home....?

Life has become so mundane. Work, movie, DI, work, movie and DI again. It has already become a routine. I am not trying complain that I don't like watching movie with the guys, nor am I trying to say that I no longer like going to dance. Just that everything has become so routine that there is no longer anything that I can look forward to.

Going to work is just like stepping into a mine field. You don't know when you will be blasted into pieces.(Oh my homi!) As much as I like the company of most of my brothers, sisters and officers back in office, sometimes somethings/some people just has to spoil the picture. Yeah, I know nothing is perfect and I know there isn't going to be an exception. I really miss school. I hope that I will be able to.

I made many mistakes in life, but I don't want to make my life a mistake.

Movie marathons! This few weeks is filled with endless movies. Some were great, some didn't do as good. Some people like that movie, some didn't. The groups life has become so boring, cause we have run out of ideas to spend our time. And movies were always the most convenient and easiest way to spend out time. I know I have nothing to complain about, cause I also can't do nothing about it. And we seriously have to admit it, the attendance is getting from bad to worse.(Yes, I am talking about it again.)

Maybe there is a barrier that exists between some of us, maybe its just to some of us. While some people are trying to be forgiving, some people just like to think otherwise. I know I always say very blunt things to some of us, sometimes even going too far. Everyone have their short comings, and move than often we can't control ourselves. Well, that is what makes us, us. Well, I know thats my shortcoming, and I am trying to control myself. I know just because I am having a bad mood its not a good reason for my behavior. But, I am really very happy that I have very accepting and understanding friends. But, it really takes 2 hands to clap. Life-long friends are people who can co-exist together accepting each others short coming and at the same time knowing their short comings, feeling sorry about it.

Luffy(One piece) has too many short comings to count, but he is very lucky to have a very accepting crew. Because they all know that, his strength can compensate for everything else. Loyal friendship.

DI is turning into a stress zone. I no longer know my role there. I am lost. I know I can't handle stress well, but that doesn't give me a reason to run away from my responsibility. I may not be irreplaceable but my presence, everyones contribution is a source of energy for Mr Low. I am no longer contributing to Nan Hua, yet I tried to run away. What a coward. I know I have to face this, but it really hurts me deeply to see everything falling apart. I can't no longer hear the flames , feel the heat. Where's the passion?

Everyone has a different part to play, know your role.

By now, you guys must be wondering what's going here? Is the one who is typing this entry even Sam? Well guys, don't worry. Nothing happened, nothing in particular at least. I have been doing a lot of thinking for the pass few weeks, about what has been going on in my life. I feel that I am really being stressed out. Although, I no longer gloom like last time when even I am love sick or what so ever. But, really feel so numb to everything. I tried to put my mind on a holiday hoping that it will help. Well, it did. But wasn't for long. The truth is I don't know what I am doing with my life.

Life in the past 6 months or so was really a joke. Cut! I really feel that I was fooling around with my life. I really have to stop spoiling my life and others lives just because I always act on impulse. Maybe the numbing process will help me cure this disease.

What happened? Why did it happen? Sometimes isn't being ignorant a bliss?

When will I be home?