wats on ur mind/in too deep

well...nth muc to do...so blog lor...but anyway i wanted to blog on dis topic yesterday oredi...readin the title sum of u may tink tt dis entry muz b tokin abt her...but not entirely la...but do read on to find out...

anyway for the first part...well wan we communicate/interact rite...we veri naturally tend to assume wat sumone is tinkin n den we respond...for eg la...lik if u ask mi wld i mind helpin u print sth...den i juz reply orh...u duno my orh is willin or unwillin...w/o the tone added into it...coz i may juz b being nice so juz help lor...in actually fact i dun realli feel lik it...but on ur side u decide upon accessin on wats the apparent tinkin process in my mind thru methods such as tone n facial expression...but sori to say its not always accurate...coz dis 2 elements can b acted out one...as for body language...well it cld tell more...but it is still not enuff to paint the full pic...

u guys might b wonderin y i m on dis topic...surely sth strike mi den giv mi inspiration for the entry one...but for jj ppl...no dis is not regardin or abt the gp compre we took...well its actually abt how ppl judge us...the shant say the coz of dis topic here...coz its rather meaninless...but if u realli wan to no den ask mi again ba...

anyway sumtimes ppl judge judge us by the apparent look...well i no its a veri natural thing to do...n seriously its rather inevitable...but i always wonder y cant we juz leave a qn mark behind wat we tink so as not to jump into conclusions...

i use myself as eg la...i no i dun realli review to others wats on my mind...despite the fact tt i always share my views n opinion on stuff...n oso tok abt my private life....but den i m sure mani of u r still puzzled wit wat exactly does my brain function...well...if u r tinkin along dis line den i m fine wit u...coz at least u dun conclude for mi...even though u duno...

seriously i realli find myself too complicated la...too muc to b true la...n too muc for my own benefit...so its almost impossible to guess wats on my mind la...realli...sumtimes i oso confused by myself...coz lookin at things from mani perspective makes my stand weak...so i duno wich side of the picture m i standin on...

but wat irritates mi the most is dose ppl hu conclude my character w/o knowin wats on my mind...worse still if dey onli no half of wats goin on ARD mi...take note its ard mi not in my mind...dere is a significant diff...

i no i m veri slack n lazy...not motivated to work n blah blah blah...i no my poor grades r my fault...no one else to blame...but do u tink it helps wit so muc goin on ard mi let alone in tt chaotic mind of mine...sumtimes i m realli veri drain by all dis shit lor...i realli hav to call dem shit...i dun wan/wish to b shelfish la...but can u lik pls tink in my shoes PROPERLY...not juz put stuff it in anyway n tink tt u r in my shoes...u r not lor...wat i need now is not ur INCORRECT judgement for mi to sharpen my psychological skills...y cant u lik juz provide mi wit the least support u can AFFORD...

i no how to handle my emotions...but i always take a far too long time to settle dem...n now i dun hav muc time left...n i cld do wit all the help i cld get...i dun wan to specify wat kind of help i need...coz i dun wan later i get help tt is insincere or got motive one...sori hor...but if u giv mi help for such reasons...i rather b left alone...
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ok now for the 2nd part...well if i m not wrong i last time oso got say sth abt dis topic b4 oso...but watever la...feel lik sayin it again den say lor...its lik wat we bro always say...fried rice can always fry again one...haha...

in too deep...in other words obession...obession is not gd...we all no tt...but we juz cant control ourselves n always fall in to the pit...b it work play or relationship...i my not sayin tt puttin ur heart into wat u do is not gd or wat la...but den hor...if u go till the extent of being obessed den i tink its too muc la...i mean lik y hurt urself...

but all tt being said...i happen to b one of the idoits...lol...so ironic sia...lol...i m always the one to say such da dao li...but most of the time i m the one commiting the mistake...

but watever la...i hav done it again...in too deep...well not i wan to b pessimistic or wat la...but sumtimes the situations i face pts the arrow in the opposite direction...so i cant help tinkin wat if i hear bad news...if tt realli happens i realli duno how i will react...realli...i no the time period dis time is far shorter...the acceleration is faster...n so does the damage tt comes wit it in a crash...i dare not dream of the arrival of tt day...i realli realli wish tt i doesnt come...call mi a coward or watever la...i rather things b left as it is den to no tragic end...

i always say i wan ppl to b frank to mi...but i tink dis is one thing tt i cant face up front...haiz...

msg of the day:our conversations may fade as we forget the content,but its footsteps has left behing memories...