o lvl result/dance inspiration

wow...i cant blive it...i got a 12...its so unbliveable...i got A1 for emaths n humans...den A2 for amaths n chem...den B3 for eng chi n physic...realli veri shocking for mi lor...dis is the best i had ever done b4 lor...its unreal to c a slacker lik mi get dis kind of score man...i realli got nth to say lor...i was lik playing magic n com between papers...
my amaths so tyco to get A2...i didnt do 2 qn coz got stomachache...haha...den go toilet...haha..:P n yes finally i got A1 for humans...c u sucky prawn...i got a A1 hor...n the rest of the class oso got 1s n 2s...so u can go eat shit...but i regret 2 things...one is tt my chem nv get A1...aiya...too slack liao...nvm got 2 oso not bad...the other is chi lor...haiz...didnt realli put effort to study for the han zi...but realli stupid to study 1000+ words to get onli 5...haiz...nvm its over...
dis few day went to help at the performance...haha...mr low call our grp "dance inspiration"...lik veri pro lik tt... but of basics...erm...haha...u no la...:P den the dance was realli veri nice...veri artistic man...aiya...i say stupid things sia...mr low chorograph one leh...the next big item is "kopi tiam"...haha...dis time i takin part...ppl muz cum support hor...haha...
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24hr!:mayb u guys hav seen my lastest nick...counting down to sth...wat day izzit...haha...i wun say...but its definitely not my bday...coz its 25 days away...haha...but one thing is for sure...its a veri special day...mayb sum ppl veri veri veri veri veri close to mi will no...but i doubt it...coz i dun remember tellin anyone abt it...haha...
m?#291;  ŧħέ d?#947;:till tt day cums,i will b here waiting

alone

today went to cc...coz i wan to giv jolene tuition...common test cum liao wat...haha...den after tt go home lor...haha...
yesterday after the chi singing course...we stayed back abit to hav a mini karaoke session at LT2...haha...sh...den after tt go home slack lor...coz dey cannot decide wat to do wat...so bo bian lor...
sori the entry is brief...dun realli feel lik writin abt dose things...not significant wat...haha...realiese tt recently i haven being writing a lot... the entries all veri in constant...actually yesterday i wanted to write sth one...but coz a bit bad mood or shld i say sad so nv write...
well u c...the truth is hor yesterday...i wanted to go out...but juz cannot find anione to go out wit mi...sum got performance at istana park...sum got common test...n other reasons la...den was veri sad lor...found myself all alone...den i still didnt wan to go home...so i went to je walk walk on myself...haha...hoping to find anyone tt i no dere...but no luck...haiz...nvm lor...den i bo bian den go home lor...den go home slack a bit den sleep le...sianz sia...
den juz now online i realiese i hav 10-20 ppl online but i was onli tokin to one...sad rite...all lik no topic...duno wat to tok abt...if i started conversation it will b lik hi den stop...den realli veri sianz one lor...sth feels so lonely sia...tts y i dun lik to go home so early...go home duno do wat...online c noone...play game veri sianz...duno wat to do sia...haiz...
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24hr!:alone in a crowd...haiz...the feelin is so so so sucky...if i m not wrong dis qn i attempted in the o lvl or prelim...forgot wich one...anyway...sumtimes do u feel tt u r surrounded by tonnes of friends but yet u feel cold n alone...its lik dey r dere juz for the sake of being dere...its suc a sad thing...if u nv feel it b4 u shld go try it urself...u go out wit a group of friends...den i keep quiet n dun tok...if dey dun tok to n noone tok to den u will feel the kind of agony i m tokin abt...if u hav any friends in ur group tt is left out...its time to change his or her life...let him feel being part of the group...noone is born to b alone...mayb u haven realiese tt the person next to u is tt person...juz tt u haven realiese...especially to leaders of the group...u shld keep a lookout for suc a situation...its lik a form of responsiblity ba...well its onli wat i tink ba...i tink todays entry is veri crappy sia...ok le la...stop liao...if not i will go on forever...
m?#291;  ŧħέ d?#947;:feel the pain n agony of being alone...it sucks...

og9 2

haha...didnt expect myself to b writing entry wit dis title again...but i still today had made mi wan to do so...
i dun blive tt i even pon my drama festival to hang around longer...i would hav regret for life if i didnt go today...i was really veri touchin lor...for the second time in my whole life i felt lik crying bcoz of the touchiness of the atmosphere...the first time the last dance camp as a nan hua dancer...its was lik a sad but touchin moment...i brings back sorrow n joy...i enjoyed myself today...
i realli feel tt og9 realli rawk lor...ya not forgettin dance too la...but dis entry is for dem...erm so...dancers sori hor...but i oso got write a lot for u ppl in the past...so it wun hurt la...:P...anyway i was sayin...og9 rawkz...dey had all bcum my good friends over such a short period of time...i can tell dem things without tinking knowin tt dey can b trusted...omg...if u were in my shoes now u will no how i feel...its indescribable man...
when lik the other ogs r all dispersed oredi...but ours is still strong n kickin...ya not forgetin lamin too...haha...:P...anyway i tink the j2 ogls councilors n teachers would hav notice it lor...dey might no hu we r...but i m sure in deir mind dey will always remember us as the most enthu n siao og lor...yeah og9 rawkz...
i guess og9 rawk so muc n i lik dis ppl so muc tt i told dem "u ppl r wonderful ppl"...dancers remember dis ba...haha...dun wori u guys r still wonderful ppl too...no matter hu u r...b it ppl from 4/7 04S21 nhds or og9...u guys had helped to mould my life...in a way or another...i hav to 10 u ppl...u might not b in my calibre of "wonderful ppl" but still as my friend u had a part to play...n i m grateful for tt...remember u ppl always...10z guys...u made my life more worthwhile...
o lvl cumin soon...wish dose getting results to pass wit flying colours...take care...
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24hr!:omg...the autograph bk got so mani praises...i duno if i m realli as gd as u ppl say...but wat ever it is...10z...but i will continue to b humble...n work harder to bcum a better person...even if i m not as gd as u ppl say...i will try my best to meet ur expectations...haha...but remember dun praise mi too muc if not i will grow wings n fly into the sky...haha...lame...:P
anyway...if any of u need help or advise of any kind...can cum n find mi...dun b shy...n no need to wori tt u will bother mi...coz i will b more den happi to serve u ppl...afterall dis is where my passion lies... n mayb even my destiny...haha...take care ppl...wish u guys all the best...
m?#291;  ŧħέ d?#947;:u all r wonderful ppl

life goes on? 2

how r u ppl...its being a while since i wrote...haiz...life is getting from bad to worse...sori tt i nv write for so long...sum of u hu cares might wan to no wat has being goin on...well i didnt write anything bcoz one thing is tt i had sum prob wit my internet for abt a week...den oso i duno wat to write abt my sad life...
i feel tt writing wat happened today here is a bit redundant lor...after all its almost always the same la...i was sayin tt things r turning from bad to worse...i juz realiesed tt although i seem to b happier in jj but in actual fact its not true...i m onli happi when spending the time wit my friends...but at the same time i m juz puttin all my probs temporaily away...but the truth is tt dey r still dere lor...so wat to do...haiz...last time in nan hua at least dose hu no mi better can tok to mi...den i will muc better...now in jj all my best friends arent wit mi...rohan...illusions...4/7...dance...haiz...i realli missed u guys...although i still can c u guys around...but i is nv the same...i miss the gd old days...
i feel tt my life is lik still stuck at the period during the post o lvl period...except the part abt jj...sumtimes my og friends do relief sum of my stress though...but its veri sad...the whole og is lik driftin apart...the feelin is not lik wat it used to b...n one of dem is goin to withdraw soon...sum ppl say she isnt a gd person...sum say she changed...but still she is a realli veri nice person...i muz admit tt i my realli goin to miss her after she withdraws...haiz...
i made a promise sumway back in dec...to my friends...to myself...n her...i tried to forget n let go of all dose bad times...n other related stuff...well i hav little luck on tt...but at least things turn out better den wat it used to b...but still when i look back at dose times...its so sweet...but at the same time sad n hurting...haiz...if onli things didnt hav to go tt way...but its oredi over so deres nth tt i can do now...haiz...
now i m realli feelin veri emotional...i tink tts oso the reason i m writing dis now...haiz...
sori abt such a long entry...but i realli got so muc to say...if onli sumone could carri my burden or even "carry" mi lik sam did to frodo...haha...lame...not funi rite...haiz...
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24hr!:today i wan to use dis coloumn to 10 sum ppl...
first i wan to 10 sum of my class ppl...dis ppl r realli veri cute man...haha...dere was dis time when i was realli veri sick...but i still went to sch...den i got so irritated by my illness n the class...tt i shouted at dem rite infront of the teahcer...den after sch dey showed care n concern towards mi...n sum ask mi to chill down...sum asked mi wat happen...n the other time was yesterday...coz dere was a misunderstandin wich coz mi to riase my voice at sum of dem...den after tt i walked off...n dey tot i was angry...but i juz walked to get sth elsewhere...haha...den when i came back dey were lik apologising n things...later i realiese dere was even one of dem hu msg mi too...haha...cute ppl...10z...
second is one veri special person...she has been the nicest person to mi in jj...over the days i hav developed sum feelins for her...but i duno if dis feelin is lik dose kind of feelin towards my veri close friends... or bgr type...haiz...suggling to find out lor...but no matter how things turn out in the end...i will b contented enuff to hav a friend lik tt...its suc a blessin...haha...n to show my gratitude towards her...i gav her a lot of things yesterday...wich was valentine's day...hope she liked dem...
i oso wan to wish everyone happi valentine's day...for dose hu hav stead i wish ur love last forevermore...n dose hu hav a person in mind...jia you ba....;)
m?#291;  ŧħέ d?#947;:ru guo zhe ye bu suan ai,wo mei she me hao bei ai

life goes on?

i feel so lifeless recently...especially after tt day when the news was broken out to mi...actually it had nth to do wit mi...coz i dun need to no after all...its not my prob...i shldnt bother...its realli none of my business...but i chose to care...i chose to b devestated...
found tt sam has bcum realli veri lame?...wan to no y he bcame a bloody lame bastard?...personally i oso duno y...but i m sure the chief reason shld b due to the same thing ba...i feel so empty...kong xu...so empty tt i hav to act lame to fill it up...ppl scold mi for being lame...do u tink i lik it...no i dun...ppl say tt i hav changed...not for the gd but for the lame...do i hav control...do i hav a chioce...
so mani unhappi things followed one after another after tt news was broken out to mi...muz i b tortured dis way...although most of the unhappi things does not hav anything to do wit mi...but dey happened to my friends...best friend or acquintance...it is sad to c things go dis way...if all dis bad luck was all for mi...pls juz torture mi not my friends...i realli dun wish to c dem suffer in place of mi...u might tink tt it is stupid to tink tt dey all suffereing in place of mi...u r wrong...i guess one of the unhappi thing tt juz happen a few days ago was partly my fault...now i feel so guilty... i wan to help tt friend...but wat i can do is veri limited...furthermore was he is goin thru now is nth tt i hav ever gone thru b4...haiz...yesterday alone i injuried my head n leg...it sux...
i realli dun wish to continue to lead dis kind of lame-ish sad life...i no it was a devestating news...but i oso no tt i hav to face it...n move on...i was foolish to even tink tt miracles happen...dumb rite?...no the song from prince of eygpt...when u blive dere will b miracles...i veri much wan to blive in it...but how to...i m now practically draggin myself to move...i m not solving the prob at all...i m plain running away from it...
i realli realli hope tt one day...i will meet sumone hu can relieve mi of my pain...b it ppl from nan hua...ppl from og9...ppl from my class...or even any acquintance...
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24hr!:to my hard borken friend...i no u most probably wun b reading dis...but i hope tt mayb by writing it out here...ppl hu reads it can share ur pain wit u...u might not no or feel...but i guess it counts...hopefully...
deres a time to grip...
deres time to let go...
deres time for joy...
deres time for sorrow...
fate is happi...
fate is sad...
hav faith in fate n all goes well...
so now bury ur sorrow n reap new joy...
n nurture it once more...
till faith is restored...
take care my friend...
m?#291;  ŧħέ d?#947;:bring mi back