I just don't understand...

Quite a lot of things happened since my last update. Well, most of the things actually happened last Sunday. The day was very sian to start with. I was on the bus thinking about stuff cause I can't sleep. At first, I was only thinking about how long I haven't been to the beach to destress and it somehow linked to hope. And like always I kept thinking about why things happened the way they. But, I think I will never get to find out the answer to all this questions. Maybe I don't have the guts find out or maybe I am too bothered by the possible consequences.

Luckily, I was able to throw away those thoughts with some help of encouraging words from a friend. But, things just had to get worse. I received a call from my brother's friend saying that he was knocked down by a bus. The accident got the whole family all worried. But, at least his fine, so its fine. He only suffers a hairline fracture at the back of his ear but from time to time he will experience giddy spells. Thanks for all the concerns you guys.

Anyway for people is interested to know what exactly happened, this is the story. My brother was walking along the pavement but there was some obstruction on the pavement obstructing his path. So, he decided to go round it via the road. But, only after he took a step onto the road he was knocked by the bus. Well, he was in the wrong also though.

Through this incident there were two things that warmed my heart. The first was that as the accident brought the family together. I was able to feel fatherly love from my father. It was something that wasn't there for a very long time. But, anyways I am beginning to accept my father better already.

The second is that there was an "ang moh" passer-by who witness the accident. He somehow manage to track down my brother, visited him and was willing to testify for my brother against the bus driver. He was really a man with heart of gold. He took the trouble to track down my brother and visited him with a lot of stuff. His kindness is beyond words. If only Singaporeans can be more like him.

That day was really very rough for me. But, at least it was a happy ending.

On a lighter note, today I went out with Meifang again. It's about 1 month since we met. Well, she said she needed to destress, so we met and had dinner. Well, at least I helped her destress and just now she called me to me about some stuff and at the same time thanked me for tonight. But, truth is I enjoyed the "date" myself too. Haha.

Well, I glad that at least I am back on the happy railway.

Good things never last, but I still wish they will.

Searching...Looking...for something...

Before I start to blog about today's topic, I shall touch on a bit of things that I forgot in the previous entry. As the title "Ideals are not always the best" suggests, ideals are not always the best way for things to be. But of course, we hardly ever get things to be ideal. So, I guess sometimes it might be a blessing in disguise? What you guys think?

A lot of you must be wondering why am I thinking in such a way. Well, firstly, ideals for everyone would differ when we look at the same thing. Let me give you an example. Imagine you really like this guy/girl. Naturally, your ideal for this situation will be for you to be able to be together with this person. But, your parents don't like him/her and uses your kinship to threaten you from being together with him/her. If you choose to follow your ideal, you not only strain your relationship with your parents, you also start a chain reaction of other things that may have positive/negative impacts in your life(Use your imagination). This is just a very simplified example not taking into consideration of a lot of things(Ceteris Paribus.Lol.). So, I guess ideals still boils down to perspective, which may be good for you but bad for me.

But then again, who decides what's best?

Now, back to the original topic of the day. Well, good mood is up and it feels good. Although, I am feeling very tired from unknown reasons, just can't seem to be able to charge myself up. But, all is well.=)

For the past week, I suddenly gave some thought to my future(As in my studies and path after army), maybe because I am constantly being ask about what I am going to do after army. Now, I am giving myself thoughts about taking counseling instead of psychology. But, I just can't seem to reach a conclusion of which should I choose.

Well, if you think at this point that this is the main point of this entry, then you are wrong. This is only one of the contributing factors along with some other events in the week that triggered a thinking process.

I am looking for something... A new meaning? A purpose? A reason? Or could it be someone?

Well, I am still searching...

Ideals are not always the best

Its being 2 weeks since I last updated. Well, all is well, other then the whole week of shifting of APD. Oh my god, I swear that is the most hardworking and tiring week in my whole NS term. I legs were literally having the "crampy" feeling the whole of today. Yeah, the new office is new and clean, more organise, more sleeping place but most of all I finally got a place of my own. Haha. In the past always have to share my place, but now no need. Not that I mind, but sometimes I can't find my stuff at my own place caused they are always not where they suppose to be.

2 sundays ago, I went out with Meifang again. Seriously speaking, that day was the best time we had together. I mean like we had great food, great company(I hope I was.=P) and also great scenery by the river side at Central, Clark Quay.(Ok la, not that great) The best of all is I was so surprised at how she reacted the jokes that I extracted from One Piece. We really had a great laugh. It was really a day well spend, helped me recharged myself from all the stress I have been getting from work and NDP.

For the past 2 weeks, I have been recalling some of the delighting events from the past. Sometimes I would smile to myself on the bus, I think if people saw me, they would have thought that I was crazy or "hua chi".

Sometimes life's not so bad if you just take a step back and take a look at whole picture instead of focusing on the black ink blob in the corner.