tt day

hmm...izzit a gd thing? dis year i forgot abt tt special day...does it mean tt i hav gotten over her...but how den can i explain abt wat happen on thur...haiz...veri confused...duno wat is the answer to my qn...mayb its lik wat zhenyu calls it...he calls it duan le si nian...meanin tt i tink i hav gotten over n forgotten abt her...but sth coz mi to remember abt things...den emotions start to pour out again...haiz...is dis wat it is...i tink i wun b gettin my answer anytime soon ba...

sumtimes i was tinkin if onli i cld turn back time...change sth den mayb life now wld not b lik tt...dere r mani things in life tt i wish to change but reality forbids it...everytime when it cums to dis period of the year i m extremely moody... especially since tt day...n nth has been able to change it...the reason other den the fact tt tt day is in dis period of the year...but oso bcoz of one other thing...but i dun wish to reveal it so publicly...i tink so far onli told zhenyu b4...but ppl...dun bother to go n ask him la...coz i asked him not to say...if u realli wan to no den cum tok to mi...i will c how...

yesterday nite...mi daryl zhenyu mt mao rong n zhi yan went to west coast park after dinner to chit chat...we tok abt each others bad pts...n as i expected i was the one tt dey had most to tok abt...is dis bad or gd...from wat i tink it realli depends on wich perspective u wan to take...gd coz dey care for mi n had been updatin demselves wit my life...bad coz i hav not been changin for the better...

to mi i take a more neutral stand...den to choose either of the both...coz i blive dere is an element of both...but seriously for most of the bad pts dey mentioned...actually i hav an explaination for it one...but i guess i might juz b tryin to cheat myself tt i m not as bad as dey say...zhi wo an wei in chi...haiz...sumtimes i juz cant b bothered to clear things up for my mistakes...but i m always rushin to clear mistakes for others...lik wat zhenyu says...i care abt others too muc for my benefit...coz i tend to neglect myself...sum may tink tt its bad for myself...but to mi i tink its alrite la...n i hav a reason for sayin tt...but i hav to admit its not a veri gd reason...coz its a veri pessimistic way of tinkin...
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recently den i realise how big a impact certain things in life had place on my life...n to mi i feel tt its coz of dis things tt i m leadin a life lik now...though not all the impacts r negative...coz dere r still positive ones... one eg of a negative one is the accident in sec 1...i guess bcoz of tt incident...sumtimes i tink lightly of myself n even my life...mayb tt is the coz of y i always neglect myself...but dis incident oso had a positive impact...coz it made mi grow up n tink more maturely...i duno y...but it juz had tt kind of impact...one eg of a positive one is choosin to join dance over sjab when i was in sec 1...coz i hav realli learned a lot of things from mr low mdm see n my fellow dancers as well...its bcoz i join dance tt i got to b more independent n all...one neutral eg is in sec 3 when i got my feelins cheated by a gal...it coz mi to hate her...n oso coz mi hate ppl tt lie to mi...although i myself do lie...but i juz cant stand being lied to...veri unreasonable rite...i no...mayb i shld regard dis as a negative impact instead...

msg of the day:if onli i cld turn back time...


P.S: anyway regardin the navigation of dis blog...dere r "2 pg" in dis blog...basically "blog" n "navigation"..."blog" obviously will show u all the entries... n "navigation will show u all the "stuff" eg abt mi, name, age, chatterbox etc...dis 2 "links will b found at the bottom left hand corner of the entry box...whereby "blog" is on top n "navigation" is below...juz click on the one u wan to c...hav fun readin...