I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE!!!!

i realli cant stand it anymore...

i m rippin myself apart...

i m tired of runnin away...

i m tired of always been the nice guy...

everything juz sux...

nth is rite...

or mayb everything is rite...

but i m wrong...

i m always wrong...

i m always the bad guy...

resolution...angels...my foot...

everything is juz fucking screwed up...

i duno wat to do...

sumone teach mi...

scold mi...slap mi...

i hate myself...

i shld stop deceivin myself...

dis IS reality...
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i m tired of apologizin...i m tired of lookin on the bright side...m i realli always the wrong one...y do everyone hav to force mi to it... Y!!!

i realli feel terrible now...realli...n dere is lik no apparent reason for it...everything is juz fuckin screwed up...isnt dere sth left in dis world tt i can blive in...i cant even blive myself...hah...

hu can i blame?myself?but deres noone else...sumtimes i realli hope dere was realli sumone to juz push the blame to...but no...i cant do tt...coz...coz...its not rite?ah...fuck it...

everything is collaspin...cave in...i m suffocatin... isnt dere sumone out dere hu understands mi...not even a little?

hope-if u r readin dis...please please please...dun go tinkin tt wat is happenin betw us led mi to writin dis...its juz tt...its juz tt...certain things i cant bring my heart to tok abt it to u...but realli tink tt shldnt...n now is not exactly the rite time...it realli isnt ur fault...i realli hope u understand...to a certain extent i no dis entry will hav certain impact on u...but i hav no choice...i hav already delayed n delayed...i cant bottle up anymore...i need to shout it out...sori...

once i empty things...i will b back to normal...

msg of the day:i hav realli fallen deep...r u goin to reel mi in?