22 April 2011

How much do you understand?




Everytime I thought that I got it, but I realised shortly that I don't. No matter the number of times I thought I got it, I never did.

Recently, there has been multiple dashes of spices into my life. Meeting new people, going through feelings so new yet so familiar. I though that yet another chapter has began. Until someone goes questioning me, "Aren't you still on the first page?" I would normally say something not concrete and it hits me right home that the person was right. I never left.

I realised I always try to mask the fact or try to deny the fact. I don't really know why I do that. To protect myself? Or trying to skip ahead?

I probably have the answers be it technical or emotional, but Id seems want to keep it this way.

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Why did you tell me that?
Was there some hidden message?
Are you hinting me?
Making yourself feel better?
Or maybe just trying to make me feel better?

What if, and only what if, its mutual?

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