Need to let it go

I hear what I don't wish to hear.
I see what I don't wish to see.
I feel what I don't wish to feel.
Yet, I don't hear, see and feel what I wish.

My heart aches when I hear it.
Every word is but a dagger stabbed to the heart.
My mind shuts when I see it
Every moment is but a void warped in the mind.

I feel sad, my heart freezes.
I feel angry, my heart burns.
I feel disappointed, my heart aches.
I feel lost, my heart is no where to be found.


Life is fragile but shouldn't sad.
I should believe in my passion.
Hoping that this is not my destiny.
I will not let others decide my fate.

I will learn and improve, but not to please you.
I will earn what I deserve and be accomplished.
But, now I need to let it go.

不会爱

海风微微的吹着 月光是多么的柔和
你坐在我的身旁 我是多么的快乐

温柔的眼神 可爱的酒窝
话虽只是三两句 但我无可自拔的爱上你

我爱得很深 也爱得很真
但这一切的一切 只是一厢情愿
因为你重来都没有爱过我

我付出的那么多 又爱得那么深
难道你还没感道我的真诚

我想帮你圆梦 我愿借你肩膀
但是未曾有这种机会

到了最后 我只能接受
我不会爱

能不能有人来教教我
因为我真的不会爱

Utterly Disappointed

Look at the time of this entry and you would know that this entry was written during working hours. First of all, I am on leave today and was supposed to be at Nan Hua now giving my leadership workshop. But, due to some unknown reason, the initial 11 ppl that expressed interest on Sun boil down to only 3. I still decided to continue, despite the number of turn-up. But, this morning when I was just about to leave house, I received a call saying that there are only 2 left and that 1 of them has to leave at 10. Naturally, I canceled the whole thing, because its totally no point anymore.

I was already very disappointed that guys are not interested. Now...I really don't know what to say. Furthermore, given the comparison this year with Crescent, it just makes me even more heart broken. I have no idea what happen to Nan Hua. Some people say its because they are not "ripe" yet, but how do you explain about the course last year with the current sec3s and even the current sec2 Crescent. I have already ordered for a "report" for the reason for the utterly poor turn-out.

Haiz...it just goes on to make reconsider again and again whether I should even bother anymore.

On a lighter note, I know some have realized that I have been blogging less. That's because of my exhausting job which just became even more exhausting on last Monday. So, now I come home too tired to think of what to blog about and only want to cherish the valuable time that I have to do what I enjoy more. Maybe I should take some pictures of my office desk when I am working. Its like a tornado just swept through. Lol. With the increased workload, I can't even afford to be listening to the radio where I get most of the my inspirations these days. So, I guess you guys can only expect less works of mine.

Till next time...