It has been a really long time since I came back here. Many times has happened since then. There are happy things and, of course, sad things - From careers to relationships. Sometimes I no longer know whether the things that I do is right or wrong. I no longer know how to trust my own instincts At times, I feel very stress out my how I look at things as a result I linger at the doorsteps of depression. I know very well that this is not depression but it still bothers me. I know there are people out there who are worse off than I am. But, can't I just whine and cry for once? Is that so wrong? I am not trying to compare and win any competition. This is not to gain pity from others.
Sometimes I just want to be selfish and ignore everyone, but I just can't do it. I am worried about the road ahead. Maybe it is because I am just trying to run away all the problems I have by drowning myself in problems of others. I know for a fact that this is indeed true but it doesn't change the fact that I continue to do it.
I just want to release my emotions. I just want to cry. But, I can't do it. I really can't. Why?!
My voice is not reaching anyone...