Shackled

I wanted to do this yesterday, but something cropped up(Although, I dreaded to attend to it, I had no choice.) and since today I don't feel sleepy(Well its still kind of early). So, I decided to blog today.

Firstly, to talk about what I have been up to since the last update.

1)NDP finally over. Phew. I have some mixed feelings with regards to close that chapter, but I guess I more or less covered that area in the previous entry. Anyways, I am still waiting for my off to come in(Joel supposed to send on Tuesday). Damn! Doesn't matter, I shall wait patiently. Zhenyu and Mao Rong, lets keep our fingers crossed. Haha.

2)Visited Meifang at her new place on Sat.(Today as well) I should say that it is a nice and cosy place place, other than the fact that there is a lack of certain furnitures(e.g. dining table, working washing machine). But, I guess it will serve its purposes. At her place, other then chatting with her during her occasional(After really very long) breaks, which she takes in between her mugging, basically I just sit there and do my own stuff(e.g. reading, psp, laptop - blogskin{Yes, I making a new one, but not much luck and inspiration.}, dota AI{abit loser}) Anyways, after my first visit, I have 2 conclusions. Firstly, is that it seriously can train my patience literally sitting there. Secondly, I have a freaking slow reading rate(I read about 80pages in about 6hours.-_-)

3)Facing a bit of problems. I can't really say here since my blog is accessible and known to the person involved. But, for those who guessed what I am referring to, you should know how stress I am, especially Zhi Yan and Mao Rong.

4)I have been doing some thinking(Ok, nothing new. Yet and again.) about some stuff.(Including point 3) I got myself into a state whereby I don't know whether what I should be feeling. Although, now I think I am feeling quite optimistic and happy in general, not sure whether it is genuine.

5)Finally, I finished watching both anime and drama version of GTO. Really very inspiration for teacher-wanna-bes. But, besides that it gave me a lot of other points to ponder about.(Ok, that brings me back to point 4) Maybe one day I can be GTS myself. Lol.

Ok, now to the main topic. Yesterday, Meifang called. She was crying and it was the worse I have encountered after knowing her so long. Well, the content was not much to worry about, cause it is pretty much settled, maybe it just hit her too hard and overwhelmed her. Anyway, the thing is this, although initially(for about 5-10minutes) not much talking took place, I really feel her pain(although at that point of time I still didn't know what happened). I guess this really explains the line "It breaks my heart to see you cry.". At that point, I had some mixed feelings, but of course I had to put them aside and try to help her out.

Things, as it is, are nice, I should say. But, let's just say I want to keep things the way they are for now.(Like what Zhenyu suggests) Things about the future shall be answered in the future.

Now, whats most important to me is to help her in any way possible to let her concentrate on her studies. After that, maybe try to look into the tougher problems.

PS: Meifang if you are reading this(I doubt so), please do not misunderstand me like you almost did the last time with your birthday card. ;)