if u care...

will i didnt intend to blog today...until i saw dis show wich i came across while switchin channels...i was so lucky tt i hav got to watch it...mani factors tt prevented mi from doin other stuff at tt time...so i guess i was fated to watch the show...so much said...y did i say until lik dis is a blockbuster or sum award winnin show...its non...n i tink its juz sum cheap film channel u picked up....

the eng name of dis chi show is if u care...its abt eason being a nasty guy...doin all the bad things...but he met wit an accident...den he got a gift of being able to understand others feelins wit the touch of the hand...he was saved by gillian from twins...hu happens to b his childhood friend...

basically gillian lik eason from young...n durin the show she posed as a veri inspirin character...even to characters in the show as well...i hav to praise the script writer for givin gillian her brillant lines...one of wich will b the msg of the day...anyway eason used to b veri nice kid hu is the "hero" everytime...tts y gillian likes him...but now being successful n rich...he is caught up wit a materialistic life...n thus bcome nasty...

its bcoz of dis accident he started to help ppl...but continued to do nasty things...as he didnt learn from the gift...until he was finally enlightened by the things tt gillian hav been sayin to him...den he decided to put down the project tt he stole from 2 companies wich worth a lot of money n went to help a collegue tt he hated a lot...den after helpin her...he realise tt gillian was the impt one...not money...so he went to chase after gillian hu is now headin for the airport...along the way...he didnt forget to stop to help the ppl in need along the way...in the end he fell down...

u ppl muz hav tot he surely got to the airport anyway...no...he fell n heard tt a nearby buildin caught fire...so he decided to go n help instead...if dis wasnt a movie...den gillian wld hav gone...but she manage to c him on the news...so she went to look for him...n dere u got ur happi endin...

ok after readin abt the movie...wat is so great abt the movie...patients...read on to find out...
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well basically i had a few learnin pts tt i learned from dis movie...

first...the part abt eason turnin into a bad guy from a "hero" in gillians heart...well basically he was too caught up by the wants of humans...u cant deny tt u r not tied down by dis wants...if not u wun b sittin here readin my crap...u wld b sumwhere else doin sth more meaninful...n mayb u might hav donated all ur mp3 computer branded shoes wallet blah blah blah...to benefit dose in the 3rd world country...but dun wori i m not blamin u for being lik tt...coz i m too...

but the pt is we r all too tied down by our wants tt we no longer c wat was our dream...we r all too stressed out by our life tt we move lik zombies...complainin abt how f up it can b...but slow down ur pace n tink for a while...we can take things wit a light hearted mind n take the positive path down our life...b it A lvl or relationship strains...juz take a step back...n take a look at ur target again...dun let wat u wan now blur ur aim...draw ur arrow n head for the bulleyes...

recently...i hav been so paranoid abt everything...tt i hav lost my old self...i bcome everything else but mi...but i was awaken when i saw eason in contrast wit his young self...i saw my shadows...now i realise watever i do i muz nv lose a grip of myself...now i muz redefine my goals of life...i m now alive not coz i hav debt to pay...but coz i hav things to contribute...

sum readin may tink tt yeah yeah...tok cok onli la...say until lik so ez...ya i no its not ez...i oso tink its a diff task too...tt brings us to the next pt...前方是绝路，希望在转角。life mayb diff but dere is always a way out of everything...all the tok abt faith fate destiny n the list goes on isnt for chitchat onli...its sth tt we can use to get a better more confident footin in life...as long as u blive...blivin is veri impt...u blive dere is a way dere will b a way...if u dun...den u can forget abt being successful...

for dose still feel tt u r not prepared for the up comin challenege...b it O or A lvl...juz giv urself a chance n giv it a shot...make sure tt u hav no regrets...even at the end...u dun reap wat u sow...at least u hav no regrets...n still can move on strongly...remember the things tt value most in ur life...let it b ur motivation in life...in the case of the movie...gillian treated eason as her motivation...as she saw him as a hero...wich served her well in her occupation of being a firewoman...

so wat has happened in the past doesnt realli matter anymore...it is wat u do abt it now tt matters the most...coz it will determine wat u get in the future...i no dis is wat teachers n parents hav been tryin to drill into us all along...but realli...until u r enlightened by URSELF...u will nv c wats the meanin bhind it...so wat i urge all of my readers to do is to juz do a bit of reflection on wat u hav done n wat u hav doin...last but not least wat u shld do now...take things one at a time...dun rush it...

life MAY not b long...but it ISNT short either...so y live a thousand years old crap when u can live half a century of miralces...no matter hu u r...wat u r doin...b it in ur cca studies relationship...remember...dun lose a grip of urself n ur life...take a step back n to take a better aim...n charge towards ur goal...leavin regrets grief anger everything bhind...dun let dem catch up...for ur miraculousfate awaits u at the finishin line...

PS to all...gd luck wit watever u r doin...n hope dis entry hav been proved to b a motivatin one...pls do leave ur encouragements n comments in the tag board... take care n jia you =)

信爱望（忘）弃：坚持信念，抱握真爱，相信希望，决不放弃

msg of the day:前方是绝路，希望在转角。

sinkin

well...as the title has suggested...i m sinkin...in wat sense? well in mani areas if u ask mi...lets take things one at a time...

well back at home...i m basically less n less approachable if u no wat i mean...duno wat has gotten into mi....but juz dun feel lik being disturb...u no wats the worse part...tts i feel dis way when i m not doin anything at all...it realli sux...i mean bhaving lik tt...i mean lik i no its wrong n not nice...yet sub consiously...i m doin it...wats bcomin of mi man...haiz...

den sch work...well i practically wasted the whole long weekend...now i hav onli tml left to redeem myself...even if i m super hard workin tml...i dun tink its enuff...coz wat can i do in one compared to wat i cld hav done in 4 days...haiz...i realli hav to wake myself up man...in abt 1 mths time its prelims...n i no better den anyone else tt if i screw it up again...i will hav a hard time standin back up again...i no myself well enuff...sumtimes i tend to wan to perform...to prove to sth...but to myself not to others...well mayb my standard i set for myself is too high sumtimes...duno...

my social skills...well basically it refers to things lik conversational skills...influence...leadership...blah blah blah...well i guess i my rather concerned wit dis...as compared to other ppl la...i mean lik dis is practically the onli thing i m gd at...no boastin...but even if its boastin i onli hav dis one trump to boast abt...summore dis kind of things is my area of interest as well...ppl ask mi wat i wan to do next time...isnt it veri obvious if no wat i hav been doin...isnt early prac gd for ur future...well tts provided if i can push forward to the next stage of life wit my regrets...

my emotions...well...for dose hu hav been hangin out wit mi...u shld no how its been...more or less ba...but seriously...i tink its quite bad...its fluctuatin too muc...its oredi interferin wit my tinkin process...tots can juz intercept my work all of a sudden juz bcoz i hear or see sth tt i can relate to...wich in dis case...i keep tinkin abt her...i no i did say i will try to let things settle...leave things bhind at least until A lvl is over...but wat can i do if i cant keep her out of my head for juz dis few mths...seriously i feel as though i my sum sort of drug addict...but in a diff sense...its as if i hav to hav a "dose of her"(tink abt her) everyday in order to go on wit my daily life...if onli dere was any instant method to coz memory loss...

well...tts abt all tt i can tink of...so now do u understand wat i mean by sinkin liao rite...i always say i will b fine...i will get better...n i no i can...but doesnt seem to hav any progress...mayb my methods hav been vaccinated...my body no longer fall to such futile attacks...mayb i dun even no wat is wrong from the start...juz tryin to smoke myself into blivin in myself...den if tts the case is blivin wrong...izzit wrong to b optimistic...can sumone tell mi...haiz...not onli my i sinkin...i tink i m stuck...
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influence is such a amazin thing dun u all tink...i mean lik hav u even wondered y is sumone lik mr low able to coz us to giv him respect the lvl we giv...or hav u wondered y sth tt is said by mr low has diff weightin compared to ur our sch teachers...

since influence is so fascinatin...i wonder if it is sth we r born wit...or can we develop it...wat do u all tink...in my opinion...i tink its lik success...u need a combi of hard work n int...in the case of influence u need both gift n effort...coz i tink influence can b developed...via methods lik establishin a gd image...n maintain a certain lvl of popularity...hav certain talents wich ppl admire...other den tt i guess its up to ur gift on birth to add bonus pts to ur influence...eg wld b things lik charisma looks n "aura"...

the reason y i suddenly tok abt dis is coz lik i mentioned in the previous segment...i feel tt my ability to influence ppl has fallen...wit special reference to a big grp...i guess the reason is coz i haven been upkeepin my influence...n not muc effort was put in...futhermore...i discover tt influence cld b reduce by makin the wrong move...so mayb a combination of makin the wrong move n not upkeepin it has coz it to go down the chart...i oso feel tt i might hav sth to do wit my ability to sort out my tots wit speed...(mayb i will elaborate on wat i mean next time)

msg of the day:time heals all wound,but it oso drags u in if u r in quicksand...

passion

well as the title suggests i will b touchin on passion...actually i last time oredi wrote b4 on dis topic...but i guess its sth tt hav new views everyday one...so no harm writin again...

well...everyone hav diff passion for diff things...the thing can b livin or not livin...so basically it can b another under the sun la...

durin the process of havin passion for sth or sumone...ur passion may wear off or die off due to various reasons...its veri natural one...even if 2 ppl hav passion for the same thing or person...the way of showin ur passion may oso differ...so passion can b in all shapes n sizes...

wat interest mi more is how do u ignite or put out passion of sumone...well its realli undefinable one la...but to mi to ignite passion first time is a veri impt factor...u hav to hav contact wit the thing or person regularly in order to develop passion for it...to put out passion well its more or less the same to mi la...take the thing away for too long it will juz fade away...

but of course dere r exceptions...ppl all hav diff perspective...so things may vary...but i guess the bottomline is tt watever we r passionate for...go till the max...dun half hearted...from dere u n the reciepent of ur passion will benefit to the max...well...i dun tink dis is a veri well written entry...so i guess i will write another better one next time...
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anyway to giv a example of a person wit a great amount of passion for sth...
i will b writin it in the context of "I"...the person mayb anyone...even u...so after readin dis first u will get to feel how a passionate person feels lik...second u might b able to single out ppl hu dis character may resemble...anyway i will b usin dance as a example...coz its ezier for mi to relate...n pls b reminded tt dis character mayb anyone...although it is written from my context...i dun wan ppl to tink tt i m here to claim anithing...

I luv dance a lot...i practically go to every prac dere is...i wanted to no everything dere is to no abt wats goin in dance...wich might make mi seem veri kpo at times...but i dun care...i feel tt it benefits dance...so y bother wat other ppl tinks...

sumtimes i hav to work alone bcoz ppl dun c my vision...but i no i hav to strive on...in order for my vision to b reality...bcoz i no tt my vision will definitely help dance...in a way or another...i wanted to make an impact to dance...i wanted to b sumone to b remembered...not bcoz i made an impact...but for remindin everyone of deir belongin here...

dance hav gone thru its ups n downs...i was dere too...so i didnt let her walk alone...neither did i wan my juniors to walk alone...i wanted to b dere when in need...i may not b thank or appreciated...but seein things go smoothly is oredi a silent 10q...

i m not god...i cant do n no everything...but i no tt wat i hav done...is my purest effort...my heart n soul into it...n true enuff...i begin to c the seedling of wat i sowed...my vision had finally been realised...a new blood had matured...

my passion will not stop its blaze...its now lyin low b4 i come ragin back wit my new partner...to start another round of sowin of our passion...for the vision for my passion is to spread it...

msg of the day:
if only we were fated to meet earlier,i might not have being destined to leave