Post# 400 - 8 years of blog / Splitza# 7

Wow, this blog is already 8 years old! Although, the number of posts doesn't seem to justify the its age... >.< Many things has changed over the years, from the skin to the name of the blog to the big move from open diary. More importantly, the content changed as I changed and improved over the years. The blog has grown a lot, I too have grown. Hoping that I will continue to blog my memories here and may they be good ones.

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Previously, Shiori invited Sam to her her piano recital... (If you need a recap on the full story, use the tags to find the related entries. Sorry for such a long break in the chapters)
Ah Long: Oi! You still don't want to go prepare ar? What time oredi!
Emo-bu:就是说嘛。。。
Sam: I still haven't decided whether to go a not...
Ah Long:Hello friend! Not for you to decide la... People ask you go you still act "dua pia"(Big shot). Still need to think what think!
Emo-bu:你不去的话她一定会佷失望的。。。
Sam: But...
Ah Long: Ah! Ler gou ga wa but! (Ah! You still say but!)
Sam:Ok ok...
Emo-bu:不要忘记买花！


*At the reception after the recital
Shiori: Sam! Over here!
*Sam walks over and hands over the the sunflower he bought
Sam: H...Hi Shiori... You were mesmerizing as usual.
Shiori: Honto ni? Arigatou!
*Sam lets out a shy smile
Shiori: Sam honto ni kawaii ne!
*Sam blushes
Sam: Stop teasing me...
Shiori: Haha. Sam blushes so easily. Okok, I shall stop. Anyway, can you wait here for me while I go talk to some people?
Sam: Sure.

*After 15minutes
Shiori: Thanks for waiting! We can go now.
Sam: Erm...where are we going?
Shiori: Sorry, I need to get home, otherwise we can go for supper or something. Gomen ne!
Sam: Na...it's ok. It's late anyway. Let me send you home.
Shiori: Sweet as usual. ;)

*While Shiori and Sam walked towards Shiori's house, their hands brushed.

*Shiori blushed and looked away
Sam: I'm sorry.
Shiori: iee, it's ok.
*Awkward silence all the way to Shiori's drop step
*Shiori looks at the ground
Shiori: I am home. Thank you for sending me back.
Sam: It's no problem.
*Awkward silence
Sam: Ok, I should be going.
Shiori: Be safe.

*Sam turns around and leave
*Stops and calls out to Shiori
Sam: Shiori...
Shiori: Hmm?
Sam: You know about the other day where Jax got rough with me? The reason was because I refused to help him ask you to be her girlfriend.
Shiori: Jax is such a jerk.
Sam: And the reason I help him was because...
Shiori: Because?
Sam: Because...because...wa...watashi...dai...daisuki...Shiori desu!
*Shiori blushes and turned around and walked towards the door
Sam: Will you let me hold your hand?
*Shiori opens the door and enters the house.
*Shiori closes the door behind her
Sam: ...
*Sam turns around with his head hanging low and leaves.
*Sound of the door opening
Shiori: You would have to be boyfriend.
Sam: Huh?! What do you mean? Does that mean you agree to be my girlfriend?
*Shiori smiles
Shiori: Sam Baka! Bye Sam.

Author notes: I attempted to add in some other language elements to make the characters more alive. If I deem the lines might not be understood by many, I would add the translated meaning in brackets. Please do leave comments so that I can improve the writing.

Love is selfish / Splitza's Idea

Now, I better understand why people cannot just be contented with the fact that they are together with the person they love, be it just physically or emotionally. I was told that because of how this society is, sometimes just being together with the person you love is good enough. It doesn't matter whether the person truly loves you, since the only thing that matters is that you are happy being with the person.

However, I would say such a relationship won't last and it would take a very good control of emotions to not get overwhelmed with the fact that she/he doesn't love you. Humans are selfish, love is selfish. Humans feel dissatisfied knowing that their companion doesn't reciprocate their love.

As much as I wish to convince myself that I am ready, my Id tells me otherwise. Sometimes, I wonder if it's just random projections or really my true sub-conscious.

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How long has it been the last chapter? One year? Anyway, through all these thoughts, I think i got the idea of how to continue the story. So, probably will start working on it soon.

Although, I really feel very sad about the fact I can't put it into action like I wanted to. I guess sometimes what is meant to be is meant to be. Splitza was probably destined to be for private audience.