Argh!!!

wa...i feel so sianz now la...haiz...i tink i realli overload myself today liao...too long nv chu power liao...den now chu power to muc power liao den overload...sianz ar...i feel so sianz ar...haiz...duno wat to write oso...i realli wish tt i can venge my anger sumhow sia...now i dam sianz...i duno wat to do...or wat to write...
sianz lor...i tot i recoverin from my berserk pt liao...but lik wat the hell is dis la...sianz ar...wao lao...dam freak la...y m i livin in dis world...sux man...i feel so tired now man...i feel tt my shoulder veri tired liao lor...ppl say wat...shoulder lik tt means too muc stress...i bet hu ever said tt is rite man...i realli goin crazy liao ar...cant tink...sianz ar sianz ar...haiz...
duno wat to write liao la...sianz ar...dun write le la...
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msg of e day:wth is wrong!

happi bday to wei xuan

today...nth muc la...met shi yan n vivian den brought dem to my mother shop makan...den after tt i went off for my ambulance attachment...veri slack sia...didnt do muc la...serious slackin onli...but den infront of the fire station got a accident even b4 we were dere for 1/2 h lor...veri loud sia...but luckily dun hav anyone injuried...haha...
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den cum back home lor...nth muc...den juz now i wished wei xuan happi bday...haha...gav her a BIG surprise...wich sort of made her frighten sick...i veri bad hor...haha...anyway i dedicate dis entry to her la...dun say dun hav hor...here is a priceless present tt u wun get elsewhere...haha...hope tt u hav a wonderful bday....n oso hope tt all ur wish cum true...anyway older one year liao...so how...feelin old liao ma...haha...:P no la not old la...still young n kickin...;)
anyway juz another testimontial for u...erm...no each other for 9 mths liao worz...ops...tts means givin birth liao rite...haha...jkjk...i referin to the birth of another beautiful frienship...haha...wat were u tinkin...anyway u had been a nice friend to mi...n of course to the rest of the ppl...veri critical worz...mi jealous liao...haha...can tink of so mani creative ideas...haha...oso muz say veri impressed wit the way u went all out to try to help mi solve huimin prob...haha...10z worz...den oso a gd adviser...got prob u sure can tink of sth to at least cheer ppl up...haha...actually say so muc hor...all lik regardin u help ppl one hor...wa...veri bz sia...always help ppl...till the extend tt sumtimes get urself involved...tsk tsk...haha...but seriously its veri nice of u la...
anyway i feel so sori...coz i still haven giv u ur pay...haha...:P but isnt dis better den a pay check...haha...anyway...happi birthday once again...keep smilin...take care...
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happi birthday to u...
zhu ni shen re kuai le...
happi birthday to wei xuan...
zhu ni shen re kuai le...
msg of e day: wat u waitin for...make a wish la...haha...:P

freak dose juniors

wat the hell lor...sum bloody idoit shoot mi in rebecca blog...wat the hell the person wans la...y leh...humji ar...dun dare to put ur name...if u realli tink u r rite den y dun u walk up to mi n scold mi rite in the face...coz u scared...n u bloody hell dun drag zhongyi into dis...if u wan to target mi den cum for mi...dun drag my brother in...y leh humji muz use such methods to scold mi...freak man...
i oredi veri tired tryin to help dance...tryin to giv it a push...n now dis...how do u expect mi to continue...i treat everyone veri nicely one lor...treat as my own brothers n sisters...even for ppl lik wah teck hu i keep punishin...seriously i oso look out for him one lor...seriously dun appreciate nvm...but even cum n shoot mi...tts too muc for mi to take...dis case made mi feel tt i hav realli wasted my time at dance...now i duno if i shld continue a not...zhongyi always say if u r not dose popular type of ppl dun try to b one...so dis this mean tt i shld adopt the tranny style...wat the hell does tt person wan la...i feel so sad for the other juniors hu hav to sabo by dis hai qun zhi ma...
better dun try to do anymore backstabin or tokin bhind my back...u wan den cum attack mi face to face...i will make sure everyone witness it...so if u r rite...den i m done for...isnt tt wat u wan...cum on prove it den...coward...
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msg of e day:enemies in the dark r nth but cowards of no challenge

work

today nth muc la...mt lost her voice so take her place at work lor...woke up onli at 1230...den reach my mother shop at 130...haha...slack sia...ok la...but quite tirin...
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wa...yesterday nite slp late coz got one friend sort of depression...coz she cant handle the fact tt the guy she lik dun lik her...aiya...she still small wat...so cannot blame her for being so immature...but still veri worried for her la...coz duno wat foolish things she will do lor...she hav the habit of cuttin her hand...i hope nth bad happens to her...from yesterday nite until now still dun hav ani news from her...anyway i wan to 10 wei xuan for tryin to help mi out regard her prob...:)
msg of e day:no matter hu it may b, a helpin hand is always heart-warmin

opera

today went to c opera performance wit mt n yong xuan...dun b mistaken...its bcoz kai wei dey all got perform den go pong chang...haha...den after deir part we leave liao...veri bad rite...haha...nvm la...its free...:P den after tt go backstage find kai wei dey all...a lot of jokes back dere...quite noisy...i tink we disturbed the performance wich haven end...:p
den we went to chinatown to eat supper...i had sesame paste...it sux lik shit lor...it was lik putin the grined sesame seeds into the soup lik tt...totally not wat it suppose to b...but anyway i had a fun day...although the first half of the day i was rottin at home b4 meetin mt at bugis...haha...
today feelin better le...seriously i dun understand y i was so upset yesterday...its not my loss wat...its not as if she is the world or sth...she is not even sumone hu i lik...but i guess...i got sum sort of phobia for being cheated...i no i oso cheat others from time to time la...but i hav nv cheated sumones feelin b4 lor...coz i myself cant stand it...so how do i expect others to lik being cheated rite...
but watever it is la...i realli hope tt i can sort things out quickly...coz i dun hav muc time left...once sch reopen den i wun hav time to deal wit all dis stuff...worse still i will hav more prob to tink abt...
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hav u ever tot abt wat life means to u...mi? erm...i dun hav a definite answer yet...but if u rephrase the qn to wat is the purpose of life...den mayb i got a few answers...but one firm answer is to pay my debt...wat debt u might ask...well...sum of u might b able to recall the story of how i escaped death...hmm...seriously although it was nth veri significant to mani...even to dose hu save mi...but to mi it was the turnin pt of my life...i hav bcum a better person...more responsible more sensible stuff lik tt...n the debt tt i m tokin abt got 2 kind...one is debt to my saviour...den another is dose tt i owe sth to...tts y my life wasnt taken...actually deres more things tt can b toked on dis topic...but i dun feel lik continuein on it liao...so mayb next time ba...
msg of e day:debts r meant to b repaid,n dey shld...

freakin hell

i duno wats goin on wit mi la...everything i do lik is wrong lik tt...or at least to everyone else la...sux lor...i mean lik my startin pt was out of concern...but things juz hav to turn out sour...wat the freak man...does dis mean i hav to b nasty n all...i feel so cheated...of my time n feelins...make until i veri scare liao lor...
dis is not the first time liao lor...sux man...wat does she wan from mi la...as if i m sum sort of toy...she lucky she gal...if not i make sure she die ar...fish man...but she better dun do anymore funi stuff le...if not i duno wat i will do to her sia...i feel tt dis year is a total waste lor...in the past 6 mths...kana cheated 2 times...m i a idoit or wat...i realli duno wat to say lor...sux man...
wat dose everyone wan from mi...was i saved juz to let u ppl squeeze mi dry den after tt let mi die izzit...hate my life man...y cant b sum sort of restart button or sth...
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ok...dis is a real big prob...i m bcumin too lame...dis is not normal...i hope its not a side effect of being too depressed or sth lik tt...seriously i got the feelin tt i will explode anitime soon lor...i veri scare tt it will happen...ppl readin dis might tink i m sum sort of psycho...mayb u r rite...mayb i m one...
i duno wats wrong wit my mind...coz i cant tink properly...i tried many methods to try to sort out my tots...but dey r of no use...sux man...if onli sumone can help mi...but hu...i tried tokin to all sorts of ppl...but no effect...freak sia...
aiya...dun wan write le la...the more i write the more frusrated i get...
anyway hu ever got probs can approach mi for counsellin or advisin...at least tt will keep mi occupied...n stop tinkin of dose unhappi stuff...
msg of e day:wat m i to u...