i dun deserve to live

lik wat wth is wrong wit mi lor...i shldnt b complainin in the previous entry...coz the bloody shits happen bcoz of mi...yes mi...the bloody hell idoitic mi...how can i b the one to complain abt it when i m the one hu coz it...n bcoz of all dis i m losin my friends...i m cozin misery for ppl hu care...lik wth lor...
i realli dun deserve to live lor...ppl hu show concern for mi r not gettin wat dey shld b gettin in return...instead dey r in misery bcoz of MI...n all i can do abt it is say sori...y cant i juz go solve the prob instead...i oso wan the answer...mayb i hav too muc pride tt i cant bow down to anyone lik tt...i duno wat to do...no one to guide mi...haiz...i realli duno wat to do or say...
n i shldnt say anything at all lor...coz most of dis probs exist bcoz of my filthy mouth wich juz cant filter wat to say n wat not to say...wish i cld mute myself lik a radio tv or com...
i wish tt i could forever abandon dis probs...but cant...juz by goin to sch reminds mi of dem...even listenin to radio or watchin tv too lor...haiz...
i dun deserve to live...i m juz a person hu realli sucks to the core...
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24hr!: i m so troubled yet i cant find anyone to confide to...but my od...first thing i cant tell sum of the ppl coz i cant let dem no abt wat happen... second thing is tt sum of the ppl r involved...n bcoz of dis i might lose dem as my friend...third is sum ppl juz dun giv a dam to mi...the saddest thing is tt even the person i always confide to oso cannot le...bcoz of dis probs it coz dis person to live in the crossfire n pass days of misery...i used to tell tt person everything tt happens...n tt person wld help mi lor...but now i cant...coz i had hurt tt person enuff oredi...all i can do now to conpensate is to say...
I M VERI SORI MT!I REALLI M...
m?#291;  ŧħέ d?#947;:leave mi to rot