Happy Birthday to me!

One more year has gone by and now I am 24. I think this is becoming a tradition for me to blog my thoughts on my birthday(although sometimes I don't do it on the day itself). Year 23 was rather smooth and was able to finally get my promotion just before my birthday. To some it may be a small promotion, but a promotion is a promotion and I am glad my efforts are being recognized. Work has really been fun and enjoyable and like some of guys say, "This is how some gets sucks in." I do admit that there is a possibility of that happening, but I shall make it a point to venture out.

Yesterday, one of colleagues from another department asked her boss(whom I am on rather good terms with), "Is Sam leaving? He seems rather unhappy recently." Do I? I don't think I have said anything to that colleague that might have suggested that. But, it did get me wondering was it written on my face? I do admit that these two weeks haven't been very good in fact was rather lousy and I am still recovering from it. But, I didn't think it was to the extent that it was observable. The only reason I can think of is that patience wears out faster these two weeks.

Somehow, it seems that every year I will experience a downhill just before my birthday. But, like one of my trainers said, "Lower your expectations and you will feel better." True enough, I seem to lower my expectation for some stuff, though it wasn't enough for me to avoid being quick tempered.

At age 24, I have not quite achieve some of the things that I hope to achieve, but I guess there is still time. Ok, the entry is getting rather heavy, I shall try to end with something lighter.

Now the time is 6.12am and I am sitting outside of the gate to the plane due for KL. My wish for this year is to be able to meet her again and maybe be able to forge something meaningful out of our fate.

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In this world with population of 6.9 billion, the probability of meeting someone is very low, let alone to having a meaningful relationship.

Take time to slow down your pace and think about if there is anyone in your life that you are neglecting.

Don't let chance pass you by because you hesitated or procrastinated.

You may only have that one chance.

Or if you are given multiple chances, the more you should take action.

Emo: Good or Bad?

I have just attended my first creativity lecture yesterday and I realized that sometimes people tend to regress to increase their creativity temporarily. So, I am starting to see the link between why I find the Emo me more creative. It's probably because when I Emo, I regress and let lose my Id. So, in that sense, maybe being Emo is not that bad?

But, I think it's probably possible to control the regression, though the results might not be as good as genuinely letting lose of your Id.

I feel that life now is not eventful and can probably be deemed as stagnant. Of course, not being a fan of changes, naturally I avoid being happening by nature. But, I decided to just throw myself at adventure itself by going to KL alone next week. I can come up with tons of reasons for the decision, but I think the bottom line is I needed sometime alone, to think.

What about? I don't know. Maybe during or after my trip, I would have an answer. I guess this may be what some call finding oneself? Maybe I felt that there was a need to re-look at myself and get things straight.

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It appears when you are not searching, but disappears when you look.

It hurts when it is around, but you miss it when its gone.

It's a game of contradiction, but never know who's playing.

All you want to know is how to get started, but the rule book was never included.