信~*~忍~*~爱

i duno when did it start...i duno y it started...but i guess sub-consiously...i m fallin into depression again...mayb it was wrong to avoid n ignore it from the start...i always tot it was normal...but it is now far from normal...dey were rite...i shldnt let it bcome part of mi...it shld nv hav been...

since i duno wat i m dealin wit...i duno wat i shld do or cld do to solve the prob in the first place...i m so lost...yes mayb i wld hav a clue or 2 as to wat is goin on...but not exactly...but i chose to avoid it...coz i felt tt the situation is too ironic to b discussed...its lik bitin urself on the tongue den shoutin pain after tt...but yet u wanted to for sum weird reason...i no dis may not b the most appropriate eg...but i guess u guys shld no wat i m drivin at...

i haven been bloggin for a while coz...dere isnt realli anything to blog abt other den dis...wich ,lik i said, i didnt wan to tok abt since it was so ironic...but i tink its high time to do...coz i realli cant take it anymore...coz i hav lost my halo...sum mayb tinkin wtf is ur halo...hey...pls understand...i dun blog explicitly...well i guess its go figure for tt...

recently i hav been tryin to search for a ans on my own...b lookin at veri corner i cld...mainly i chose to watch all sorts of show...hopin i cld get inspired by the hidden meanins of the show...or sumtimes coincidentally the explicit meanin...well...i decided to blog its partly bcoz of a show i watched dis mornin...tokin abt keep a secret is lik puttin a rock in ur heart...the longer u put it dere...the heavier it gets...n sooner or later u will get crushed...

now tt i hav explained the reason y i blogged...n oso explain wats goin on(at least a little)...i guess i can conclude tt i m a FALLEN ANGEL...at first i didnt tink of it tt way at first...but zhenyu joke abt it...but i guess he has a pt dere...zhenyu dun wori...u didnt make things worse...u juz provided mi wit more ways to make my boring life an interestin entry...so now i hav no halo...n my wings r tattered...我是个 FALLEN ANGEL...

so i hav decided to put down GA...at least for the moment...to do sum halo-searchin...i hope i can find it sumday wit the help of my life philosophy wich is based on 信~*~忍~*~爱...i no i need help...coz i no tt its goin to b difficult...but seriously i duno how anyone can help mi wit dis...since we dun even no wats realli goin on...but i guess support its a need...not a wan...i wld appreciate it...but of course i no dere will always b a grp of ppl always dere to show mi support...u no i no...

i tink if i can get thru dis...den do i can i realli take up the job of a GA...mayb its a test...for my endurance...for my passion...for my belief...

i paused awhile to tink abt how i shld continue wit the entry...memories of her juz flash pass my mind...n it juz occured to mi tt things may hav started since i embarked on the journey...away from heaven...if tts so...i guess mayb its coz i m not being strong enuff wit my decision...i hav to admit...i kept turnin back...

well...i hope i did the decision...but since i hav decided...i shld stick wit it...n i shld hav no regrets abt it...since its no turnin back...one day...one day i WILL b back...i will b ur GA once more...trust mi...coz u can shin my wings...
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24hrGA
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i no its wrong...but y izzit lik tt...if onli its the other way rd...or izzit the way it shld b...izzit the way it has been destined...is dis fate...dis isnt a game...n i dun wan to b the cheater even if it was...its juz not my turn...at least not yet...

msg of the day:信~*~忍~*~爱-believe, endure and be passionate