Numb but still hurts

Today, lessons ended way ahead of time as there was nothing left to cover given today was the last lesson for that module. Amy and I walked around the campus and found a corner to chit-chat while waiting for her friend, who was picking her up.

She started pouring about her ex-boyfriend and stuff, when she suddenly turned the arrow and talked about my "patience". When we were leaving she patted my back and asked me not to be sad. I wasn't exactly lying that I wasn't sad, but I was at least thinking about it.

I feel numb, but yet I experience pain.
In or out?