how m i suppose to react

i no mayb dis post is not expected of mi after the last post...but still i realli cant handle things tt had happen today...haiz...i realli duno how to react to all tt has happened...b strong? let my feelin show? hide in the dark? duno la...i feel all mixed up now...haiz...y i cant i b more decisive abt how i shld handle my own emotions...

seriously...sumtimes i tink i realli tink too muc for my benefit liao...in fact i tink its the truth...well sumtimes i wish i wasnt such a deep tinker...not tt its not gd or anything la...but sumtimes its bcoz of dis tt i get myself in a fiery mood...i no its not nice to show my dark side...n i no ppl around mi dun lik to c it either...but plz plz plz understand tt i realli cant help it...i duno how to explain...its not tt i cant control my emotions or wat la...but its lik....aiya...its veri complicated...duno how to explain oso...

i tink for dose readin...up to dis pt u shld b lik askin urself so wth happened tt made mi write such a entry again...well a couple of things la...haiz...dun wan to tink abt it anymore...tinkin abt it makes mi sianz...so i shld stop tinkin abt it anymore...
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if u were to choose one of dis options...wich wld u choose...the dreaded truth or the beautiful white lie...will i rather choose the dreaded truth...well...i mean sooner or later u will find out the truth wat...so y bother hiddin the truth leh...yes hiddin the truth is to prevent from saddenin the person...so ppl wld choose to lie...but dun u find it more disturbin if u got to find out the truth on urself...

eg la...if u ask ur best friend to go out wit u...but he/she say cant go out coz grounded or sth lik tt...but after tt u realise tt he/she go out wit other friends...wld u feel upset coz he/she lie to u...i tink u wld...but ur friend lie bcoz he/she dun wan u to feel tt he/she dun wan to go out wit u...but its bcoz he/she got thing on liao...so he/she decided at tt pt of time to lie to u...den u wld b lik tinkin u cld hav juz told mi the truth...

but sadly...humans r juz humans...mani lik the truth...but mostly dun lik to tell the truth...n tt includes mi...dun u all find it so ironic...u wan others to tell u the truth...yet u dun wan to tell others the truth...haiz...humans...but i muz reinforce the fact tt not all humans r lik tt...dere r bound to b special cases...

well its being a while since i did dis...but y dun u all tell mi how u tink abt dis topic...

msg of the day:if u realli mean well, den plz b frank wit mi...