resoultion-死了都要爱

the long anticipated entry has finally being posted...haha...ya i no veri slow...but muz understand la...its not everyday i can find time to sit here n tink abt wat i wan to write abt u no...

anyways ya...i hav come to a resolution for my life...as the theme of the blog suggest yeah...死了都要爱...the cover pg roughly explains wat dis whole resolution is abt...so nth muc to explain abt the resolution actually...but mayb i shld tok abt the source of idea...its from the drama series by SHIN...in the story ah xing giv a necklace to his gf...n the pendant is featured on the coverin pg...the design basically is the 5 words wit a music score at the bkgrd...or "dao gei" sum might say...in the story the meanin of dis 5 words is ah xing's undyin passion for music(wich explains the score) and of course for his gf...tt scene was quite touchin...ah xing being a hardcore rock musician expresses his passion n ambition for his music...

it has taught mi to believe in watever i do...although wat we blive may not always b the correct thing...but i guess u wld the most charged doin wat u blive...even if the outcome is not favorable...at least u tried...hav no regrets...after tt endure the consequences n move on wit more drive...

to sum ppl dis resolution may b a little too ideal...coz it requires hell lot of movitation n faith...if one is not strong enuff mentally n emotionally...i tink dis resolution is too abstract for dem ba...for mi i took quite a while to fully accept it...or rather internalised...coz i got to no dis philisophy abt 1-2 years ago...so ya...it has been ard...but not inside...now tt i more or less confirm tt i had strike a milestone in my life...i guess the philisophy is here to stay...

coupled wit the dis theory... is another theory i learn from another drama series i hav been watchin...called xiao yu er yu hua wu que...in one scene xiao yu er's disciple ask him y is he always so happi n asked if dere was a reason for it...he juz replied...dere is no reason for y i m happi...i m happi bcoz i m happi...no need to b happi for a reason one...dis theory is more abstract and harder to live by compared to the other one...summore dis theory will lead to life tt is sum sort de guo qie guo...so it cant go alone...

but so muc said...no matter wat philisophy we use in life...it doesnt realli matter...coz diff ppl hav diff perspective abt life...so naturally dey will come up wit diff ways to push demselves in life...but tts of coz dey hav the will to help demselves first...i mean if dey keep rottin dey lives away den watever philisophy oso wun work for dem...coz dey dun even at the least bit blive in demselves...

well...as for the future...its rather in a mess now...but dun worry...i can take it better oredi...as for y izzit in such a mess...mayb i will update it sum other time...dis entry is suppose to b full of hope...haha...
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24hr信徒
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well...in the process of gettin my membership as a 信徒 i kind of damage my friendship wit sumone...i hope its not as bad as i tink...now i can onli wait...for mi i feel tt gettin my resolution at the expense of our friendship was rather not worth it n selfish...n to tink tt i made a promise to myself...i feel so ashame...tts y if sum noticed... dere was a bit of change to my status...

i dun wan to explicitly spell it out...but i tink its obvious enuff...i dun tink i will take back tt status...coz its ptless...in fact it was oredi ptless from the start...i juz refuse to wake up...now tt i REALLI wake up liao...i muz stop myself from makin the same mistake...

now the onli thing i can do is wait for the rain to stop...n c whether the injury will recover...

i made a mistake writin tt letter...i made a bigger mistakin passin it to u...i m sori...but its all in the past now...i realli hope u meant wat u said the other day... i m sori i show so little faith in ur words...coz i m realli confused by ur signals after tt day...so if u r readin dis...tok to mi when u feel more comfortable...take care n gd luck...

msg of the day:永远的信徒，死了都要爱。