y izzit not you

recently hav been veri bz in office i feel lik i m livin 2 lives now...one army...one GA...here tired...dere oso tired...everyday come home onli feel lik sleepin...come home c my gundam...i onli can feel sad...haiz...wat to do...

ppl may tink how can i complain when others r out dere chiongin...n sloggin deir ass off...well of course i cant compare our physical exercises...but seriously the mental stress here is no ez feat...sumtimes i juz dun get it...how come sum of my colleagues lik veri free n nth to do...den i work n work...lik no end...altho i do get sum time here n dere to browse the forum...but tts abt it...m i workin too hard...or izzit juz tt i duno how to lay back...

wat is rite...wat is wrong...wat is too muc or too little...wat is juz rite...i cant find the balance...tml is goin to b a hectic day...half day in office...n got 6 tasks to do...out of the 6 got 4 is urgent...got one is tml deadline...i duno whether i can meet the deadline a not...onli can try my best...
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i duno y yesterday n today so not in mood...mayb i m juz more ezily pissed coz i not feelin well...

but one thing is for sure...i cant keep runnin from things tt r infront of mi...even if i try to not tink...i will still b reminded...the other day was chattin on the phone wit sumone...told tt person tt i m not continuing wit my song...as i hav decided tt it has lost its meanin...even if i do continue with the song...its onli for the sake of wholeness...but i guess tt wld b abt it ba...but i doubt i will continue...since ling gan has stopped flowin for quite a while...

now i feel lik my song...in pieces...here a bit dere a bit...its not ez tryin to pick myself up...mayb i m juz sensitive...but i keep feelin tt everytime humpty dumpty is tryin to get together again...all king's horses n all king's man hav to trample all over again...no wonder dey cldnt put humpty dumpty together again...lame but expresses my pt...juz giv mi my life b...u had ur share...10q

altho u dun say it...but i no sumtimes u blame mi for not sayin anything...the fact is i got a lot to say...but i duno where to start wit...i dun even no if u r the least interested to listen...but i guess i shld stop decievin myself...coz i no wats the prob...i m juz pretendin tt i didnt c it...dun wori...its not u...it has nv been u...it cld b the world but u...but ironically its mi...lik wtf m i tokin abt...crap...crap...

i m juz goin in circles...i hav always been...i had been in circles b4...i got out of the circle n got into another circle...how fun...but y m i complainin...i m showered wit all the blessin n happiness tt sum ppl may nv get... sumtimes i feel so sad hearin things tt were once said by u...yes its nice...i appreciate it...but y izzit not u...

sumtimes i juz dun get things abt life...y m i always qnin my life...wat is enuff...wat is balance...

msg of the day:幸福认识你，可惜不是你