Those who have knew me for a very long time should know that I can't stand being taken advantage of,(If I regard the situation as being taken advantage of) worse of all if you are doing it again and again.
Remember the time when Kai Wei got scammed into buying a beer that was wrongly priced. After understanding what happened I went to the manager and demanded a refund.
Well, although I am not as pissed now, I am MORE pissed than that time.
I can be Mr. Nice Guy, but I too also have limit. You don't control or own my life! So, stop dedicating my life. Don't take my kindness for granted. I don't wish to release THE devil.
I am just trying to be nice...
~ Life has to end. Love doesn’t. ~
21 August 2007
15 August 2007
Shackled
I wanted to do this yesterday, but something cropped up(Although, I dreaded to attend to it, I had no choice.) and since today I don't feel sleepy(Well its still kind of early). So, I decided to blog today.
Firstly, to talk about what I have been up to since the last update.
1)NDP finally over. Phew. I have some mixed feelings with regards to close that chapter, but I guess I more or less covered that area in the previous entry. Anyways, I am still waiting for my off to come in(Joel supposed to send on Tuesday). Damn! Doesn't matter, I shall wait patiently. Zhenyu and Mao Rong, lets keep our fingers crossed. Haha.
2)Visited Meifang at her new place on Sat.(Today as well) I should say that it is a nice and cosy place place, other than the fact that there is a lack of certain furnitures(e.g. dining table, working washing machine). But, I guess it will serve its purposes. At her place, other then chatting with her during her occasional(After really very long) breaks, which she takes in between her mugging, basically I just sit there and do my own stuff(e.g. reading, psp, laptop - blogskin{Yes, I making a new one, but not much luck and inspiration.}, dota AI{abit loser}) Anyways, after my first visit, I have 2 conclusions. Firstly, is that it seriously can train my patience literally sitting there. Secondly, I have a freaking slow reading rate(I read about 80pages in about 6hours.-_-)
3)Facing a bit of problems. I can't really say here since my blog is accessible and known to the person involved. But, for those who guessed what I am referring to, you should know how stress I am, especially Zhi Yan and Mao Rong.
4)I have been doing some thinking(Ok, nothing new. Yet and again.) about some stuff.(Including point 3) I got myself into a state whereby I don't know whether what I should be feeling. Although, now I think I am feeling quite optimistic and happy in general, not sure whether it is genuine.
5)Finally, I finished watching both anime and drama version of GTO. Really very inspiration for teacher-wanna-bes. But, besides that it gave me a lot of other points to ponder about.(Ok, that brings me back to point 4) Maybe one day I can be GTS myself. Lol.
Ok, now to the main topic. Yesterday, Meifang called. She was crying and it was the worse I have encountered after knowing her so long. Well, the content was not much to worry about, cause it is pretty much settled, maybe it just hit her too hard and overwhelmed her. Anyway, the thing is this, although initially(for about 5-10minutes) not much talking took place, I really feel her pain(although at that point of time I still didn't know what happened). I guess this really explains the line "It breaks my heart to see you cry.". At that point, I had some mixed feelings, but of course I had to put them aside and try to help her out.
Things, as it is, are nice, I should say. But, let's just say I want to keep things the way they are for now.(Like what Zhenyu suggests) Things about the future shall be answered in the future.
Now, whats most important to me is to help her in any way possible to let her concentrate on her studies. After that, maybe try to look into the tougher problems.
PS: Meifang if you are reading this(I doubt so), please do not misunderstand me like you almost did the last time with your birthday card. ;)
Firstly, to talk about what I have been up to since the last update.
1)NDP finally over. Phew. I have some mixed feelings with regards to close that chapter, but I guess I more or less covered that area in the previous entry. Anyways, I am still waiting for my off to come in(Joel supposed to send on Tuesday). Damn! Doesn't matter, I shall wait patiently. Zhenyu and Mao Rong, lets keep our fingers crossed. Haha.
2)Visited Meifang at her new place on Sat.(Today as well) I should say that it is a nice and cosy place place, other than the fact that there is a lack of certain furnitures(e.g. dining table, working washing machine). But, I guess it will serve its purposes. At her place, other then chatting with her during her occasional(After really very long) breaks, which she takes in between her mugging, basically I just sit there and do my own stuff(e.g. reading, psp, laptop - blogskin{Yes, I making a new one, but not much luck and inspiration.}, dota AI{abit loser}) Anyways, after my first visit, I have 2 conclusions. Firstly, is that it seriously can train my patience literally sitting there. Secondly, I have a freaking slow reading rate(I read about 80pages in about 6hours.-_-)
3)Facing a bit of problems. I can't really say here since my blog is accessible and known to the person involved. But, for those who guessed what I am referring to, you should know how stress I am, especially Zhi Yan and Mao Rong.
4)I have been doing some thinking(Ok, nothing new. Yet and again.) about some stuff.(Including point 3) I got myself into a state whereby I don't know whether what I should be feeling. Although, now I think I am feeling quite optimistic and happy in general, not sure whether it is genuine.
5)Finally, I finished watching both anime and drama version of GTO. Really very inspiration for teacher-wanna-bes. But, besides that it gave me a lot of other points to ponder about.(Ok, that brings me back to point 4) Maybe one day I can be GTS myself. Lol.
Ok, now to the main topic. Yesterday, Meifang called. She was crying and it was the worse I have encountered after knowing her so long. Well, the content was not much to worry about, cause it is pretty much settled, maybe it just hit her too hard and overwhelmed her. Anyway, the thing is this, although initially(for about 5-10minutes) not much talking took place, I really feel her pain(although at that point of time I still didn't know what happened). I guess this really explains the line "It breaks my heart to see you cry.". At that point, I had some mixed feelings, but of course I had to put them aside and try to help her out.
Things, as it is, are nice, I should say. But, let's just say I want to keep things the way they are for now.(Like what Zhenyu suggests) Things about the future shall be answered in the future.
Now, whats most important to me is to help her in any way possible to let her concentrate on her studies. After that, maybe try to look into the tougher problems.
PS: Meifang if you are reading this(I doubt so), please do not misunderstand me like you almost did the last time with your birthday card. ;)
08 August 2007
Fullstop or continue?
Tomorrow will be the final show for NDP '07. I have to say I really don't like this year's show. This are the reasons why:
1)The school teachers are not of any help. Everything is thrown to army. Ok, maybe the admin part, thats about it.
2)Got a lot of problematic kids.
3)Much more politics within the show committee.
4)The parade lack the "Singapore" touch.
Of course, there are many more reasons as to why I don't like it. But on the contrary, some of the kids that I teach this year are very nice. Especially people from E5, so I guess at least there is something good. Tomorrow will most likely be the last day that I will be seeing this kids. I think I am going to miss them.
Of course, I can make an effort to keep in contact with them. But, I don't to be in a scenario whereby my effort is not appreciated. So, I guess I will leave it up to fate to decide whether its a fullstop or continue.
But of course, I didn't do nothing at all, I prepared a card for each of them as a souvenir. Whatever follows is up to the strength of bond that was created during this short 4 months.
This is not by chance, this is FATE.
1)The school teachers are not of any help. Everything is thrown to army. Ok, maybe the admin part, thats about it.
2)Got a lot of problematic kids.
3)Much more politics within the show committee.
4)The parade lack the "Singapore" touch.
Of course, there are many more reasons as to why I don't like it. But on the contrary, some of the kids that I teach this year are very nice. Especially people from E5, so I guess at least there is something good. Tomorrow will most likely be the last day that I will be seeing this kids. I think I am going to miss them.
Of course, I can make an effort to keep in contact with them. But, I don't to be in a scenario whereby my effort is not appreciated. So, I guess I will leave it up to fate to decide whether its a fullstop or continue.
But of course, I didn't do nothing at all, I prepared a card for each of them as a souvenir. Whatever follows is up to the strength of bond that was created during this short 4 months.
This is not by chance, this is FATE.
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