for her

actually i had oredi gone offline...but suddenly i felt tt my eyes r abit moist...the atmosphere in the room is so...quiet?den the song so...sad?den i cant help it but to tink her again...the whole house is quiet now...how i wish tt i could break the silence wit a loud holler...but no i cant do tt...so i got the rush to write dis entry to at least allow my heart to go at more ease...
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24hr{S}a{E}:dis coloumn is for u...i no tt i shld no longer b tinkin of u...but i juz cant help it...sori...u had told mi times n times again to giv up..but i didnt...bcoz i cant find...the strenght?...courage?...i duno...i realli duno wats wrong wit mi lor...i realli duno wat to do lor...i always help ppl solve probs...i oso solve my own probs...but dis is one ultimate exam tt i hav to take b4 moving on wit my life...hu noes wat will the result b...but no matter i fail or pass...i will always still remember u...to b honest wit u...i had nv being in love in the same person for so long after being rejected...i duno wat happened dis time...i oso wan to no the answer...i no tt for mi to pass dis exam is lik for a pig to fly...i no u hate mi n find mi irritating...but deres nth i can do to change tt...but i still try...i had stop calling u...n had TRIED to stop smsing u...but i cant...but i will continue to try...i realli duno wat holds in the future between u n mi...u might find tt all dis another piece of shit wich irritates u...but its the least i can do for myself...i guess i dun wan to end up goin crazy...or even having serious depression...wich in dis case i tink mayb i hav a sight one or a moderate one...haiz...actually deres nth muc tt i can say to change ur view...
i juz wan u to tt S'ayapo(if u still remember wat it means)...u might tick tt mayb i m goin overboard...but i feel tt its the onli way to explain my patience of weaiting for 223 days...
now at least my heart is ligthen off...but onli by a bit...but it is the least i can do...i hope tt if u c dis pls at least left a private note for mi...dun wori tt u will hurt mi or wadeva...ur desicions will b respected...the prob is onli how long more i need to erase dis wonderful memories...
msg of the day:Aufwartung