bad nite

ok...today is realli not a gd day for mi...haiz...or rather i shld say is nite ba...
ok...dis was wat happen in the day...i was woken up by my bro...coz he wan to play the ps tt i borrowed from chee hao...coz i set it up in my rm wat...den i wake up he ask mi go my mother rm sleep...crap lor...haiz...nvm...den i wake up...den after lunch go cc...first one dere...a lot ppl late...mr low nv angry la...but he veri stressed...tok oso lik veri tired lik tt...summore he sick worz...hope he get well...actually i oso sick...one week liao...but common test wat...didnt care much...den after cc go home tt time i suddenly remembered tt the person is still angry at mi...at the same time i oso fa hua chi again...head full of her n tt person...argh...veri bad mood...wat shld i say...i realli miss the company of dis 2 ppl...i guess losin dem is sum sort of debt i m payin for previous sins...but i reallli reallli hope tt its onli tempo onli...
den after tt i came home to find tt my bro played the ps ever since i stepped out of the door at noon...non stop...den the ps was lik burning lor...crapz...den things didnt end dere...my mother start naggin the both of us for the non stop playin of com n ps...but pls lor...i juz came back for onli how long...suan le...den she keep complaining...she oso veri tired n stressed le...i feel so bad...haiz...den i c my bro report bk...again crap...average score...no A...lik tt how to survive...aiya heck la...its his future...if he doesnt bother den wat can i do...
den after tt i tot tt i can relief sum of the unhappiness by playin sum games...at first was doin fine...den afterwards...mao brought sum news...n i was rather affected...haiz...den after tt i off form liao... den kana scolded for noobish acts...haiz...sianz...den i even more bo song...den i dun play liao lor...tts y i am here now...
actually dis week is veri sad lor...exam stress...relations stress...argh...summore i tink i changed...realli changed...but for the bad...i tink i hav been influence by bad influence...haiz...is dere a pt of return? i sure hope so...haiz...
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24hr!:closed
m?#291;  ŧħέ d?#947;:jc could b a wrong choice

haiz...i duno wat to say la...but den tinkin of the past realli let mi taste sum of the sweetest moments i had...but at the same time i had been thru

ok things haven been realli goin the way i wan it to go...as usual...dis is so sianz...i feel tired everyday...do hw until so late...den no time to study...when the exam is onli next week...argh...haiz...wat to do...i chose to go dis way...i cant blame anyone...but things r not helpin lor...haiz...
i duno wat to do lor...i miss a lot of ppl...especially the dance ppl...when deir exam finish its my turn...wat the hell lor...dis is so sianz...i wan to c dem oso so xing ku...but today i made the rite choice to rush back...coz i feel better cing all my juniors...n dis is the first time all i cross said hi or bye to mi...so happi...felt great at tt moment...things better...now tt is one load of my mind...off to mug mug mug...haiz...sianz...
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24hr!:another load is a person...haiz...i realli duno wats wrong lor...she seems to b ignoring mi or sth...i duno...but mayb she is angry at mi for sum reason...or mayb other stuff lor...but wat ever it is i wish tt tt person cld juz tell mi lor...coz i m realli worried lor...u arent lik tt b4 the exams... even until the last few days of exams...but i duno y dis few days things change so drastically...i realli wan to no wats bothering u...at least let mi no...if its mi den i will stop botherin u...lik tt i no wat to do wat...den if its other things den i can help u wat...i m not worried bcoz dere is a possiblility tt i might b the coz...but i m worried bcoz i care...i realli do...its not bullshit when i say i dote u the most...u can try reflectin to the pass...how i treated u...so dun keep it to urself anymore...pls tell mi...pls pls pls...if i m the coz i will get rid of myself...if its other things den i can try to help u...even juz sharin might make u feel better...i tink i hav gave a lot of hints...u shld no tt hu m i tokin abt...i dun wan to mention hu coz if i m the coz it might coz sum unhappiness...if u r readin dis den pls tell mi wat happen...
m?#291;  ŧħέ d?#947;:worring abt u weakens my concentration even though exams is next week...

yi ran ji de...

haiz...i duno wat to say la...but den tinkin of the past realli let mi taste sum of the sweetest moments i had...but at the same time i had been thru bitter times too...but the thing is...is dere realli anithing to keep mi holdin on...i dun c it...yet i m...dis is so contradictin...
today i nv sleep on the way back...coz i was in tot...lik one of zhang xue you's song "ru guo zhi ye bu suan ai, wo mei shen me hao bei ai" so dere realli is nth to it...but wat i dun understand until now is...y is she so unforgetable to the extent tt she will always appear in my mind...no matter how hard i try to forget...makin now female friends didnt help...cca didnt help...sch work didnt help...i duno wat else well...
i guess mayb its bcoz i m tryin to hard...n its on purpose...so mayb it wun work...mayb i shld change my method...juz let nature lead the way...she once told mi "time helas all wounds"...so it wun hurt to try rite...but the other time i tried to forget her...it tok abt 3-4mths to almost do it...but dis time things bcum even harder...i duno how long i will take...but i will take however long it is...
i always hav a blive...n tt is to let fate bring us together...mayb our aquintance is to prepare mi for the real relationship to cum...n hu noes the finally mate turns out to b the first person...nobody realli noes rite...but b4 i tink abt tt i hav to move on first...i cannot b lik wat is sang in the song by S-Club 7 "nv had a dream cum true"...
so all i had left is to say is tt...dere is a hole in my heart tt needs to fill up...is dere one in urs...i hope not...coz if dere is i wld b the one to blame...
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24hr!:erm...i realise tt the entry readers of my diary r mostly "new" readers...so i realli hav to say sth...coz i oso realise another thing...tt is i m bcum more n more open wit sum of the private stuff...so i wld realli appreciate it if all of u ppl wld juz read all dis n no it to urself...dun go tell other ppl...if dey r keen on findin out...dey will cum n c for demself...n especially dose involved...after all readin on deirself is different from hearin it from another person...10z for the cooperation...
m?#291;  ŧħέ d?#947;:?m鰉雗t u st雙p雂 !nt?my ?f? ! sw隺r雂 n鰐 t?ｋt u g? c鰖 ! v u. but n鰓, ! chang雂 my m!nd, c鰖 !ts ?wr鰊g way t?離pr雜s my v. tt!n u g?but ｋav?tra! 鰂 m雖鰎y !zz!t d雗 ?c鰎r隿t t?say ! v u, c鰖 a＃ ! wan !s f鰎 u t?b happ!...