i feel so lifeless recently...especially after tt day when the news was broken out to mi...actually it had nth to do wit mi...coz i dun need to no after all...its not my prob...i shldnt bother...its realli none of my business...but i chose to care...i chose to b devestated...
found tt sam has bcum realli veri lame?...wan to no y he bcame a bloody lame bastard?...personally i oso duno y...but i m sure the chief reason shld b due to the same thing ba...i feel so empty...kong xu...so empty tt i hav to act lame to fill it up...ppl scold mi for being lame...do u tink i lik it...no i dun...ppl say tt i hav changed...not for the gd but for the lame...do i hav control...do i hav a chioce...
so mani unhappi things followed one after another after tt news was broken out to mi...muz i b tortured dis way...although most of the unhappi things does not hav anything to do wit mi...but dey happened to my friends...best friend or acquintance...it is sad to c things go dis way...if all dis bad luck was all for mi...pls juz torture mi not my friends...i realli dun wish to c dem suffer in place of mi...u might tink tt it is stupid to tink tt dey all suffereing in place of mi...u r wrong...i guess one of the unhappi thing tt juz happen a few days ago was partly my fault...now i feel so guilty... i wan to help tt friend...but wat i can do is veri limited...furthermore was he is goin thru now is nth tt i hav ever gone thru b4...haiz...yesterday alone i injuried my head n leg...it sux...
i realli dun wish to continue to lead dis kind of lame-ish sad life...i no it was a devestating news...but i oso no tt i hav to face it...n move on...i was foolish to even tink tt miracles happen...dumb rite?...no the song from prince of eygpt...when u blive dere will b miracles...i veri much wan to blive in it...but how to...i m now practically draggin myself to move...i m not solving the prob at all...i m plain running away from it...
i realli realli hope tt one day...i will meet sumone hu can relieve mi of my pain...b it ppl from nan hua...ppl from og9...ppl from my class...or even any acquintance...
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24hr!:to my hard borken friend...i no u most probably wun b reading dis...but i hope tt mayb by writing it out here...ppl hu reads it can share ur pain wit u...u might not no or feel...but i guess it counts...hopefully...
deres a time to grip...
deres time to let go...
deres time for joy...
deres time for sorrow...
fate is happi...
fate is sad...
hav faith in fate n all goes well...
so now bury ur sorrow n reap new joy...
n nurture it once more...
till faith is restored...
take care my friend...
m?#291; ŧħέ d?#947;:bring mi back
~ Life has to end. Love doesn’t. ~
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