evaluate mi ^.^V

haha...i suddenly feel tt i shld "redefine" myself...so i wish u ppl help mi to evaluate myself...so tt i change for the better... i tink u all wld wan to c a better mi rite...haha...10z in advance...
o ya b4 i forget...pls pls pls leave ur name behind...unless u dun wan mi to no hu u r...wich in dis case i dun understand y u ever wan to do tt...unless u hate mi lor...:P
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24hr{S}a{E}:recently i hav a veri close friend hav being down bcoz of relationship probs n sum external stress...i juz wan to tell tt person tt u will hav to live wit it lor...it is littered in our lives...its in evitable...i realli dun wish to c u continue lik tt lor...u sad i will oso sad...not onli mi la...the rest of ur friends will too...so stop breaking our hearts...pull urself together n solve the prob n start fresh...n u will b ready to face things again...i no its hard but u will hav to try lor...
msg of the day:its littered in our lives...

for her

actually i had oredi gone offline...but suddenly i felt tt my eyes r abit moist...the atmosphere in the room is so...quiet?den the song so...sad?den i cant help it but to tink her again...the whole house is quiet now...how i wish tt i could break the silence wit a loud holler...but no i cant do tt...so i got the rush to write dis entry to at least allow my heart to go at more ease...
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24hr{S}a{E}:dis coloumn is for u...i no tt i shld no longer b tinkin of u...but i juz cant help it...sori...u had told mi times n times again to giv up..but i didnt...bcoz i cant find...the strenght?...courage?...i duno...i realli duno wats wrong wit mi lor...i realli duno wat to do lor...i always help ppl solve probs...i oso solve my own probs...but dis is one ultimate exam tt i hav to take b4 moving on wit my life...hu noes wat will the result b...but no matter i fail or pass...i will always still remember u...to b honest wit u...i had nv being in love in the same person for so long after being rejected...i duno wat happened dis time...i oso wan to no the answer...i no tt for mi to pass dis exam is lik for a pig to fly...i no u hate mi n find mi irritating...but deres nth i can do to change tt...but i still try...i had stop calling u...n had TRIED to stop smsing u...but i cant...but i will continue to try...i realli duno wat holds in the future between u n mi...u might find tt all dis another piece of shit wich irritates u...but its the least i can do for myself...i guess i dun wan to end up goin crazy...or even having serious depression...wich in dis case i tink mayb i hav a sight one or a moderate one...haiz...actually deres nth muc tt i can say to change ur view...
i juz wan u to tt S'ayapo(if u still remember wat it means)...u might tick tt mayb i m goin overboard...but i feel tt its the onli way to explain my patience of weaiting for 223 days...
now at least my heart is ligthen off...but onli by a bit...but it is the least i can do...i hope tt if u c dis pls at least left a private note for mi...dun wori tt u will hurt mi or wadeva...ur desicions will b respected...the prob is onli how long more i need to erase dis wonderful memories...
msg of the day:Aufwartung

nh suc(dangerous entry: enter at ur own risk)

i hav had it liao lor...nh realli suc lor...i dun care wat u say lor...although i hav to admit tt dere r sum gd pts lik dance...but other den tt it still suc lor...teachers r realli realli veri insensitive lor...if i didnt giv dem the little respect dey deserve for being other ELDERS...i wld hav shouted IN THEIR FACE...if i could i would lik to kick a big fuss in sch sumday...so tt the teachers n tt DUMB camel will no tt such prob exist...haiz...but all tok no action...actually...to tell u ppl the truth...i dun giv a dam abt anithing...my o lvl...i mayb studying for it...but its juz for the sake of studying...i could flung it all together...i dun care...i can go commit sum stupid crime n land in boys home...
i dun even no wats the purpose of my life...studying lik hell n face wit dis kind of teachers...N PUT UP WIT DIS KIND OF SHIT!!i realli duno wat my i here for lor...mayb i my here to let everyone torture..toy around wit...laugh at...entertain ppl...den after tt when i my useless i will juz b chuck one side n let to rot n die...i my lik a puppet...
i realli duno how i can stand all this shit...i realli duno...
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24hr{S}a{E}:well the truth i my scare...ba? i realli duno...i HATE the unknown...i wan things to b known...in the light...reveal...i HATE liars...dey keep things from mi...keep mi in the unknown...but i HATE myself moz of all...y cant i tink lik wat other ppl tink lik...wat the hell is wrong wit mi...i dun used to b lik dis...i hav changed...i hav turned into a crazy demon...i m out of control...will sumone sedue mi...n isolate mi...
msg of the day:I STILL HAV TO PUT UP WIT DIS SHIT

i dun tink tt i hav being doin well for my prelims...tink i hav to work harder for my o lvls...hav everything goes well...haha...gogogo...

yeah...i veri happi...my L1R5 get 18...yeah...can go jc le...^.^V...den my primary sch friend in our sch oso roughly the same marks...so we most likely same sch again...we already same sch 10 years liao...haha...you qing wan shui...
den afternoon...sleep...den wake up got leg cramp.until now...sianz...tml how to go sch...duno la...
p.s:ppl w/o ods PLS leave ur name...i wld realli appreciate it...10z...
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24hr{S}a{E}:today is a but bad...i dun tink anione will no lor...except for tt person of course la...involved wat...haiz...m day from gd to bad to worse...now tt i m faced with dis thing...i realli realli duno how to continue from here...those words were veri harsh to mi...but dun blame the person...tt person says tt it is not my fault...share? tt person say one...hav to agree lor...i realli duno wat to do...can anyone help mi...argh...now i m lik juz drifting away from tt person...izzit bcoz of mi or tt person...i realli duno...i realli realli hope tt tt person will understand lor...but if tt person dun...den i oso cannot force tt person...mayb dis is faith?retribution?undoin?mayb i juz deserve it...hm...its seems lik the case doh...things hav not being working out since i enter sec sch...haiz...
l靎?顂 s郿
msg of the day:i dun even no wat to tell myself let alone u guys...sori...

7 months

i dun tink tt i hav being doin well for my prelims...tink i hav to work harder for my o lvls...hav everything goes well...haha...gogogo...
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24hr{S}a{E}:7months le...the longest yet...
msg of the day:wat m i tokin abt?not tellin u!!haha...

lousy guy

haiz.. got back sum of the prelim results liao...my chem prac fail sia...my strongest component for chem...haiz...dun tink i can get A for chem liao...luckily mcq got 31/40...lets hope tt the paper 2 get higher ba...dun wan to write too long...still got things haven do...
btw 10z u guys for dose notes for the previous entry...haha...i m realli happi...anyway for dose hu does not hav a od n wants to leave a note...pls write ur name...let mi no tt u care...10z...
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24hr{S}a{E}:dis morning when i got back the paper...i was realli shocked lor...actually mood rather gd one..bcum mood veri foul...i wan to say sori to dose i shouted at today...i was realli down...but the nap at maths lesson helped...so did evan's jokes...haha...10z...except for andy...he can go die ba...everyday bully my friends...u tink u gd in acad n cca veri pro la...too bad u hav a bloody attitude...if u r reading dis den gd for u...mayb u wan to beat mi up the next day...go ahead...let ur horse cum...i not scare...u tink i lik yok wei or yan wei meh...but if u wan to fight wit mi...i will fight back...i might lose physically...but not mentally...i hav sum tricks up my sleeves one...dun mess wit mi u fastass...
msg of the day: u dun wan to c my ugly side...