sori to make u all worri

ok i guess i m more or less back to normal...tho i didnt realli tell u guys wat realli happened...but well i guess it isnt impt anymore...since i m alrite le...at least i hope to keep it tt way...haha...but dun worri la...i wun giv in so ezily...i mean lik wats life not puttin up a fight...

anyway juz came back watchin conevant wit mt n mao...the movie together with the bk "burnt journal" tt i m readin at the moment...lead mi to tink abt wat happen the other day...

anyway juz a brief intro abt the movie n the bk n the link of the both to my tots...

for conevant...dere r sum guys wit "witch" blood n can cast spells n stuff...but the catch to it is tt dey exhaust deir own life span doin so...if u c it my way...its lik fast forwardin ur life...its lik in the movie dey can inject real powerful punches tt creates shockwaves...if u look at it in terms of the fast forward theory...its lik doin strong punches mani mani times till u get tt effect...the onli diff is tt u did it in a spilt sec...wich is where the fast forward comes in...

for burnt journal...its abt a kid how tried to commit suicide by burnin himself...but he survived n the bk toks abt his path to recovery...

coz in the movie the main guy called caleb tries to protect his loves one from the evil guy...by usin his powers to fight it out wit him...but at the same time he is exhaustin his life span doin so...its lik sacrificin his life to save others...tho in the movie the "damage" is not visible...but if u tink abt it...its quite a selfless act...but i guess most ppl wld b willing to do it if dey were put in tt situation...but the reality wakes us to the fact tt we cant do tt...but still altho we cant realli b so wei da n save ppl by shortin our life span...but we can still help others when dey need it...i mean dere r mani ways to la...depends on the need of the person in need of help...

n for the bk...its lik the boy reflects later tt wat he decided to kill himself for is not such a big deal afterall...n tink feels stupid n all...n kinda regretted his actions...we dun need to burn ourselves to regret wat we had or had not done in life...we juz need to help ourselves more...tink abt wat is our prob...n if can solve it with the help of other ppl...

so its lik we shld help others n oso not forgettin ourselves in the process...i guess dis is called balance...sum ppl help others too muc while others help others too little...juz hav to figure wich u lack n juz do the other more...life can b more meaningful n hav less regrets if we do sth abt it...

today...now...altho i feel stupid tt i submitted to the evils tt lived within mi...but i didnt regret writing the previous entry...altho i feel bad to make everyone worri...esp hope...but at least i m reminded y i was here to start wit...the things tt i blived in...n oso the things i wan to blive in...

for now i need to help myself n take a break from helpin others...bad guy gd guy...hu cares...as long as i m doin the rite thing...i can kill a guy n b bad in the lights of law...but at least the guy i killed was a murder wich made wat i did at least rite in the eyes of the victims family...

life is wasnt smooth sailin...it has been a bumpy ride till now...but i muz continue to blive...continue to si le dou yao ai...
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changes...i guess tt was the evil dis time rd...all shld no tt i m a constant lover...i dun lik changes...i can get pretty fed up if u tell mi last min tt the meetin is cancelled...altho over the years of livin n workin wit other ppl...i hav started to b more flexible towards changes...but i still cant accept it whole...

human relationships is my strength n my weakness at the same time...combo-ed wit changes...i guess it can realli wooble my knees...there r things in life tt i nv wan to hav live with...but bcoz of certain changes...i face the danger of gettin struckdown...

as muc as i fear wat might happen...one day it might still happen...altho realli realli realli hope tt it doesnt...i still hav to face it anyway...i mean wat else can i do...run away?lik the boy did in the bk...i will end up in the same spot...but diff as i will regret runnin in the first place...

i no its goin to b hard...when was facin ur fears n probs ez...if dey were...den dey wun even exist...i hope can get thru dis stayin true...n oso to dose hu is facin evil now...all the best n blive in urself...

msg of the day:永远的信徒，死了都要爱。