lookin back

today was rather a slackin day again...haiz...wasted time again...muz realli b on task if i wan to get my dream results for my A lvl...lookin back on all the things i hav done for the past 17 years of my life...lik nth constructin leh...haiz...wat a failure...

sumtimes when u try to hard to try to achieve it...u end up breakin it...wich is worse...haiz...dis is wat happens to mi...i hav been tinkin if wat i did yesterday was rite or wrong... did i make it or break it... sum ppl might tell mi tt dere is no rite or wrong to it... juz differs from perspective to persceptive...

i hav always been askin myself wat exactly is the purpose of my life...i was saved from death...doesnt dis juz show tt i had not fufil tt purpose...tts y it juz cant end here... searchin for a purpose of livin in dis world is such a pain... every min every sec as i breathe... i suffer...sufferin from probs tt i giv myself...suffer from the emptiness in my heart...

mayb tts the purpose of my life...hu noes...my search has to go on rite...but life is juz full of obstacles...preventin u from gettin to ur goal...

all dis tok abt sad things...i muz still say tt dere is still happi things abt life tt i can look back on...happiness tt shin-13 mt dance n her brought mi...hmm...tokin abt her...hmm...i guess i hav been tryin hard to forget her...although i dare not say tt i hav totally forgotten her...but at least i had tried....remember abt wat i wrote in the previous entry abt the 3 ppl tt we will meet in life...i guess she is tt person tt i luv de most but doesnt luv mi one lor...tinkin abt her brings gd memories...but hurtin ones too...haiz...nowadays i tink tt things r gettin blander n blander...tinkin abt it juz make my heart ache...haiz...y muz things end up lik dis...
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hey +^.^+...u lik tt let mi continue guessin is no diff from torturin mi leh...veri tirin one leh...juz tell mi la...plz? :P

msg of the day: if onli memories cld b made into a movie...den i cld view it again n again...for enternity


P.S: anyway regardin the navigation of dis blog...dere r "2 pg" in dis blog...basically "blog" n "navigation"..."blog" obviously will show u all the entries... n "navigation will show u all the "stuff" eg abt mi, name, age, chatterbox etc...dis 2 "links will b found at the bottom left hand corner of the entry box...whereby "blog" is on top n "navigation" is below...juz click on the one u wan to c...hav fun readin...