injustice

juz saw the gap btwn todays entry n the previous one...its 1 wk liao...omg...haha...but seriously...for the past wk i was so tired...due to...some reason...but tts not impt...anyways i m gettin more n more tired of life in office...

i no its normal...but noin mi...i juz cant stand injustice w/o puttin up a fight...i m sure ppl wld agree wit wat i m goin to say...normally...when u r hard at work...noone notices or even cares...but when u r slackin...everything abt u seems wrong...lik i said in the previous entry of eyes...diff ppl get diff msg lookin at diff things...i realli dun lik to b accused...but wat can do...the odds r against mi...i onli can submit...lik i did...haiz...

complain complain...oso no use...muz b optimistic rite...dun look at the situation so bad...things may not b as bad as i tink...rite? but i realised sth...other den the company u r wit...ur health oso affects whether u r pessi or opti...recently so tired...tend to b more pessi...i tink its sth tt got to do wit the will power of our mind ba...

i oso duno y i hav been so tired...but i tink it mayb due to more den one thing...well i hav to admit...i m drained...i need to recharge...lookin...searchin...seekin...waitin...
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ok dis is the follow up...the thing is i m not tokin abt tt thing tt u tokin abt...tt thing is over so long liao...i wish to tink abt it anymore...now its lik another thing...wich i dun find it a prob...mayb onli sth to worri abt...juz tt i haven update u abt it onli...but dun wori la...mayb sum other time lor...anyway heres a para for u...

dun push mi to the wall...u r not a tiger...onli a cat...dun try to b wat u r not...until u r one...if u still insist of being treated as a tiger...n wants to b feared...den i hav nth else to say...i will juz make ur wish come true...but will u stop prowlin bhind mi...i m not ur prey...n for ur info u r the one invadin my territory...so wld u pls kindly go hunt sumwhere else...b4 i turn u into dinner...so if u dun mind i shall return to my cubs...BYE KITTEN...BYE PUSSY...

erm...c if u figure it out la...anyway the next para has nth to do wit dis part...

r u hiddin sth from mi?if yes y...wat is dere to hide...cant we b brave n upfront wit each other...altho i do hope tt its nth...coz i dun wan anyone to b hurt in dis whirlwind...but still if u r hiddin...i wld prefer tt u stand in the lite...i dun wan to c others suffer bcoz of mi...tts not y i m here...i m here for a purpose...but definitely not to hurt...i may not b an angel to u...but i m not a devil...if u trust mi...tell mi...dere will definitely b a solution...dis i promise...

msg of the day:a change in meanin,a twist of fate...

its gettin to mi

omg...yesterday i threw my tantrum at an innocent party...dam...i feel so bad now...zzz...i tink the stress lvl is gettin to mi...dis shows tt dis is as muc as i can tahan...after so long le...now throw my tantrum i tink the stress bad shld b resetted liao ba...but still its hard to say la...but i hope tt its as i tink so la...

but lucky i didnt get too verbal and physical...if it was the wrong person to come n agitate mi...i dun dare to imagine wat i will do...so far the worse i got is to get realli verbal...i might not seem lik dose kind to say dis la...but den knowin myself i hav the tendency to tink of violence as a method...so if u c mi lik seem veri irrational...den better bcareful...coz my fist dun tink...usually i might seem veri hum ji...scare DB n all...but b warned...

i tink i need to take a break again...a break from civilisation...if not the next due eruption might come veri soon...stress ar...
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the pond keep rippling...the rain isnt stoppin...i onli can keep runnin...i duno wat to do...i stop infront of the pond...the rain stopped...i c reflection...of...3...

msg of the day:change is not permanent

eyes

today witnessed the gettin of the o lvl results b in nan hua...well as usual...dere r ones hu did well...n ones tt didnt do so well...but all in all...i wld lik to remain nan huarians tt u guys did well(no matter wat score u got) as compared to others in sg...its sth u n i no...its onli bcoz we expect more from ourselves...tts y we get disappointed even when we hav <20...coz we allows feel tt we cld do better...n blame ourselves n feel depressed...feelin tt we shld hav performed better...

well i m not sayin tt its wrong to feel tt way...i myself wld if i were u guys...but we hav to always keep in mind tt the score we get now onli decides wich pre-u course we take...it doesnt decide our lives...so dun get loosen up by it...tink of wat shld b next...instead of wat it cld hav been...ezier said den done...i no...but even its hard...we hav to try hard to constantly remind ourselves dis...

i no its veri depressin for ppl to read dis...but i still will hav remind everyone...now tt O lvl r released...A lvl will b too soon...so b prepared...mentally...as far as i wan everyone to make it to wherever dey may wish to b...i hope my dear A lvl friends keep wat i juz mentioned above in mind...coz as all shld no tt...A lvl is harder n more impt den O lvl...so "touch wood" if any of u dun do well...pls dun lose urself...u still need a clear mind to decide wat u r goin to do next...in fact it is gd to plan all the scenario out b4 u get the results...so tt at least wun b caught unprepared...i myself duno wat to expect for my results either...tts y i tink dere is a need to remind myself to stay cool too...so gd lucks to everyone =)
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still wanderin y the entry is called eyes? lol...or hav u spotted it oredi...if not...look closer at the para above...anyway tt is juz one of the eg of things tt diff due to the diff eyes of ppl...

some giv mi the disgusted look when dey c tt scene...but on the otherhand some lik wat dey c...the 2 views r so diff...wich one do u wan mi to side...its realli zhou you wei nan...haiz...

well the thing is a same thing in the eyes of diff ppl comes wit diff conclusion...its juz lik y not all guys go for the same gals...n not all gals fall for the same trick...lol...so ya lor...

msg of the day:when i look into eyes,i c dilema...

time

read mt entry yesterday...it was the one abt time...didnt had anything in particular to relate to it la...but juz felt tt the topic was so near to the heart...time...well i tink its time for mi to catch up wit myself...again...but it seems tt i dun realli hav the time for the past few weeks...sumhow i m juz too bz for it...look at the no. of entries u no le...tsk tsk tsk...

time has nv been enuff for mi...but i mean hu has enuff time...but the thing is if we dun do things tt r not meaninful wun we hav more time to do wat we realli wan n need to do? i m sure mani agree...but lets admit it...it can nv b done...we can nv commit ourselves to not waste time...its the fact of life...too bad we hav no other choice but to accept it...

time travel is fantasy...it can nv b done...well at least for the near future...coz u nv no wat the scientist will come up wit in the future...dere r things tt we wished tt we nv did...n of course things tt we wld begged to b given one more shot at...but since its a fantasy...at least we r allowed to dream abt it...

juz watched 3 ge hao ren juz now...i tink its mi la...actually its confirm mi la...coz hor the show is suppose to b abt the heartaches on exconvicts...but sumhow i keep focusin on the romance bit...i haven been watchin much movies lately...but if u guys remember...i use to blog every sun abt the movies i watch on channel U...it has nv been an ez time for mi...it nv was...haiz...its so tirin to hav to wear masks...but realities of life juz disallows mi from not wearin one...u may tink i m hypocritical by wearin one...but i reassure u WLD prefer mi wearin one...

PS: for sum of chingay photos can visit wenlins photo album or kaiwens photo blo(add can b found in nhds blog)
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ppl say tt sth juz cant b expressed in words...but not being able to express is such painful feelin...at least for mi...i feel so tied down...i duno izzit mi a not la...but i tink if i dun express myself in a way or 2 i will feel so liveless...

snow is collectin...all is quiet...labyrinth has juz changed its wallin...the path is narrowin...the pool is whirlin...the waters is draggin...nth is left...onli silence...slowly engulfin...

DUN MOVE A MUSCLE...U NV NO WAT LIES AHEAD...ITS ALL TOO QUIET...TOO TOO QUIET...DUN EVEN BREATHE OR LET UR HEART BEAT...COZ DEY MIGHT FIND U...

THE BUTTON IS JUZ AHEAD...PRESS OR NOT...MAKE OR BREAK...DECIDE B4 DEY CATCH U...

THE DOORS R OPENIN...DEY R COMIN FOR U...CALLIN FOR U...TAUNTIN AT U...DO U WAN TO JOIN DEM OR DO U WAN TO CHOOSE SOLIDARYHOOD...

U C STARS...U C SPARKS...U DECIDED...U REACHED...TIMES UP...

msg of the day:i wun close my doors,will u?