Reminder: Purpose

On the way home on 1st May, I felt that my foot steps are lighter and felt as if I just let down a big burden. I was feeling great. I have once again found my comfort zone, a place where I belonged. I was feeling very happy. I found purpose, my purpose.

I am once again reminded what I can do, what I am good at. I haven't felt this alive for a long while, its so refreshing. I guess the only reason I was the way I had been for the pass few weeks is because I haven't been out of my shell for a very long time. I didn't do what I was good at, instead I did things that only numb the pain. Although, there is more that could be done, I guess it can't be rushed.

Ah, I miss the sea breeze, the sand, the sea and the clouds in the clear blue sky.

All that I needed was to see happiness in your eyes.

Meifen's & Meifang's birthday wasn't the only thing that left me grinning from one end to the other. I finally managed to get to watch the legendary "1 litre of tears". I have to say, its a brilliant show. It was really sad but touching. Although, I didn't cry like what most people say that everyone would, it did leave a trace of sadness from the main character lingering in my mind. I can't describe it, though its a sad feeling but somehow it awaken me from my slumber.

It let me thinking about a lot of things. My past, my present and my future. Although, the initial effects wasn't very good, it turned out better. I feel better now and because of all these suddenly I feel very appreciative of what I have now. I feel contented. Although, my stress is still around the corner, but I am satisfied with that moment of joy. I am sure it won't be the end of that feeling. My pursuit has just begun, my pursuit for happiness.

Earning happiness by putting effort to achieve it is what that makes it worth the while.

Suddenly, I am reminded of the days where I was able to catch quite a lot of meaningful shows like "Pay it forward", "If you care", "Midnight Sun", "1 Litre of Tears", "Band of Brothers" and also the books that I had read like "The five people you meet in heaven".

Everyone of these titles and also including others that are not mentioned, gave me inspiration to life. Help me find reason for living, my purpose. They maybe fiction but each of them made me stronger with their own unique way. So, actually watching TV isn't all that bad, just that we need to filter and think about what we had watched.

Of course, how can my life be so simple as to be inspired by only a few shows, there are also people who came into my life and changed it forever. People like Mr Low, Sh!n, Michelle Tan, NHDS, Fate, Hope, Destiny, 4/7, OG9, 04S15, UWA Economists, 04S11 and many more people who existed in my life.

Once a friend told me(Although, I don't really like him, I remember him because of what he said.), why do you think that out of the 6.5 billion people on earth, you are fated to meet with the people you see now. By doing the calculation mathematically, you should be able to tell that the chances of meeting 1 out of 6.5 billion is really very negligible, let along making friends with the person or eventually setting up a family with him/her. Even the uncle that sweeps the floor every morning under your block. Have you wondered what will happened if he never existed? Maybe there won't be a direct impact, but if you watch "Butterfly Effect" you will know what I mean. You may not have spoken to that uncle before, but he is in your life for a reason.

More than often, you want to meet up with your friends, be it primary school friends from longer ago or buddies that you have never stopped contacting, but always becomes a dread because you are lazy. I dare say that I am one of them. For we are humans, these kind of things are bound to happen, that's why I really appreciate those who bothers to. Even for those who don't, they are still my friends after all.

A flap of a butterfly's wings maybe nothing at the place itself, but may have caused a tornado on the other side of the world.