Trying

Time and time again, I tell myself that I should try and try again. Not to give up when it gets tough, but I just can't seem to make things work. It's really sad or just not meant to be.

I don't know how I landed up in this state of emotion but I guess it probably has something to do with do with all the random thoughts have all the time.

I know sometimes I come across as pathetic and desperate, in my pursue for what I deem as a happy life. But, I guess no matter how much I mature and grow, I still need this.

I admit what is over is over, but I would like to keep what was lovely and sweet. The bitter part should treated as lessons learnt and part aside.

I know I have inadequacies in which I attempt to make up in behavior. If it seems offensive, maybe attempting to overlook it isn't as polite as one would think.

It's long past the dream frame, it is no longer a dream. I am just hoping that the result won't be too far off target.

Hopefully what seems to be a curse is just a blessing in disguise.

There is only so much shit I can take. After all, I am only human.

I miss Splitza...I miss her...