wats worth it...wats not...

today sumthing veri unhappi happened at nh...at first was veri angry abt it...now veri sad abt it...juz lik wat my bk say how sumone will react...first aderadline rush...den after tt when u recover ur consious kick in...u will feel more emotional abt it(things lik pity, guilt n sadness)...

i duno wat i shld do abt the situation...as of now...i my stoppin work...onli followin...n of course fufil the promises i made to various ppl...n i tink i will go seek mr low for advise regardin wat to do abt the issue...

but seriously i m veri tired workin such conditions...its veri stressful...comin back to work for dance is suppose to b sumthing tt i enjoy...but i dread more n more abt helpin out...i tink if things keep gettin more unfavorable for mi...i tink it wld b ptless for mi to cling onto it anymore...

first thing is tt things i do seems to b no avail...n instead of gettin appreciated...i m seem as a wanted figure...i mean wat kind of return is dis...yes i m rude n vulgar...but so wat...seriously u ask urself...if u deserve my respect wld i b rude n vulgar to u...further more...i dun say vulgarities to u...if u r realli unhappi wit mi...juz ban mi from nh den...i realli dun hav the heart to play politics wit u...i can make u or break u...its whether i wan to go tt far...n i dun tink its worth puttin my principles at stake...

seriously la...u r an adult in an respectable profession...yet u r bhavin no better den any of the core grp ppl...yes u can do mani things dey cant...in fact things tt i cant as well...but hav u ever ask urself y did u enter dis industry in the first place...sumtimes the things u say r so indescribable tt i realli doubt ur maturity...if u role here is onli to work n fufil ur DEFINED job scope...den i tink u r in the wrong industry...i wish to put it so crude...but u r not suited for dis job...

now the issue is wat i shld do...shld i save myself the trouble n juz walk away...izzit worth it to walk away wat i hav been fightin for all dis while...bcoz of dis? or shld i stay on n endure all dis crap shit...haiz...i realli duno wat shld it b...as muc as i hate to bring such trivial stuff to mr low...but i tink he is the onli one hu can giv mi advice...

juz when i tot the things tt i can b sad abt r startin to fade away...things juz seem more bleak...
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it has been a while...since i got so bcome so down...so sad...wat happen today juz bcame the fuel for the fire tt is burnin at the diff spots in my heart...now dey hav juz merge into one giant flame...mani things hitted mi juz lik tt...juz when i m goin to react from it...i get hit again...i dun even hav enuff time to get back on my feet b4 i m strike down...history is repeatin itself...yet again...bad news juz dun seem to come...ppl juz dun seem happi wit deir stay...mayb i wasnt my destiny or my fate...i m m juz jinxed...

msg of the day:pls leave ur ticket wit mi b4 u go, at least i still hav a piece of u in my life...