ji mo/jie tuo

yesterday go out...alone...coz cant find anyone to pei mi...realli veri sad...dis juz shows wat kind of person i my to everyone...i felt so despo lor...i hav to go around "beggin" ppl to pei mi...but...haiz...wth...suan le...
den went to hospital to c rebecca...but she was discharged le...sianz...suan le...den go jp do a bit of shoppin...didnt buy muc la...but i tot abt a lot of things...it shows tt i m not hu i tink i m...i hav so mani friends wit mi tt i forgot tt i m a crowd magnet...at least i was taught a lesson...it realli hurt mi...but i muz say sum of dem realli wanted to pei mi...but cant...so i hope dis ppl dun feel bad...
today...finally i feel jie tuo from dis love trap tt i hav been stuck in for lik 2years liao...or at least almost...reason is bcoz i xiang tong sum things le...but confirm a not duno la...mayb need time to reassure myself of certain things...actually wat do i mean by jie tuo...i guess it means tt i m not as bothered by it liao...but truth reminds tt i will nv forget her nor the wonderful memories...i remember last time i created a quote...not veri sure is dis the exact one...but its sth lik "u may hav forgotten mi,but u will always b engraved in my mind" so lik wat dis quote says...u will always b remembered...although dis is an one-sided love...but at least i got to enjoyed the short but sweet period of time... after so long...i hope leavin is not a wrong decision...but lik i always hav wished...i hope tt we can at least b friends...
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24hrRu!
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haiz...recently sum qns hav pop-up in my mind...coz zhenyu was askin dem too...things lik passion , purpose of life,luv....i realise i dun understand dis 3 things...guess tts y my life is in a mess...BurneDestiny i guess...haiz...i realli hope to sort things out...n tink properly...i need to stand up lik the person i m in the day...super positive...not lik now...onli tempo onli...at nite den lik tt liao...haiz...
anyway with regards to anonymous...dere is nth i can do to u...since i duno hu r u...but is dere a need for dis suspence...i m ur friend rite...den y wan to hide...i realli duno...but watever it is... i hope to hav a better way of contact to u other den thru my od...coz its juz not the way for friends...i dun mind if u keep ur identity...but i realli wish i cld hav a nice chat wit sumone as nice as urself...watever it is...10z in advance...
msg of e day: °最美丽的时光已成回忆°希望我这次真的解脱°