the wait

waitin has taken up a giangantic chunk of my life...most of the time its coz i m too early... come to tink of it i m early for almost anything...i m early for sch, work, meeting, gatherin, trainin...even love...

so its lik i hav to wait for so mani things...for most ppl waiting takes up to 1/5 of deir lives(if i remember correctly)...seriously i dun mind waitin...as long as i hav mp3 to listen to or a bk of my interest...i can wait for hours...haha...but sumtimes i do snap at the late comer la...but if i do...most of the time is jokin onli...unless i m realli dam pissed...but i dun tink the late comin is the main reason ba...haha...

i hav been waitin for a week now...in fact i m anticipatin for it to come...for dose hu r updated...shld no wat i m waitin for...n fyi...i haven receive it yet...i seriously hope i can get it by tml...y sum may ask...its definitely not bcoz i cant wait...i hav my reasons...

sumtimes i feel tt my reasons may sound so ridiculous to sum ppl tt i feel veri reluctant to explain...makin mi lose my patience towards the more persistant ones...sumtimes it gets irritatin...

ok enuff side track...now back to the main topic...i wonder how muc longer the wait is goin to b...as far as my patience is concerned...it has no probs...but den since emotions r involved...the longer it drags...the more i tink...tink of the diff perspective...tink of how things cld hav or cld not hav been...its always my perspective...o well...my patience can onli entertain one person...since its entertainin the wait...i guess i hav to use sth else to keep my emotions in place n my perspective straight...at least until the wait is over...
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not suppose to b bloggin now...oredi tired from the days work n duty oso...still down here bloggin...but i juz cant help it la...juz feelin terrible...i shldnt hav toked abt tt thing...how stupid of mi...

i no the ans still go n ask...den makin hope seemed lik the oppo...i dun even no whether stupid is a strong enuff word...ha...

now all thanks to my genius tinkin...i m makin myself feel terrible n painful inside...now i hav to bear wit my fatigue n finish up an entry juz to exhaust myself physically mentally n emotionally...if not i no i will hav to face wit another slpless nite again...

although i dun say...but sumtimes i realli hoped hope noes how i feel n wat i tink...yes yes...its all abt mi...but on my end i wld love to no how hope feels n tinks...but its lik my hands r tied...or rather my mouth...since i m still obligated to certain rules of the game...tts y now i m onli down to my blog...not noin whether hope still reads a not...since the last time i no abt hope readin my blog was lik almost 2 mths ago...sumtimes i wished i had a way to track down all my visitors w/o dem findin out...den i wld at least b satisfied for the time being...

but since i m not satisfied in any of the ways i wished i was...i guess i juz hav to live wit it...

msg of the day:i dun lik triangles...esp if i was a isosceles triangle...