test, retribution or wtf...

it has happened before la...but i didnt expect it to happen at home...

my father got himself drunk at a weddin dinner...n puked on the bed...the rest of us hav to clean up after him...

juz now he was bhavin lik a idoit when we were still at the dinner...luckily it ended oredi...if not i duno wat will happened...

i was expectin naggin on the car...but i duno to call it a blessin or a pain...coz it was exchanged for a drunken wich tok n bhave lik idoit...most imptly...he dirtied all over the place...

if it was lik chalet...i wldnt mind...not sayin tt i mind cleanin up...but the thing is...if the place wasnt cleaned up properly...den the food particles wld decompose n rot...den omg...the other time i did dis was at chalet...dis may sound mean...but if we didnt clean up properly...at least we no tt sumone else will do the rest...

now my father is slpin on the rather cleaned up bed...as for my mother...i shoo her to my bed...tml she still hav to work...so after she helped wipe the bedrm floor...i asked her to slp liao...while i cleaned up the toilet wich was where part 2 took place...now i m still up...goin to watch my father for the nite...so mayb not slpin le...mayb take a nap or sth...or wait for my mother to take the "shift" when she wakes up later in the mornin...
its goin to b a long nite...tml if he cant get up...den i tink i will hav to go work in his place le ba...

haiz...u guys tell mi la...y m goin thru dis kind of shit...y is my mother goin thru dis kind of shit...its dam screwed up la...i tink its sooner or later i m goin to blast at my father lor...ya...its not filial...but rather dis den tt...is dis a test, retribution or wtf is dis...
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got nth muc to write for dis coloumn...or rather cant b bothered...but i guess i juz reply to sum of the taggers ba...

zhenyu-superman or GA...watever i may deem myself or b deemed as...i onli doin wat i tink shld b done...i remember u got say to mi b4...carpe diem...i m juz doin the same...

zhiyan-ya i understand wat u tokin abt... but sumtimes i feel better not sayin...it gets ironic at times...but it gets pass...so i guess it shld b ok ba...dun wori la...if need i will say...

the person hu infra-red mi a smilie-in case u blur...dis is not the entry i was tokin abt...its the previous one...so scroll down to the next one...anyway xing fu ma? haha...

msg of the day:the coin has 2 sides...wich side do u wish to b on...

信~*~忍~*~爱

i duno when did it start...i duno y it started...but i guess sub-consiously...i m fallin into depression again...mayb it was wrong to avoid n ignore it from the start...i always tot it was normal...but it is now far from normal...dey were rite...i shldnt let it bcome part of mi...it shld nv hav been...

since i duno wat i m dealin wit...i duno wat i shld do or cld do to solve the prob in the first place...i m so lost...yes mayb i wld hav a clue or 2 as to wat is goin on...but not exactly...but i chose to avoid it...coz i felt tt the situation is too ironic to b discussed...its lik bitin urself on the tongue den shoutin pain after tt...but yet u wanted to for sum weird reason...i no dis may not b the most appropriate eg...but i guess u guys shld no wat i m drivin at...

i haven been bloggin for a while coz...dere isnt realli anything to blog abt other den dis...wich ,lik i said, i didnt wan to tok abt since it was so ironic...but i tink its high time to do...coz i realli cant take it anymore...coz i hav lost my halo...sum mayb tinkin wtf is ur halo...hey...pls understand...i dun blog explicitly...well i guess its go figure for tt...

recently i hav been tryin to search for a ans on my own...b lookin at veri corner i cld...mainly i chose to watch all sorts of show...hopin i cld get inspired by the hidden meanins of the show...or sumtimes coincidentally the explicit meanin...well...i decided to blog its partly bcoz of a show i watched dis mornin...tokin abt keep a secret is lik puttin a rock in ur heart...the longer u put it dere...the heavier it gets...n sooner or later u will get crushed...

now tt i hav explained the reason y i blogged...n oso explain wats goin on(at least a little)...i guess i can conclude tt i m a FALLEN ANGEL...at first i didnt tink of it tt way at first...but zhenyu joke abt it...but i guess he has a pt dere...zhenyu dun wori...u didnt make things worse...u juz provided mi wit more ways to make my boring life an interestin entry...so now i hav no halo...n my wings r tattered...我是个 FALLEN ANGEL...

so i hav decided to put down GA...at least for the moment...to do sum halo-searchin...i hope i can find it sumday wit the help of my life philosophy wich is based on 信~*~忍~*~爱...i no i need help...coz i no tt its goin to b difficult...but seriously i duno how anyone can help mi wit dis...since we dun even no wats realli goin on...but i guess support its a need...not a wan...i wld appreciate it...but of course i no dere will always b a grp of ppl always dere to show mi support...u no i no...

i tink if i can get thru dis...den do i can i realli take up the job of a GA...mayb its a test...for my endurance...for my passion...for my belief...

i paused awhile to tink abt how i shld continue wit the entry...memories of her juz flash pass my mind...n it juz occured to mi tt things may hav started since i embarked on the journey...away from heaven...if tts so...i guess mayb its coz i m not being strong enuff wit my decision...i hav to admit...i kept turnin back...

well...i hope i did the decision...but since i hav decided...i shld stick wit it...n i shld hav no regrets abt it...since its no turnin back...one day...one day i WILL b back...i will b ur GA once more...trust mi...coz u can shin my wings...
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i no its wrong...but y izzit lik tt...if onli its the other way rd...or izzit the way it shld b...izzit the way it has been destined...is dis fate...dis isnt a game...n i dun wan to b the cheater even if it was...its juz not my turn...at least not yet...

msg of the day:信~*~忍~*~爱-believe, endure and be passionate