sianz

well...the time now is 1215am...suppose to b goin to bed liao...but after juz now blog at nhds...got a bit of tots flowin...plus...juz now after twin effect i came online to find nobody to tok to...quite disappointed although it made mi turn to my hw...so in a way its a gd thing la...so ya lor...

erm anyway...a lvl comin liao...wa...stress...prelim didnt do well...i seriously duno wat will happen to my grades after dis 1 mth or so...veri scared...but i m still not workin hard enuff...mayb i m juz not cut out for theory la...well i m a more hands on person...but seriously its not my choice to b jc either...i mean poly is hands on...but nth i realli lik...so no pt goin dere either...tt day heard sum of my friends tokin abt psychology in uni...in addition to the fact tt a lot ppl r "interested" in it...coz dey find it interestin n tink tt its the kind of course for dem...a lot of ppl r goin dere too coz the requirements r oso quite ezly met...to my best knowledge...u onli need a maths pass n 45 marks to quite safely secure a place dere...but wit all the competition...mayb 60 oso cant...sianz...

but o well...tts the future...i dare not tink so far...lookin at the present is scary enuff...now i onli can hope tt sumone has the key tt can start my engine again...izzit her? i mean she did start it once...once...haiz...
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well seriously i m veri fascinated by myself...juz now while i was doin hw...i cld listen to my fav tune...wich is wat is playin on the blog...sing to it...n at the same time reflect n tink abt the happenins tt happen to strike my mind...sum memories can b sweet...sum can b sad...n now it is makin mi feel empty n lonely...

i m always dere for others...but nv m i dere for myself...well i guess all humans r lik tt...sumtimes i realli need sumone to realli come n tok to mi n show sum concern...but i guess its hard...duno y...but juz hard...not sayin tt ppl ard mi dun show mi concern...but juz tt it juz doesnt fill up my emptiness...mayb i m too used to dis ppl concernin...tt i no longer "crave" for such concern...as for ppl hu suddenly show concern i might get wary...tinkin tt sth might b fishy...but ppl complainin is juz complainin...no need to specially come n show concern...coz it wld b diff...n in a way... it might not hav the effect i need...but anyway 10z in advance...i no dere r ppl out dere hu still cares...

well all i can say is i m not ezly satisfied emotionally...tts y i keep seekin emotionally relieve aves...but dey r so limited...n sadly bcoz of a lvl i hav shut out sum of the aves...haiz...if onli i cld find new aves...if onli...

msg of the day:time nv stops,tts y i hate it...