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feelin sad...y i duno...haiz...tml is my birthday...i m sayin dis not bcoz i wan to ask for presents...in fact i hope u all dun giv mi anithing...coz u juz waste ur money...ur wishes is enuff...anyway...i say my birthday here is bcoz although tml is my birthday...i dun feel excited...but sad...haiz...i dun hav a person realli realli realli close to spend it wit...but i dun expect tt things will change overnite...but all i wish is she remember my birthday...but if she doesnt...ppl hu no hu she is pls dun remind her...mayb things would b better off tt way...pls treat it as my birthday present ba...
i look around mi a lot of my friends hav steads...sumtimes i realli cannot stand it...haiz...but wat can i do...the ironic things is tt dey hav a chance to b together n yet dey qurrael...either dey dun no hav to cherish deir relationship or dey r juz not into the relationship enuff...wateva la...its none my business...it shldnt bother mi...
n recently i realised...the amount of notes has decreased drastically...in the past it used to hav a lot of notes...now it is so pitiful...either ppl hu reads my entry dun bother to leave a note or dere r less ppl hu r concern wit my life...but hus to blame...i myself oso nv do my part as a friend...when was the last time i visited any of my friends od...at least a week...sum even mths...haiz...
on sat i m goin to perform in yishun...i takin part in the wushu under dance inspiration...i m subin botaks part...coz he cannot make it...haiz... juz learned the set of dao...scare cannot remember my steps...if i mess dis up i will b puttin the efforts of everyone down the drain...i wan to b in the tip top condition for the event...but fri got jj nite...wich ends at 1130...so late...i still cant decide if i shld go a not...haiz...i m always tied up by dis trivial things...y cant i b more decisive...haiz...
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24hr!:yesterday nite i had a dream tt i had been havin for mani years...it appears abt once per year...n i dun lik its content...i tink i would classify it in nightmares...its abt sumone tt i m veri close to hu had gone missin or had died...i would b goin to her house to search for clues off where she might b or how did she die...as i look thru her stuff i would start to remember stuff abt her...the memories were so happi yet in the dream i feel so sad...haiz...the worst thing is tt when i woke up i feel terriblely sad...haiz...mayb tts oso the reason y i m sad now ba...
does dis repeatin dream hav a meanin...i mean if i has no meanin y did if keep repeatin...as in sum of my other dreams wich onli occur once came thru...one example is tt i dream of a place tt wasnt in the state it was in the dream at tt pt of time...later on i find tt i fits the state in the dream after sum time when the environment changed...its lik so creepy lor...does it mean tt in the future sth similar wld happen...or izzit last time in my previous life it had occur once...n now its here to haunt mi again...
haiz...now its playin gui ji on 933...i realli hope tt forgettin sumone wld bas ez as it is in the lyrics of the song...haiz...
m?#291;  ŧħέ d?#947;:wo hui fa zhe dai,ren hou wang ji ni