yi ran ji de...

haiz...i duno wat to say la...but den tinkin of the past realli let mi taste sum of the sweetest moments i had...but at the same time i had been thru bitter times too...but the thing is...is dere realli anithing to keep mi holdin on...i dun c it...yet i m...dis is so contradictin...
today i nv sleep on the way back...coz i was in tot...lik one of zhang xue you's song "ru guo zhi ye bu suan ai, wo mei shen me hao bei ai" so dere realli is nth to it...but wat i dun understand until now is...y is she so unforgetable to the extent tt she will always appear in my mind...no matter how hard i try to forget...makin now female friends didnt help...cca didnt help...sch work didnt help...i duno wat else well...
i guess mayb its bcoz i m tryin to hard...n its on purpose...so mayb it wun work...mayb i shld change my method...juz let nature lead the way...she once told mi "time helas all wounds"...so it wun hurt to try rite...but the other time i tried to forget her...it tok abt 3-4mths to almost do it...but dis time things bcum even harder...i duno how long i will take...but i will take however long it is...
i always hav a blive...n tt is to let fate bring us together...mayb our aquintance is to prepare mi for the real relationship to cum...n hu noes the finally mate turns out to b the first person...nobody realli noes rite...but b4 i tink abt tt i hav to move on first...i cannot b lik wat is sang in the song by S-Club 7 "nv had a dream cum true"...
so all i had left is to say is tt...dere is a hole in my heart tt needs to fill up...is dere one in urs...i hope not...coz if dere is i wld b the one to blame...
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24hr!:erm...i realise tt the entry readers of my diary r mostly "new" readers...so i realli hav to say sth...coz i oso realise another thing...tt is i m bcum more n more open wit sum of the private stuff...so i wld realli appreciate it if all of u ppl wld juz read all dis n no it to urself...dun go tell other ppl...if dey r keen on findin out...dey will cum n c for demself...n especially dose involved...after all readin on deirself is different from hearin it from another person...10z for the cooperation...
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