the big deal(at least I feel so) is that my officers instead of just going through the normal paper work went an extra mile by typing a letter to attach on to my application and the most power thing is that the person who sign is my boss who happens to be the deputy head of department. I am just so touched, I didn't do the wrong thing to go all out to help them.
Sometimes putting in effort is not enough, meeting the right people is also essential.
I don't know since when did my life become so monotonous. There is seriously nothing happening going on as the above would suggest. Its rather sad if you ask me. Its just so boring.
Its so ironic.When you are being bothered by things(be it good or bad), sometimes you wish that it would just go away(only applies to bad, I think). But, when it really does, your life just becomes boring.
I am not trying to ask for trouble or problems. But, it feels so meaningless to not have a purpose or at least a goal. So, actually being in love is sometimes a good thing(regardless of what kind of love), at least there is something to think about, look forward to and be hopefully about.
Sometimes I just look back and wonder what is this all about.
Looking at the past, the present and the future, I just end up with doubt.
Anyway sometime this week, I randomly recalled two very sweet things that my dear god sister, mich did for me.
1)During some dance practice, I was down with a fever and she actually sat there to deb my forehead with a towel.
2)For my 20th birthday, she actually baked me cheesecake.
Yeah, its mushy stuff. But, I believe in saying it when you appreciate it(although sometimes I still don't). Of course, there are more things that she did, but there is no need to list them all out. In fact, many of you guys did sweet things for me(knowingly/unknowingly) and I still remember them(although there might still be some that I forgot). I maybe forgetful, but certain things I still remember down to the finest detail.
Life just couldn't be blue when you think of such stuff. Its just so...nice.
On a side note, I have people asking me before whether I got like mich before. Well, surprisingly no. Yeah, shes nice and all(mich don't fly too high...haha...), but I guess this is what people mean when they say "bu lai dian". Although, I would really happy if I were to really have a real sister like her.
Ok...that was a rather long entry. To end the entry off I will post a question to you guys, hope that maybe one of you might know what its about. From time to time, I will feel numbness in my fingertips. Any idea why this happens?
Nothing much has happened since my last update. The problems that I was facing faded off, maybe.
Then, zhenyu, zhiyan and me are going to phuket in October. I am really looking forward to the trip(although, water activity has never been on my to do list), because it is going to be a fresh experience. As zhenyu always say, I am very "shuan ku".
One last thing that happened and is worth mentioning is that my officers wrote me a recommendation letter to promote me to corporal first class(a newly implemented rank). To me, the rank and money($80 in total) is not very important. So, I didn't really bother about it and would not have much of a reaction to know that I will be getting it. But, what is the big deal(at least I feel so) is that my officers instead of just going through the normal paper work went an extra mile by typing a letter to attach on to my application and the most power thing is that the person who sign is my boss who happens to be the deputy head of department. I am just so touched, I didn't do the wrong thing to go all out to help them.
Sometimes putting in effort is not enough, meeting the right people is also essential.
I don't know since when did my life become so monotonous. There is seriously nothing happening going on as the above would suggest. Its rather sad if you ask me. Its just so boring.
Its so ironic.When you are being bothered by things(be it good or bad), sometimes you wish that it would just go away(only applies to bad, I think). But, when it really does, your life just becomes boring.
I am not trying to ask for trouble or problems. But, it feels so meaningless to not have a purpose or at least a goal. So, actually being in love is sometimes a good thing(regardless of what kind of love), at least there is something to think about, look forward to and be hopefully about.
Sometimes I just look back and wonder what is this all about.
Looking at the past, the present and the future, I just end up with doubt.
Anyway sometime this week, I randomly recalled two very sweet things that my dear god sister, mich did for me.
1)During some dance practice, I was down with a fever and she actually sat there to deb my forehead with a towel.
2)For my 20th birthday, she actually baked me cheesecake.
Yeah, its mushy stuff. But, I believe in saying it when you appreciate it(although sometimes I still don't). Of course, there are more things that she did, but there is no need to list them all out. In fact, many of you guys did sweet things for me(knowingly/unknowingly) and I still remember them(although there might still be some that I forgot). I maybe forgetful, but certain things I still remember down to the finest detail.
Life just couldn't be blue when you think of such stuff. Its just so...nice.
On a side note, I have people asking me before whether I got like mich before. Well, surprisingly no. Yeah, shes nice and all(mich don't fly too high...haha...), but I guess this is what people mean when they say "bu lai dian". Although, I would really happy if I were to really have a real sister like her.
Ok...that was a rather long entry. To end the entry off I will post a question to you guys, hope that maybe one of you might know what its about. From time to time, I will feel numbness in my fingertips. Any idea why this happens?
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