Solving x

Sometimes I thought that I have things all figure out, but I realise that I still can't find the value of x. I guess skipping steps out of complacency always has its risks. But, sometimes we just can't help it, because we are actively looking for ways to make our lives easier. By taking the equation for its face value, usually leads to a wrong solution. So, we shouldn't just dive in and crash into the concrete. But, there are times that the problem is really just that simple. Yet, these are the kind of situations people choose to think that things are not so simple. So, is it right for me to conclude that people trivialize complex issues and complicate simple issues?

I find myself always going back to the question.

Don't try to find the x in my equation.
Because you will just end with an error on your calculator.
Just as I did.
Let's just stick with 1 + 1.

Splitza Stage/Splitza #5

I have been thinking about how I can present Splitza on stage for Anyhow Art '10. I have thought of many different ways of presenting and portraying the story. But, it seems that it is the story is more suited for platforms like TV and radio. I think maybe it is because Anyhow Art is not a conventional art event, so a lot of the stage elements that can help project the characters are missing.

But, oh well, I shall continue in search for my answer and hoping can fulfill one of my life goals.

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Previously, Sam mentioned that Jax asked him to to set Jax up with Shiori and Sam was about to say another reason for being reluctant to do so...

Sam: Plus...I think I am in love with Shiori...

Ah Long: Sia la... No wonder la! I thought why you so bo liao, emo over such a small thing.

Emo-Bu: 真的吗？ So sweet~ 是从几时开始的?

Sam: It started the day...

I was on my way home when I heard this angelic voice and that beautiful melody. I walked towards where the piano and saw Shiori there playing the piano and singing. I was so mesmerized by it that I just stood there listening till silence took over, then did I realised that she finished. I don't know why I did what I did, but I quickly went off before she realised that I was there. I think maybe a part of me was afraid that she might dislike my presence there. I also don't know why I thought that way too.

After a week, I realised that she would always stay back late to sing and play the piano everyday. Since then, I have been quietly standing there listening to her everyday without fail.

One day, while listening to her, I sneezed and my presence was announced.

Shiori: Hi Sam, were you standing there listening to...me?
Sam: Hi...Shiori...er...yes, I was...
Shiori: You have been coming to listen to me for a few times already, haven't you?
Sam: Huh!Er... how did you know?
Shiori: Actually, I don't I am just guessing. Because, sometimes I hear someone there, but when I turn to see who it was, I was always too slow.
Sam: I am sorry...Am I disturbing you? (Luckily, she doesn't know that I come everyday)
Shiori: Nono! Not at all...just that I am a bit shy... *Blush* and I always though I was alone here...This is so embarrassing!
Sam: Oh, no! You are actually very good, so there is no need to be embarrassed.
Shiori: Actually, you are here...everyday right? *Blush*
Sam: HUH! I mean...oops you noticed...(Oh my god! She knows!)
Shiori: Haha...You're cute~
Sam:... *blush*
Shiori: Erm...I have to go...
Sam: Oh, ok. I will see you class.
Shiori: Bye!

*Shiori runs off

Shiori: *Turns around*Come and listen again tomorrow! *Smile*

Emo-bu: So sweet~!

Ah Long: Wa...Sam, you strike jackpot liao la!

Sam: -_-oioi~ What are the two of you thinking about?! But, haiz, I am still worried about Jax... Zzz...

*Next day

Jax: Sam my man! Have you done what I told you to do?

To be continued...

Author notes: Actually, when thinking for a name for the female character, I was really very tempted to use YUI. Haha... But, I didn't. =P Anyway, after some feedbacks, I am now experimenting with the lenght of the chapters. Do you all think this chapter's lenght is better?

Curse

I run and run, trying to escape from this terrible nightmare.
But, no matter how far I run, I end up back where I started.

I don't know why, I just can't get away.
No matter how I hide and shove it into a corner, it just pops up again.

I tied to a place, I wanted to move away from.
Everything just seems to remind me of the same old thing.

Why am I bind to this curse?

Inspiration/Splitza #4

It has been a while since I took long bus rides and thanks to these long bus rides I was able to generate ideas for the plot of Splitza for the coming chapters. I almost forgot how much I love long bus rides.

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Previously Ah Long and Emo-Bu were asking what was bothering Sam.

Sam: Ok, there is this bully in school called Jax...

Jax: Hey, Sam!My man!
Sam: He...llo Jax...What can I do for...you... *gulp*
Jax: I heard that you are very close to Shiori...
Sam: Yeah? I mean I am her assigned buddy in class...
Jax: Good... Very good... I want you to set me up for a date with her!
Sam: But...But...
Jax: No Buts! Unless, you want to eat my fist!

Ah Long: Chey... I thought what...This kind of small ka...can't be bothered...You two can handle la...

Emo-Bu*: Ah Long! 你还说你要帮忙！嗨...Sam, 那你要这么办？

Sam: I really don't know...I mean how do I even tell Shiori**? I really don't want to have to betray her trust...Plus...

Emo-Bu: Plus? Plus 什么？

To be continued...

* Authors notes: I decided to change Emo-Bu's character to speak in more chinese after I did some exploring for the character.
** Shiori - A girl who will be talked about more in the chapters. Special thanks to Vivian for the name.

习惯/Why?

不管是晴天还是雨天，你总是陪在我身旁。
你让我感受爱的感觉， 让我习惯有你的时间。

在什么时候， 你已不再像从前。
你的背影，就像是昨天。

为什么要对我说， 你已习惯有我的日子？

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Why did you walk in and left the door open?
Did you know that I was afraid that you would leave?
Why did you say the things that you did?
Did you know that I believed in all of them?
Why did you walk out and shut me in?
Did you know that I am still trapped inside?


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这一切都是虚幻， 都是谎言。
不要欺骗我， 不要说永远。

Deadly Addiction

Take a dose, enjoy the pleasure.
Feel it swim through my body, defile my blood.
Pain spreads to every inch.
But, I just can't stop going back.

It frees me of worries, it makes me happy.
I am numbed and calls fail to resonate.
Suffering every moment, drained of my emotions.
But, I am stuck with this deadly addiction.

Resolution/Splitza #3

I just realized I didn't make any resolution for this year yet. Although, I intended to do so yesterday in the entry, today during a conversation I concluded that I always have the same resolutions/wishes. Ha! I guess it is just not working or maybe it is really just me. Oh well, I guess the right way to think is to take it easy.

These days I am just getting more and more confused with the signals I receive from my dear friend(s) up there. So, sometimes I really don't what I should do. I guess maybe status quo is my best bet.

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Previously on Splitza, Ah Long offered to help share Sam's problems but Emo-Bu reminds him that he is not the most suitable candidate.


Emo-Bu: Remember that time...

Girl: Hey, why are you so quiet today?
Sam: ...
Girl: You haven't said anything since dinner.
Ah Long: No la...I was thinking about something only...
Girl: What were you thinking about?
Ah Long: Girl ah...I know you like me, so you want to go steady mai?
Girl: What?!?!

Girl slaps Sam and stomped off.

Ah Long: Wao lao...that girl really got like Sam ma...She like him, he like her...Stead la!

Emo-Bu: Even if she liked him, you can't talk to a girl like that one...

Sam: Ah Long, I know you just want to help but I think romance is just not your forte.

Ah Long: Ok la... Next time you want to jio jio za bor, ask Emo-Bu lor...He very sensitive one~

Emo-Bu: Oi oi~!

Ah Long: Ok ok! Enough crapping...Sam, ji bai simi dai ji?

To be continued...


Question about Splitza

Q: Are this stories about your life?
A: This is for the reader to interpret.

Q: Have many chapters do you intend to write?
A: I don't have a number in mind, probably on going.

New Year/Splitza #2

It's a new year again. I should say 2009 was a lucky year. I didn't do so bad for my exams, especially for this semester despite the lack of revision. As for work, I think all is well. Colleagues are nice and caring, work is not too stressful. Just right for a part-time student like me. Finally, got back to DI. I managed to helped out in Anyhow Art '09 and I must say it was tiring. But, I enjoyed myself. Fitness was not as it was yesterday. although I wish to make it yesterday once more, but I just can't seem to see it through.

I hope all is well in 2010, maybe a pleasant surprise would be nice.

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Ah Long: Oi Sam, why you emo huh? It's X'mas leh! Time to PARTY!

Sam: Aiya...I also don't like party one.

Emo-Bu: Yeah lor, party so noisy right. Don't go good...

Ah Long: Oi Emo-Bu! You better tiam tiam hor I tell you. If not next time I make sure you wake up at Changi village ar!

Sam: The two of you keep quiet la! I want to be alone...

Ah Long: Hello friend...simi be alone? We are all in your head leh...How alone you want to be? Only sometimes heng heng can come out play only.

Emo-Bu: Ah Long he means he don't want us to disturb him. Not literally be alone la...

Ah Long: Ha-nah! You kiang la... Give you 2 clap! Happy?

Sam: Oh come on...!

Ah Long: Aye brother...simi dai ji...share la...Maybe we can help you ma...

Emo-Bu: Ha! Ah Long help? You don't get Sam into trouble already very good liao. Remember that time.....

To be continued on next entry...