duno wats wrong

k la...today is lik worse den yesterday...in fact today i feel the worse out of all the days in the holiday...dun ask mi y....i duno...juz dun feel rite...haiz...

sumtimes i realli feel tt i m livin in my own world...as if ppl beside mi r all invisble...if i was lik dose ppl hu lik being alone den i wld b alrite on my own la...but den i not leh...i need others one...cant stand being alone...but the irony wit all dis is i dun let anyone n everyone into my world one...onli sum ppl can access lik tt...haiz...lik wat do i wan la...so pissed wit myself...

now i m lik not in the rite state of mind to do anything la...i didnt feel lik eatin...but still hav to force food down my throat...dis is lik so sad la...den watch tv oso sianz...use com oso sianz...nth seems rite...feel lik goin for a walk...but den cant...my mother will ask dis ask tt...wich will lik spark off my temper...den oso if i go walk walk...i will juz anyhow tink again lor...den in the end i will feel worse la...

i duno wat to do to pls myself...nth seems rite...but wat makes things worse is all dis is always tempo...come n go...den its lik veri irritatin la...

now i wan to pls my emotional needs but den how...sumtimes i realli feel tt kids r so xing fu...when dey sad dey juz need to cry n after tt dey will feel all better...if onli things hav always stayed so simple...i wld b so contented to b juz one more day of a kid...but it will nv come true...
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24hrRu!
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i hav always been tired...i can nv get enuff rest...but i m so used to it tt as long as i dun stop tinkin actively abt sumthing i will not feel tired...

but today i realli feel tt things r catchin up to mi la...now i realli feel veri veri veri tired...both physically n mentally...normally i wun feel physically tired one...even w/o slp...but den now no lor...i tink its coz i m so mentally stressed out tt my mind is lik sendin signal to the whole body to close down so tt i cant do anything...so tt it can get sum proper rest...

i always say tt i veri stressed...i mean i realli m sia...but i m stressed over so things tt i dun realli duno wat i m stressin abt...i used to say tt i will burn out myself sooner or later...i tink tt time has come...

msg of the day:take my mind n soul to a paradise...