why?why?why?

juz now i was watchin the drama series by Shin...veri close to my heart...if u no wat i mean...the things dey go thru as if hav a direct impact on mi...haiz...the memories...Shin...her...haiz...if onli...
aiya...if onli again...haiz...i duno y muz things b lik tt...i hav so affected now...by a few things...lets take things 1 at a time...
first...my bro...haiz...i no i can b veri dicator at times...but i mean we hav to giv n take wat...sumtimes i oso giv in w/o speakin a word wat...den y muz attitude leh...juz had a dispute wit him...haiz...y r things lik tt...dis year he O lvl liao leh...sianz sia...i dun tink he realise how serious things r gettin...m i suppose to shut him away from the com until the O lvl finish...i realli duno wat to do...
den...its bcoz of one of my meis...although i hav a lot of meis but not a lot of dem truly bothers wats wrong wit mi...onli a few...den dis one leh...i seriously duno how she tinks...but wat i no is she is havin probs wit her life...i wan to help but i cant...i feel so helpless...the fire is burnin on her side...den i standin here onli can watch...haiz...sad...
den...my sch work...its gettin from bad to worse...i duno y i juz cant concentrate...i m oredi veri tired liao lor...i realli hav no strenght to move...sumtimes i realli hope tt deres sumone to push mi...realli...haiz...
den is dance...veri worried for dem...but i duno wat to do...other den the usual scoldin wat else can i do...haiz...den now sum of dem hate mi...i feel lik cryin lor...haiz...den again...lookin at the sec 4 ppl...i feel so happy...dis ppl hav realli grown up...so happi...i was 4 great years...
den of course not forgetin her la...but dere is oso nth muc to write la...coz a lot of things cant let u ppl no...wan to no ask mi personally lor...mayb i can consider...but anyway...realli miss dose times...
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24hrRu!
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ok anonymous...the big part of the reason y i m lik tt today is bcoz of u...u wan to no y? i guess u wld...so i m goin to tell u...
juz now i was happily watchin my shin vcd...den wen hui sms mi sayin tt u replied to my last entry...so i felt the need to c things myself...but after readin liao...i realise tt deep down in mi i realli wan to no hu u r...despite wat i said in the last entry...i duno i will lik tt seriously...but juz filled wit emotions lor...i duno how to put things...but i juz feel terrible not knowin lor...so can u pls tell mi hu r u...coz i realli wan to no...
i dun understand y u dun wan to let mi lor...wats ur reason...its not as if i will eat u or sth...i m sure the fact tt u cum n read my od surely u care...since u care den y cant u tell mi hu r u...if dere is sum reason tt u cant let other ppl no tt u hav been here...den u can always tell mi thru other methods one lor...its realli veri torturous to mi not noin...so can u pls do mi dis favor...juz tell mi hu r u...
msg of e day: let mi no if u realli care...coz i oso wan to do the same...4 u...

guilt

sianz sia...recently feel quite guilty sia...coz i m always bz wit my jj friends n stuff...i seldom hav time for nhds n my nh friends...sori hor guys...i will try to balance up my time...haha...lik today i went back rite...so feel better le...haha...:P
acutally today lik nth muc to write abt...haha...i tink coz yesterday write a long...den dry liao...haha...:P...plus i veri tired today...i tink i will stop here...
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24hr!:ever hear b4 a breakin song...i sing to u all...crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crackcrack crackc rack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack crack...CRACK!!!...how was tt veri breaking rite...haha...tts the purpose...to break...
m?#291;  ŧħέ d?#947;:breaking is painful...

og9

dis entry is dedicated for og9...lik i mentioned in the last entry lor...og9 had realli liven mi up a lot lor...i hav bcum more cheerful nowadays...sheldom sad lor...nan hua ppl shld no how i m lik in sec sch one lor... veri sad case one...but og9 bring mi back to life i shld say...10z ppl from og9...i my realli grateful lor...i m veri glad n honored to b part of og9...u ppl had touched my life n left deep prints in my life...u ppl rawk...i onli say dis to my dancers back in nhds n 4/7 la...but u ppl r so special tt i hav to say dis...u ppl r WONDERFUL PPL...10z...so touched...
ok now for sum special dedications liao...actually i tink i goin to mention almost everyone...but for dose not mention dun b sad...coz the reasoni nv mention is not tt u r not important it is juz tt the diary av word limit one...so hav to 10 dose more important ones first...sori hor...n dose hu feel tt urs is too short...sori hor...coz veri hard to put my feelins all in words...
::boon hwee::i guess u r not goin to c dis la...but hey u had been a great "OGL"...haha...u realli motivated the og a lot lor...i tink w/o u hor the og will not b as united ba...haha...sori tt time i pissed u off while u n the others trying to do the "certificates" for the "OG members"...i no i was not being considerate tt day...sori again...anyway...realiese tt u lik mix wit us less le...we muznt drift apart lor...for we r OG9...
::wen de::haha...u sacrificed to act as rose for the jj nite...haha...it was happi acting wit u...haha...n oso help boon hwee to motivate the og lor...as another "OGL"...haha...10z a lot for all u had done for the og...
::yi ping::ya la ya la..."OGL"...ok ok...n chio bu...haha...happi?...no la...u helped a lot lor...i tink w/o u the og oso cannot make it one lor...n ok la i muz admit la u not tt bad la...but u muz understand tt to get a guy to say the girl is chio in front of the person herself is veri pai seh one leh...summore u no i bcoz of her den i bias one wat...plus u realli go all out to entertain us lor...appreciate it...10z...
::winnie::sori for draggin u to meet tt 2 friends...u look quite reluctant doh...duno la...mayb i imagining tinks...haha...muz admit tt u realli veri gd listner lor...haha...*clap clap*...find sum day i will do the listening instead??...haha...10z for everything...
::zoe::haha...the spirit of og9...the most enthu one...haha...ME!ME!ME!...its a pleasure to finally meet esther's cousin...she told mi quite a lot abt u...haha...still happi always...n not forgeting ME!ME!ME!...haha...10z to ur enthu...it helped a lot to boost my spirits from the the old sam...10z again...
::gabriel::sori for alwasy calling u a gay...but u r not one...other den the singing expression la...:P...haha...u r in fact a realli nice guy...haha...its nice meeting u...wld b lookin forward to ur singing in the future(not the face :P)...haha...10z for being suc a nice friend...
::shen hui::haha...nv tot tt it will b so qiao rite...mi too...our mothers is sec sch friends...tt is lik so rare lor...haha...i guess dis wat dey meet by fate ba...we r juz fated to meet each other from the start to continue our mothers friendship...haha...mayb we will oso pass it down to the next generation...hu noes...haha...10z for everything...
::fei ling::realli veri cute gal...haha...i guess everyone wld agree lor...haha...always go around takin pics...anyways...10z for dose words n encouragement...n the fixed badge...realli a veri nice person...10z again...
::hui ching::haha...ur sixth sense lik not accurate one leh...haha...remember u say tt u r oso into psychology...haha...exchange knowledge sum time...
::karen::haha...veri sociable person...haha...remember abt the joke abt age n class one...win liao lor...gao siao...haha...aiya...used to being laughed at...as long as my friends r happi...i dun mind...its a pleasure being ur friend...hope tt our friendship is everlasting...n 10z for everything...
::jingqin::the pure gal...haha...i still remember tt u r the one hu pted out tt i "had" silver eye...haha...sori la...i was jokin abt it wat...didnt expect tt i will write it in fei ling's autograph bk...haha...:P...i got weird memory one la...tts y lik tt...10z for pting it out b4 i bcum the laughing stock...
::isabella::the veri on gal in og9...haha...veri steady one leh...got character...haha...treasure our friendship always...10z for everything...
::angie::haha...always the one crapping wit mi n karen early in the nite...coz dere was no other ppl online...10z for sharing the crappi times..haha...
::jun jie::we hav the same birthday worz...dun forget to giv mi present worz...haha...realli nice to hav u as my friend...haha...veri nice n helpful person...but a bit too bashful liao...haha...10z for being part of my memory...
::zeng yang::haha...spent a lot of crappy times wit u...haha...remember we used to always happen to sit beside each other...haha...next time u go ur church mayb cum n visit my mother shop sum time...10z for everything...
::kwang wee::the pro smser...haha...always got recieve nice sms from u one...10z for all of dem...keep dem cuming...haha...10z again...
::rufus::haha...the pro guy...haha...sign up so mani cca...gao siao...later cannot cope den u no ar...haha...jk jk...gd lucks wit dose applications...10z for everything...
::alvin::haha...the first person to really interact wit mi...10z for initating the chat...haha...n 10z for letting mi realiese tt li hao n john were in jj as well...10z friends...
::aaron::cool person...haha...dam gao siao...veri nice person...change our view of ppl from chinese high...10z for everything...
::lionel::u r the pillar of og9 lor...i tink w/o the tok tt u gav us on the first nite...i tink the 2nd day we will still b as dead lor...acutally i was observing the OGLs of all the family to learn how u ppl handle the crowd...n i can pass the skill on to my juniors in nhss...u guys impressed mi a lot...i learned a great deal from u all...especially the 3 of u all...10z for everything...n gd luck for ur As
::shi yan::u lost ur voice bcoz of us...i realli look up to u sia...other den ur height la...realli veri pia sia...10z for everything...n gd luck for ur As
::diana::haha...the muz kiddy one among the 3...haha...reading la bi xiao xin worz...haha...i saw it in ur bag tt day b4 jj nite 2...haha..tsk tsk...nv go sch but cum jj nite...haha...10z for everything...n gd luck for ur As
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24hr!:so tired liao...dun wan to write here liao la...tml ba...still got a lot things haven say...sianz...
m?#291;  ŧħέ d?#947;:og9 r wonderful ppl

jjc

it has been the third week in jjc...hm...jc life is tiring lor i shld say...i always fall asleep in the classes n on bus rides...but so far i m having fun lor...i realli enjoy the times i hav wit ppl from og9...realli veri wonderful ppl lor...other den ppl from dance n 4/7...i tink dey will b next ppl hu will fall on my list of wonderful ppl...if i stay on in jjc...i will surely hang around a lot wit ppl in og9...og9 rawkz...haha...:P
jc life is quite bz la...when no lesson u c ppl sit in the canteen do hw...haha...duno la...still haven decide between jc or poly lor...c first la...
den cca actually wan to join air rifle...but i dun tink i can make it pass the trial leh...so lousy...mayb join bowling ba...wao lao...deir bowling can use guide one...so gd one...lik tt veri ez leh...but i so long nv train guide liao...veri lan liao...i tink at most onli 100 pts...den my spin still not dere yet...not enuff practice...muz try to keep it straight...but at least the strenght correct liao...onli the direction of the ball onli...haha...:P
to ppl from nan hua...hey miss u ppl...got miss mi a not...quite sum time after i last c u ppl...sianz sia...cca extravaganza i cannot go back...sianz...mrs wong say wat cannot go back...sianz lor...suan le...mayb i cuming back on fri ba...haha...c i free a not...hope to c u ppl soon...
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24hr!: i hav finally came up wit the new name...a lot of things to say...haha...:P...anyway...og9 keep mi so bz wit the fun n stuff tt i hav no time to b sad...:)...n i tink i had started to let go a bit liao ba...hope so...not sure abt how i realli feel now...veri confused...even if now i hav a crush on sumone i dun even tink i will no lor...haiz... wat can i say...life is lik tt one la...although i say i started to let go abit liao...but still i hav to admit tt i m still quite atteched to it lor...coz sth happened last week...i dun wan to mention too muc abt it la...it was realli veri sad lor tt day...but i guess i m backto normal now la...as usual...
second thing i wan to say is abt the first 24hr! case in jjc...haha...:P the ppl from og9 realiesed abt dis liao...haha...10z to sumone called winnie...haha...:P...10z...but i was not of muc help though...u cant blame mi rite...i cant work w/o any info on the person n y the person is feeling lik tt...but i did giv sum adivse as to how dey handled the case lor...hope tt it helps...haha...
third thing...dis one is sth tt i m not happi abt...to hu ever is involved...b4 i start to say anithing...i wan to make things clear...i may b blunt here or wat...it may coz u to dislik or even detest mi or watever it is...i dun care...dis is my diary...i will say watever i wan to say here...if u r unhappi den dun read any further...i dun wan to coz ani unhappiness...u might ask den y do i put it on OPEN diary den...coz i wan to let ppl hu wans to concern abt my life read all dis...dose tt care...ok now let mi proceed...i shall not name anyone...ok in dis case rite...dere r 2 groups of ppl...happens tt dere r sum unhappiness amonst dem...mayb it is juz a misunderstanding...i duno...but the prob is both groups r my friends lor...den i m the one sandwiched in the middle...i realli dun lik the position i m in now lor...i had been dere done tt...n i dun lik it...n the worse thing is...i m partially blamed for the crossfire...i duno la...cant the 2 groups of ppl juz forgot abt watever tt it was tt coz dis...i dun lik to my friends lik tt one lor...i dun mind being scolded by either groups for being a traitor or watever...i dun mind lor...but i realli dun wish dis wld continue lor...u all can all dun befriend mi for all i care...but juz shake hands n b friends...pls...:'(
STOP IT!ARH!!!
m?#291;  ŧħέ d?#947;:it makes a man sad to c his friends fight...

bye 2003/hi 2004

guess a lot of things happened during dis short year...in a flash i finished my o lvls n is leaving sec sch for jc/poly liao...hm...been thru a lot...i shld say...haha...a lot of memories in dis year...haha...both gd n bad...still remember the times tt i spent studyin for the o's...haha...veri tough...but i manage to survive...haha...
den after been 1 year of dance chairman...experience how izzit lik to bear veri big responsibility...still remember how stressed up i was during syf...phew it is over...haha...being the dance chairman really veri stress...haha...but i enjoy my time here at nhds...haha...i wun mind being scolded all over again by mrs wong to hav the chance to go thru everything one more time...take care ppl...dun disappoint mi worz...after all u ppl r all wonderful ppl...
hm...4/7...realli gonna miss everyone...although lik 7/28 ppl from the class goin to jjc...but still...gonna miss the rest of u ppl...its so nice noin u ppl...i guess i wun mind taking the o lvls again to b wit u guys...hey take care...may best b wit u...
hm...haha...realiese tt i miss sumone out rite...hm...guess i will b leaving n u will b goin on wit ur studies...haha...take care wor...n abt ur physics teacher...erm...juz study hard n all will b fine...actually i really cherish our friendship...haha...remember u always...take care...haha...
acutally if i hav the chance i wan to re-live 2003...i tink its the best year of my life...but too bad its juz a fantasy...the reality doesnt allow tt...so i will b moving on to 2004...
wish tt everyone hav a exciting year ahead...haha...to dose still in nan hua...goin to miss u all but i hav to leave tt bloody plcae first...ta ta...haha...:P...n to all dose graduating hey...c u guys around...4/7 rawks...n to everyone tt i no out dere...if u guys wan mi to help u on sth...u no where to find mi...haha...take care...n a happy 2004!!!
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Kh!! !:my new years resolution...haha...first i would lik to totally let go of her dis year...haha...tryin to do it recently but cldnt really totally let go...still attached here n dere...jia you...haha...second is to quickly cum up wit a new name for the ex-24hrSaE...haha...cant do witout a name rite...third is to go after my dream job...if not i could otherwise fufil my dads dream of goin further wit his business...haha...tink tts all ba...du wan to b too greedy...
m?#291;  ŧħέ d?#947;:the past bhind n the future is in front, so lets move forward together!!