right is wrong?

Did I do something wrong?
Why do I sense hostility?
I feel horrible...

a painful lie

Girl:Dear...I have something I want to tell you.
Guy:What is it?

Girl:I am leaving Singapore.
Guy:Oh...but what for?

Girl:I want to further my studies.
Guy:Ok...when will you be back?

Girl:I don't know.5 years...10 years...who knows?I might even stay there for good.
Guy:Has your parents agreed yet?

Girl:*Sigh*Look...I don't want to beat about the bush. I like people who are more exciting, you are just not exciting enough. Since, people over there are said to be very exciting, I guess you don't need to worry about me.
Guy:But...but, I can change...I can be...

Girl:It's no use...we are just not meant to be together.Goodbye~

Girl turns and leaves.

Years later guy fell in love with another girl and got married soon after that.

One year during Qing Ming Festival...

Guy:Erm...hi...aren't you Girl's mother?I am Guy.
Mother:Oh...Guy...it's been awhile.

Guy notices the picture on the tombstone...it belonged to Girl.

Mother:I guess its about time you no about the truth.
Guy:The truth?!?!

Mother:The truth is Girl didn't go overseas at all, instead she was diagnosed with cancer and had only one month left.
Guy:Cancer...?

Mother:She decided that pain and suffering for one person is enough, so she decided to lie to you. How I wish we could tell you the truth, but Girl forbid it. She was crying everyday, sometimes from pain, sometimes from a broken heart. Even on her last day, tears was all over her face when she past away.

Guy turned to the tombstone.

Guy:Why did you lie to me? You knew I hate people lying to me...

At first, Girl seem to be heartless, but turns out that she is selfless.
Self-sacrifice...how much is it appreciated?Could it be appreciated in time?
Cherish is the word.

beyond control

Finally, Gentarasa has come to an end. Despite the fact that I wanted it to come to an end badly, I have to agree with one of the Silat guys that after it has ended life will enter a state of emptiness, be it temporary or permanent.

Now, I am just generally left with NDP to clear before I semi-retire from dance.

One after another, come and go.
Wounds would heal, comes the scar.
Pain could hide, scar stays in the light.
Nature answers to nobody, just like how somethings are beyond control.

you are everywhere...

I have been feeling very restless lately because of the amount of time taken up by silat, but since next Saturday is the performance I shall bare with it for a little more.

Although, I said that I won't be blogging until end of silat, but today finally I found the answer to a question that I was unable to answer.

Well, I only can say that its a very contradicting feeling, but I guess that's life.

It would never be...would it?