luv doesnt hav a reason

wa...until recently den i realise tt kong-fu soccer is such a nice show...of course i liked the part abt the kong-fu + com. animation...but i lik most abt the luv part...
dere r 2 kinds of luv in the show...the first kind is the brother kind of luv...dis kind of luv is tt kind tt i wld hav veri dear...after all i hav been thru wit my buddies...i hav learned the value such luv oredi...although the things tt we had been thru might b nth when compared to other ppl's encounter...but it is oredi enuff for mi to learn how impt brotherhood is...brotherhood is lik such a lovin word...it is veri powerful lor...for dose hu watch the show...durin deir match against the bad guys...dey stood together side by side...even though dey were continuously attacked physically...dey stand strong together...dey hold till dey fall together...i duno if my buddies r tt bonded wit mi or i myself will do such things for dem...but at least i no i m satisfied enuff to no such friends oredi...but all dis brotherhood thing might get the gals tinkin tt i onli cherish my frienship wit my guy buddies...but not true...coz when i say brotherhood...doesnt onli mean guys...to mi...definitely gals as well...sumtimes dere r sths tt u can relate to a gal much better den to a guy...so dere bound to b "bro" out dere hu r females...but dun get the wrong idea... dey r not tomboys...haha...
den the 2nd kind of luv obviously referin to romance la...but sum ppl may tink...lik wat is so special abt the show la...as in so mani other show got romance one wat...haha...i agree...but dere dis show has sum elements tt is diff...n dis difference appealed to mi... coz it provided mi wit an answer to one of my burnin qns over the past 2 years? in fact almost 3 years liao... for dose hu no mi well enuff 2 years shld ring a bell n allow u to guess wat i m tokin abt...i dun tink i wan to say things clearly abt dis part...coz dis kind of things...sensitive la...summore i dun feel lik sayin oso...but mayb sum other time ba...but hu noes i might drop sum hints for time to cum...but i dun tink ppl will bother to go n guess la...so lets c lor...haha...
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recently nv realli update...although for a short while i wanted to force myself to write sth everyday...lik last time lik tt lor...but lik veri hard leh...coz of various reasons...so cant b helped...but sumtimes i oso dun hav the mood to write...lik now i oso feelin a bit low...but wat to do...no one to confide to...den confide here lor...a bit pathetic sia...but wat to do...sianz...den recently oso no "business"...although its a gd thing la...but it makes my diary a bit less colourful...but i guess i doesnt matter...coz i can always fill in my own prob instead of other ppl prob...
"so near yet so far" dis phrase is such a powerful phrase lor...today i experience it lor...again...juz tt nv tok abt it onli...its lik such a sour feelin lor...sianz...she says i m stubborn...yeah she is rite...but she is too...we r both stubborn...wat to do...sumtimes u will juz get so frusrated when things juz dun go...haiz...lik my msg of the day says...sths cant b explained...although i realli hope tt i hav an answer to all my burnin qns...but i guess its impossible...once i read in a article...it says tt in ur lifetime dere will b sumone tt u luv the most...but dun luv u...n oso one tt luv u the most...but u dun luv the person...so in the end u most likly wun get to get the person to b ur life companion...wich is rather sad la...as for mi i guess mayb she will the one tt i luv most dis lifetime...haiz...although i wan to carry higher hopes...but things r juz gettin from bad to worse...sad...sumtimes i juz hate myself...y cant i change myself when i no tt i m doin wrong...the personality test was correct...i dun lik changes...if onli dere is sumone to stand by mi n help mi change...
but hard to find lor...coz no such person has ever cum to my life yet...how cum so unfair one leh... the person tt i luv the most has been in my life for oredi 4 years liao...but den the one tt luv mi the most haven cum leh...mayb tt person juz dun wan to say...haiz...i realise the more i write the more i seem despo...mayb i m so empty till lik tt...empty referin to kong xu...sianz...i tink i dun write le la...the more i write the more depressed i get...sianz...haiz...
msg of e day:sths juz cant b explained...