Contradictary

Today, I have lessons at 9, but came to school early cause I hitched a ride from my parents. I am rather surprised that the school is actually already opened at 7, only that the classrooms are not opened. But, by 0730, the school staff will start to open the classrooms. Nonetheless, it has no difference to me as there is no power sockets for students in the classrooms, so I decided to stay in the corridors.

It has been 1 week since I left Panalpina, but honestly, not much work has been done(none in fact). Its really a very waste of time and lack of self-discipline. I haven't really started out on any of the things I aim to do. I just checked my grades for 2 of my modules and I got an average of 75 for both modules, which I think is the average score that people should be getting. I need to work harder than this if I want to get my first class.

I know I want it, yet I am not doing it.
I think sometimes doing maths is much better.
我站在这平衡点，但却感到有点危险。
者是否就是擦肩而过，还是一种无情的考验。